CHAN
"LUNA!" I yelled as a bolt of lightning landed not far from her feet. She jumped back and fell down in shock. I ran towards her and pulled her back from the steaming area of grass that was briefly burning. "I told you to be careful, damnit" He huffed out.

She stared at where she was just standing and how close it had come to hitting her. "Just my luck. Now I apparently deserve to be hit by lightning too." She whined. I think that was when I realized how close she was, sitting in my lap while she caught her breath. You would think I'd instantly want her to get off of me, but I didn't. When she did stand up and got farther away from me, I didn't want her to. Even in the dampness of the rain she smelled good, flowers mixed with vanilla.

You can't do this, Chan. You can't have feelings for her. You're no good for anyone, especially not someone as good as her.

"Sorry. I didn't mean to sit on you..." She said quietly, just loud enough for me to hear her over the sound of the rain.

"You should go inside, Luna." I replied standing up too. "Getting almost hit by lightning is enough for today, yeah?"

"Thank you." She said as I started to walk away. I walked away silently, confused about what I was feeling. I had decided a long time ago that I would be alone. I didn't need anyone else in my life to make it more complicated. I definitely didn't need a soulmate either, and here she was making me feel things I didn't want to feel.

***
LUNA

Now soaking wet, I walked back up to my dorm room leaving small puddles behind me on my way up the stairs. Slowly going in the room, Bora looked at me like I'd gone insane.

"Before you say anything....I know." I said holding my hand up and standing there looking like a drowned rat. "I just almost died. I got my karma for yelling at you. I promise."

"Almost DIED?" She said widening her eyes and staring at me.

"Lightning. Right near my feet. If it wasn't for Chan pulling me out of the way, I'd be dead....or electrocuted. Something like that."

"Wait, CHAN pulled you out of the way? How romantic." She drawled sarcastically.

"Mmm yeah. I may have fallen on him and sat in his lap. Today could not be more awkward." I mentioned as I got dry clothes from my closet and started to change.

"You two need to just admit you like each other." Bora said as she went back to her homework.

"No, he doesn't want to know me." I threw myself back on my bed in my dry pajamas. While I knew he didn't want anything to do with me, any kind of physical touch from him sent shivers down my spine. It pained me to admit I was so attracted to him, but I couldn't ignore how my heart skipped a beat whenever I made eye contact with him and all the red in the room would come to life.

***
CHAN

It's been two weeks since the incident in the rain, and I couldn't stop thinking about it. The way she'd fallen in my lap and looked at me. She was on my mind all the time these days and it made me uncomfortable. I'd stayed away from most people for a reason. My friend Jisung looked at me while continuously shoving food in his mouth, like he was packing it away in his cheeks for later.

"What's your deal?" He mumbled around the large amount of food in his mouth.

"He's got a soulmate he's avoiding" Changbin chimed in as he sat down next to me.

"We're not soulmates, knock it off." I snapped, Jisung stopped chewing at stared between me and Bin.

"Since when do you have a soulmate? Where have I been?" Jisung gave a wide eyed look.

"Since like two months ago, Jisung." Changbin replied patting me on the back.

"Will you stop? We're nothing, ok?" I gritted out giving Bin the side eye.

"What, you don't see any color?" Jisung asked once he'd finally swallowed the food in his mouth.

"She does, Chan here is trying to convince me he doesn't, but...I think he's lying" Changbin whispered loudly.

"I'm not lying!" I said loudly as Changbin laughed at me.

"You're lying" Changbin repeated quickly before looking back up at Jisung.

"Why you lyin', Channie?" Jisung joked shoving more food in his mouth.

"I'm not! Why is everyone wanting me to get with this girl?! I don't get it!" I yelled standing up and walking away from the table.

"Oh he's definitely lying." I heard Jisung say from behind me as I walked away.

I was lying, and it was killing me that everyone could see right through me. The day I bumped into her I saw everything in full color for the first time in my life, but as I walked away from her everything slowly faded to black and white again. Every single time I was near her everything exploded into a rainbow of colors I'd never seen before.

I had secrets, I had a history. She seemed so pure and lively, the exact opposite of me. I had planned out my life perfectly. Go to college, get a job, work....and never fall in love. I didn't want to ever have to explain my past, and if I found my soulmate I'd have to eventually. Then that person would leave me, and I'd be alone anyway. So what was the point?

I stalked out of the building and headed towards the quad when I saw Luna coming my way. The world burst into color as she got closer.

"Chan!" She yelled jogging over towards me. She looked really pretty in a baggy pair of jean with holes in the knees and a dark green crop top. Her dark hair was halfway pulled back. I stopped slowly and turned around to look at her.

"What now?" I said exasperated.

"I wanted to thank you again. For the other night. I really could've gotten hurt." She said playing with the straps on her backpack.

"Ok." I said trying to look at anything but her.

"It's just I had a big argument with my friend, and I just needed space and I just wanted to feel the rain on my face, and I guess it didn't occur to me--"

"Ok, I get it." I said starting to get annoyed. There was a long moment of silence between us before she spoke again.

"Why do you hate me so much? Why bother saving me if you have such an intense dislike for me?" She asked looking up at me with teary eyes. I could tell she was trying hard not to cry.

"I don't hate you." I said firmly "I hate myself." I said as I finally turned around and walked away. Slowly the colors in my vision turned muted and then disappeared. Shaking my head I headed to my next class.

***

LUNA
I stood there an watched him walk away from me. He pulled his back pack up over one shoulder and shoved his hands in his pockets. Trying to make himself smaller. I don't know if it was our connection or just me, but I felt bad for him. What could he have possibly done to make him feel so bad about himself? That day in the quad, when he pulled me out of the way, I felt safe. I felt comforted and in a way that no one else ever has. He can deny me all he wants, but I was going to get to know him. I felt like I needed to.