Thoughts go around and around in my head each day and night.

Thoughts of everything that's going on in my life.

Mixed emotions causing me strife.

Feelings and people that complicate my life.

I sit and over think trying to figure out all these predicaments that arise.

I feel like im floating out at sea and there's no life jacket being thrown to me.

Im sinking and sinking and here i am still over thinking.

Problem is my heart and my head don't always agree.

There's these ups and downs that i see.

Almost like a pattern with me.

I grasp a few moments of something that finally feels like it's right.

Then i start thinking again everything going round and round playing out in my head.

I start to push people away.

Even when i wish i could let myself take a chance and ask them to stay.

Im drowning in this darkness that engulfs me, struggling to be free.

Always keeping people far enough away they cant see my vulnerability.

Running away, then looking back wondering if it should of played out a different way.

It feels wrong to run but at the same time i don't have the right to ask them to stay.

People always say "penny for your thoughts."

If that were the case i would have riches like king midas.

I put on this poker face like everything's okay, talk to you almost everyday.

Hiding feeling inside, to afraid to let there even be a us.

But my life doesn't have the golden touch.

I sit here overthinking my past and about things that didn't last.

I think about things i have done and the things that are still to come.

When it's all said and done each of us has to pick the right path.

Sometimes we end up going the wrong way.

I sit here and all these thoughts keep going around and around.

I wonder maybe if i had already found someone that helped me get through the worst days.

But i feared i would mess things up, so i ran away because it was easier that way.

Easier then to admit my feelings and stay.

Problem is they think exactly like me and were running the opposite way too.

Im always thinking of you, then casually play it cool and just say "hey."

I always remember things you say that make me laugh.

You pop in my mind as i go through my day.

Now all i can do is wait and let fate play out it's game.

maybe we will get another chance to see how things could be.

Next time i wont be so quick to run away.

Maybe next time, I'll take a chance and stay.

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