I sit sipping my cup of tea reflecting on things that i fought though to survive.

People always say what doesn't kill you will make you stronger.

That doesnt change the fact that im no longer the person I was.

Doesnt give them the right to inflict the distruction they forced upon me.

Their sick game.

Doesnt heal the pain locked in the shadows of my mind.

Tragic memories always break free. 

I try to not let people close to me see.

Only a close few can tell and will ask "you okay" as usual i always say "yeah im fine."

Looking down as i continue to write.

Feverish fingers fly over the pages.

Tear drops splash.

The luster of early morning light reflecting off my window i glance up once again nights slipped away.

I successfully kept the nightmares at bay.

This is what you made me become.

I fight each day.

Cursing the imprint you left on my life.

I did survive and now your locked away.

But your violent actions stay.

Im stronger, I moved on but still your poison seeps back into my mind.

Sometimes I wish I could go back in time change things, rewrite this story of mine.

Or should i call you my reoccurring nightmare always in the shadows lurking there.

Planting uncertainty where i keep you locked away.

But no im okay.

Taking deep breaths to calm my racing heart.

I tell myself your locked away.

There to stay.

I so want to throw away that key make you pay more then just sitting in that cell.

Make your life a living hell for the damaged you inflicted.

Scream in your face you're twisted.

The game you play is sick.

But no i sit here and write because it keeps my sanity gives me a small glimpse of some good in humanity.

You're not worth the hate.

Not worth a memory at all.

I remind myself its not all bad i healed and happiness can once again be had.

Wounds healed only a few scars remain.

I survived.

I fought through all the fear and pain.

You just sit and rot.

Game over and done, I won.

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