"The best love is the kind that awaken our souls,
that make us reach for more,
that plants the fire in our hearts
and bring peace to our mind.
That's what I hope to give you forever" - The Notebook

She was lying in her bed for so long she's been lost track of time. although she stopped crying long ago she just was too executed to move. was it her first breakdown in a while? The last one happened when she was a child, when she died. Where things started breaking apart even more. after that she lost her dear grandpa, who died for a reason she forgotten, she's so silly, she didn't forget the pain but she forgotten the reason why he died, same for her mother. only her father stayed alive, and she didn't like him, how could he leave her like that?! although she stopped caring about it long time ago, it happen so long ago, that she became numb to that pain. but something about him, about Makoto given back feelings she forgot exist, it was both exitement and happiness and fear and saddness. Just what's wrong with her? should she give him a chance? just one chance? perhaps things will be okay. Perhaps things won't break like they always do. perhaps she could be truly happy.

suddenly she heard the phone ringing a ringtone, it was a short ringtone, means a message sent to her, "From who?" she asked herself, it made her heart beat from exitement and anxiety. The girl pulled out her cellphone as she got a message from a number she didn't knew "suspicious" she thought to herself, her face showed slight confusion but she was on the house alone so nobody would be able to see it. She opened the message:
"O-oh Hello! So um I got your phone because of the class group chat, I-I hope you don't mind.
it's Makoto BTW :)"
She chuckled, it was so like him to keep her phone and try to chat with her, on the first day their homeroom teacher opened a groupchat for important messages and stuff, He probably searched for her number there to save it, it's pretty clear which one is her own, she decided to reply with a short hello, without much saying to it and without emotions, that's what she would do in real life anyway.
"Umm... Mind if I ask you a question?"
"You already asked one" she replied to him.
"R-right" he probably was nervous, she decided to fix that.
"Go ahead and ask, you don't need to ask for permission. :)" It was unlike her to add emoticon, but she did it anyways, she felt it was right.
"Umm Are you mad at me? it feels like I did something wrong, You look really upset the other day too... I'm sorry if I hurt you in anyway." It made her chest tightened, she didn't want to worry him, perhaps it's her chance to make things right, she hoped so/
"Don't worry, you're fine... I didn't feel so good I had a headache the other day..." She lied to him, it was a white lie so it's fine it seems.
"A-Ah I'm glad, do you mind if we start over again?" She blushed, perhaps he felt the same thing.
"I don't mind." she answered, falling down to her bed before smiling slightly to herself. After few moments she got another message,
"Hi, Are you free this weekend?" Is that an invitation to a date? Well whatever it's better to hang out alone then with all the classmates looking at them and starting to ship them.
"Yes, Why?" She sent to him, she wonder why she wrote why but oh well, at least she showed she interest in that "date invitation"
"Wanna go to the park this sunday?" if she wasn't a smart girl she would ask which park it is, but since there's only one park around and she was a very smart girl, she won't ask him.
"Sure!" she sent, she felt her cheeks hitting up, he then sent her the time before she close the phone without sending a reply, she didn't want to talk with him more or that her blush will be more red and more annoying. sunday is tomorrow right? they would meet tommorows morning so she better go to sleep early so she won't be grumpy and tired and depressed, she smiled to herself, She got her first date, it was kinda easy. she then went to sleep.

Like always she woke up quite early then usual, she had time before the meeting she felt nervous, she wasn't sure why. perhaps it was the first time in the while going out from the house for meeting someone, and the someone was a boy as well, which made it more awkward. she always woke up early from anxiety and such but right now she was more anxious, she sighed before standing up from her bed, she decided to wash her face and do things on the time she had. she went to the toilet looked at herself in the mirror, she looked more ugly then usual because she just woke up, her eyes were tired and her hair was messy, she looked more pale then usual. she washed her face on her left hand while she searched for a brush on the right hand. when she finished washing her face she started brushing her hair, she looked much better, although she still wasn't that beautiful. Perhaps she should wear makeup today, to make her look less red and tired, she decided to go for it, she wasn't the type of person to wear makeup everyday like most of the girls in class but because she's going for a "date" (At least she thinks she does) it would make it more special if she'll do something with her face. she didn't have quite things for makeup, she basically had her mother makeup products. when she remembered her mom she felt unease. she didn't know her quite well, but the short time she knew her she was very kindhearted, giving hugs and kisses, always at her side, when she died it was heartbreaking for all the family. She sighed, she decided to go for it anyway, hoping that her mother would give her good luck for today.

