You willed yourself to stop disliking Lila. You really tried, but her attitude just makes your day turn sour real quick.

Quite suspicious when a girl suddenly transfers in your school just when the school is nearing the end of the year.

But when she presented an excuse, everyone easily believed her. Said that she was travelling with her mother because of her work and all that, actually you didn't give a damn.

The whole week, she was just plain annoying with her obvious crush on a certain boy in your class.

You didn't warn Adrien. Of course he would know about Lila. She made herself famous after all.

Once, she made herself sit beside Adrien where Nino usually sat. She said that she can't hear the teacher very well. It made your blood boil, but being the selfless person that you are, you switch places with Nino just as he was walking towards the back. He thanked you before going to sit besides Alya.

Of course, it was okay, being their friend and all. You can see the board from the top.

But what you didn't like was Lila's petty excuse just to sit next to Adrien. You almost wished you were that desperate to be with your crush.

Almost.

But the next few days was full of happiness. Your heart would flutter every time you would hear his laugh. He was laughing at your jokes that you feel your pride swelling because someone laughed at your joke!! And it was your crush!!

Then with your comebacks he was a hundred percent on-board with what you're always saying. Like everytime you're roasting Kim he'd be screaming 'ooh's and 'whooAaa!' every freaking time.

You would deal with it, up to the point where you'd let him lead you to his created handshake. It was a totally different one with Nino and you were honoured to have his hand hold your own to guide through his choreo.

There were also days when Alya or Marinette would approach you and ask about the confession like:

"When are you gonna do it?"

"What are you going to do?"

You would answer them with a shrug or a shake of your head. You weren't sure yourself. Will you do it? If so, when?

Then, your insecurities and anxieties would flood inside your mind, filling it with different scenarios and outcomes. You would imagine that he would avoid you after you confess to him, one part also suggests that he would hate you and be with Lila just because he hates you. One part implies that you won't do it all because you are a complete wimp, an utter failure and Lila would totally race you to the finish line.

You shook your head. You won't let yourself lose. You agreed to yourself that you would confess to him at the 29th day of April. Just as the school ends at May the 1st. Today is twenty-five days before the 29th.

You still have plenty of time.

It was a sentimental night. Just two hours before the next morning. No school tomorrow and you were just chilling, thinking about the homework you just breezed through.

While trying to fall asleep, a sudden ding from your phone cut your line of concentration. A message from Adrien popped up as you raised an eyebrow. The first message in the month of April.

Adrien:
ah dude
i am getting nervous.
i just
i can't take it anymore

What? The last time you saw him he was smiling and okay. What happened? Your heart was sent into panic mode without warning and you did not like it. Did something happen?

YOU:
why why why

You did not know what to say except to express your panicking into words.

Adrien:
i think her memories will haunt me again

You groaned. That was it? Gosh, he was dramatic. He should be signed up as an actor instead of a model.

Adrien:
i don't want to rememeber our good memories together.

YOU:
aw dude...

try to get through it?

you have to, yknow

Adrien:
when i talk to you i only get this
10% of sadness

YOU:
ok that's good

Adrien:
but i feel like tomorrow will just suddenly become a 100

YOU:
no don't think about that

Adrien:
i could never imagine we'd end up this way
now i'm fighting through the pain
it's like my heart that's been broken is so close to screaming

Before he could type another message, you simply cut him off with a-

YOU:
dude.

can you just

not overthink for a moment

Adrien:
i try Y/N
i try so hard.
but when it's all quiet she's suddenly in
the back of my head

YOU:
ok think about this
um

ok so you're thinking about her

but think about how you're going to be better

think about how you're going to talk to her again

think good thoughts.

Adrien:
basically
being optimistic and positive

YOU:
yeah

Adrien:
ok
i sure hope i can do this

ugh i cant

YOU:
wait what
please

Adrien:
i will sleep so good and wake up being positively fantastic!

You knew he was lying.

YOU:
atleast reassure yourself that you are going to be alright

compliment yourself

lol anything

You're almost begging.

i just can't stand it. seeing you depressed and all.

Adrien:
i hope i could bring back the old us

YOU:
u could
if u stop worrying about it

just don't treat each other like strangers

Adrien:
you know what,
in this situation like when i'm being sad and all
she would just laugh at me.
unlike you where you won't let me be sad and just
ur always there for me

Your heart swelled. You were smiling a bit. It's a good thing that for a moment, he's not thinking about Marinette.

YOU:
that's glad to hear.

Adrien:
what do you mean?

YOU:
it's nothing i mean
i'm not really good at giving advices
but hearing you say that
kinda makes me feel better about myself

Adrien:
it's really good to talk to you, ya know
you give the good advices tbh
thanks for everything

You sighed. Your eyes were almost teary. You admit, you're not that good at comforting a person, but it's nice to hear it from your crush that he appreciates your efforts.

Adrien:
i want you to know how savage she is

You deadpanned. Now he's back at obssessing over Mari. You made a text meme in your head about this situation.

Nonetheless, you gave your best reply.

YOU:
how???

Adrien:
it was this one time when i told her why i like her then she just laughed at me and told me to change the subject

Not gonna lie but-

YOU:
aw well
ugh that
hurt me

Adrien:
i've known her for a while but why was she like that?!

YOU:
what do you mean

Adrien:
i mean the kind of person who won't feel sad for you. i don't want to destroy her image but

you care for her the most but not once did she care about you
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Y/N?
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helloooooo?
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You fell asleep.

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yooooo. i am back.

can i tell y'all something?

i am actually getting tired of writing this book

it's because i don't like the ending of it.

i will finish it though! there is still a lot to cover about my failed love life lol! prepare to freaking suffer. you will go through what i've been through! mwahahaha

the next chapter is when i took the big step of becoming a teen: confessing to your crush.

oh boy am i going to suffer writing this crap of a memory.

lmao good luck!

KimmiePines