After some time she finished her makeup and basically she finished preparing, she still had sometime, she'll leave the house in few minutes, she felt her heart beating fast, She felt excited. She hoped she won't mess it up, perhaps she needs to learn how to trust in others too. if he didn't leave her at that point, maybe.. maybe he'll stay with her, maybe... she'll be happy. She took few deep breaths, took her little bag before she left her house, going on the street toward the subway station, The park was on the next station. She waited slightly until the train came and she picked it up, when she entered the train she felt excited, much more then what she felt in the morning, it felt like she had butterflies in her stomach, it made her feel nervous, soon the drive was over, it happened so fast, too fast, it made her question her life decision, she needed to refuse, she needed to refuse, she needed to re-

NO she's not going to give up right now, she step out the train, then she continued her way out of the station, the park was quite close so she hoped she won't be late or that she lose her way. she decided to focus on the way and think of Makoto later. she walked her way out the station, then she walked her way toward the park, she was there few times with her family, it's so strange that her first meeting in a while will be there too. she wonder how simillar to her mother she looks right now, she wonder what he thinks of right now, is he think about her? or is he think about something else? is he feeling the same thing she does? or perhaps she's the only one who's crazy...

She arrived at the park, she wasn't sure what to do now, should she call him? message him? just wait?
"Hello there Kyoko!" she could hear a very familiar voice, she turned around to see Makoto.
"Oh, Hi!" she said, she was a little surprised but she was able to keep a cool face. He was smiling sheeply. "So... shall we go?" he asked the other, she nodded, she hoped she wasn't blushing. then they started walking they way on the park.

They walked together, the world seems to slow down, the park looked really beautiful but she couldn't help it, she felt nervous, she felt so afraid for no reason. "Hi Makoto?" she asked the other. "mhm?" he response as he looked at her. "Have you been here before?" she asked him, she was curious about it, he probably was here with his family and such. "No... it's actually one of my first times here..." he told her sheeply. "Is that so?" she thought for a bit. "Yeah.. myfamily don't have a lot of time to go out heh" he rubbed his back from nervousness. "I see." she simply said. "I didn't visit here for a long time actually." she said after few moments, she wasn't sure why she said it. "I guess we're on the same boat!" He said, chuckling slightly. she chuckled slightly too, perhaps they are.

"You have a nice laugh" he said smiling. she raised a brow, it was suprising and super cheesy. "you aware that you say something super cheesy right?" she asked him. he laughed "Yeah.." they continued walking, until they decided to sit on a bench, they sat there for a while in silence.

Suddenly, as the conversation was going to a good start, things started to get blurry around Kyoko, causing the female's eyes to widen slightly. Then, she noticed that blood was covering her hands. The female felt her heart rate increase, as well as her breathing. This was quickly noticed by Makoto, causing him to feel really concerned for the girl beside him. "K-Kyoko, are you alright? Did I do something wrong?" he questioned, putting a hand on her shoulder. Makoto could feel Kyoko trembling, as he put his hand on her shoulder.

Quickly, Kyoko began to freak out, getting out of the male's grip. She felt her heart beat increase even more now, causing her to trip. "I...I'm sorry, I-I'm so sorry...I didn't mean to...I'm sorry, Makoto," was all she could let out, talking nonsense. Makoto quickly sat by her, not caring if he was going to get his jeans dirty, he wanted to make sure everything was going to be alright for her. He didn't hug the other quite yet, since touching her seemed to cause her to panic more. "I seriously didn't m-mean to do this...I'm so sorry, y-you had a long life ahead of you, and I..." she started to ramble more, obviously having a nervous breakdown.

"Kyoko, no-- I-I'm right here, please don't feel scared," Makoto tried to reassure the other, though he could tell that the other was shaking too much. He thought this was the time to hug her and comfort her, so she knew he was right there along with her. So, that's exactly what he did, hugging the other gently. Finally, Kyoko stared at him, tears apparently about to fall down from her eyes. Makoto tried to give a reassuring smile, though it was also a little nervous. Though, he wanted to try his best to help the other, because he cared for her...quite a lot, actually. Which was why he was so persistent to make the other feel better than she was right now.

"See? I'm right here, Kyoko. Please don't cry," Makoto told the other, wiping the other's tears that were coming out a little. He sensed that the girl was starting to calm down a little, since she wasn't breathing so hard like earlier. They stayed in this position for a little while, until Kyoko was fully calm. "...I...I apologize, I don't know what came over me..." Kyoko finally said, pulling away from the other. "No, no, it's fine...I just wanted to make sure you were alright, is all." Makoto replied, giving a reassuring smile.

"...Thank you, Makoto," Kyoko finally thanked the other quietly, causing him to give a dismissive hand gesture. "No need," he responded with a sheepish smile, causing the female to have a slight smile as well. He couldn't help but to blush when he saw the other's smile, and also couldn't help but to admire it. "Ah, did you know your smile is very cute, Kyoko?" Makoto questioned, smiling a little more. Kyoko chuckled lightly, and started to get up. "...I assume you're going to go back to being cheesy, correct?" she questioned, holding her hand out to him, so he could get up.

"O-Oh, was it a little cheesy?" Makoto gave a small awkward smile, scratching at his cheek lightly. Though, he accepted the other's help and got back onto his feet. "Maybe a little," Kyoko responded honestly, causing the other to give an awkward laugh, though he also didn't quite mind. After all, he did like her quite a lot. "Anyway, would you like me to walk you home? I mean, if you don't mind," Makoto questioned, though he quickly added on with an awkward response. "...I don't see why not," Kyoko replied, giving a small nod. She didn't mind walking with the other, it would probably make things up from the moment they just had. Which she was grateful that Makoto helped her with.

Soon, they started to walk side by side with eachother. Makoto glanced at the other, noticing she was quietly focused on walking forward. He felt his cheeks heat up slightly, having a thought that they should hold hands. Though, he also felt anxious about doing it, though side of him wanted to. Suddenly, he felt warmness on his hand, quickly glancing at the female who had a small smile. "...I think you wouldn't of mind, since your hand was moving close anyway," Kyoko stated, causing the male to nod in agreement. He was happy that she didn't mind holding hands with him, feeling the pressure come off his shoulders.

Soon, they both made it to their destination, causing Makoto to look at her with a sheepish smile. "Well, there you go," he stated awkwardly, putting a hand behind his neck shyly. Kyoko still had a tiny smile on her face, and she suddenly leaned in and kissed the other on the cheek. "Thank you for today, Makoto...It was enjoyable, despite...everything that happened," Kyoko exclaimed, glancing away after what she added. "No, no, don't worry, Kyoko! Being with you makes me happy, so it's fine," Makoto stated, causing the other to laugh a little again at his cheesiness.

"...You're so cheesy...Though, I suppose I agree with you...just in a less cheesy way, of course," Kyoko stated, causing the male to laugh and put his hand behind his neck again. "Come on, don't tease me like that," Makoto jokingly said to the other's comment. "...No promises," Kyoko responded back, causing them to stare in silence for a few moments.

"A-Ah, I also wanted to know if--" "Yes." "E-Eh? You don't e-even know what I was going to say?" "...You're an open book, Makoto. You're going to ask me for another date, correct?" Kyoko questioned, causing the male to be surprised. Though, this was Kyoko he was talking to. "So, you agree then?" Makoto changed the subject, smiling. "...Of course, just call me whenever, alright?" Kyoko questioned the other, earning an eager nod from him. "...Until next time then, Makoto," Kyoko gave a small wave, before entering her homie. Which caused the other to be left outside. Makoto couldn't help but grin to himself. He was definitely excited for the next date.

Going to write a lil fluff and something happy at this sad book because le waifu deserve happiness♥♥♥
Thanks for username for writing the last part! sorry that it took so long♥♥

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