"No Georgina, Jackson knows and encourages it" She goes to ask a question, but the knock at the door stops her, getting up I practically run to the door grateful that Margaret is here just in time to stop her questions. 

Letting her in we begin setting everything up, getting ready to cook, Roxy comes down dressed and ready to leave. Smiling at her I hug her goodbye and watch her leave. 

We stand cooking for a few hours, Georgina constantly looking at me with questions to ask, I know as soon as Margaret leaves, I will be bombarded with them, finishing I show Margaret out thanking her. As soon as the door shuts I hear Georgina's voice.

"So, what is all that about with you and Roxy?" 

Turning, she looks at me waiting for me to explain, I knew it would be too good to be true my mind telling me she might not ask. She is one of my best friends but can be very judgmental when she wants to be.

"Nothing really, just some fun" I shrug hoping she doesn't ask again or ask anything else.

"And you actually like it?" She looks at me with interest, not judgement for a change.

"Yes, otherwise I wouldn't do it. Can we stop talking about it now? How about we figure out my hen night?" I smile, knowing that will get her to change the subject.

"Hell yes, it is seriously going to be the best thing ever! You will so love what I am planning" She grins grabbing the laptop and sitting next to me. 

For hours we sit here looking through her plans, she is certainly blowing the budget with this, Car, strippers, booze, hiring a place and a hotel for the night. 

I don't think we need it all, but she has a list ready of everything she needs to sort so sitting here we book everything. She books the car, the hotel rooms, the club and a hairdresser and makeup artist. At the same time, we book the hairdresser, makeup artist and cars for the wedding.

"Are you excited? It will soon be your wedding Alena, nearly everything is planned" She smiles. I nod I am but every once in a while, the thought of Jackson not showing scares me.

"I will sleep here tonight, then tomorrow we can go find me a dress" She smiles too much I hate shopping.

"I will take the guest one which is the best?" She looks at me waiting for me to answer.

"They all have a bed isn't that all that is needed?" I laugh, unsure why she is asking which room is the best.

"Yes Alena, but I am asking you which I should sleep in rather than just choosing myself" She laughs "Come on we could both do with an early night and you certainly look like you need one" I do I walk upstairs and point to a room she can sleep in.

"There is a bathroom in there as well" I explain as she walks into the room shouting,

"Night" on her way through. Walking into mine and Jackson's room, lying on the bed I struggle to fall asleep. It feels strange not having him in the bed with me, slowly I get more and more tired, too tired for even my mind and thoughts to keep me away. 

Eventually, I fall asleep, I wake up and get ready for the day, walking downstairs I again make breakfast. I am actually getting good at this breakfast thing, well actually the whole cooking thing. Margaret is coming back Sunday to give me another lesson. Standing here cooking Georgina comes down.

"Did you not get sleep again?" She looks at me.

"I slept fine, didn't wake or anything, why?" I look at her confused, why does she seem to think I never sleep.

"You honestly look like you have had no sleep again" She replies looking at me like she was assessing me.

"No, I feel great, maybe it is just because I am so worried about Jackson?" I muse.

"Maybe, so what's for breakfast?" She sits down looking.

"Pancakes, that is great" she grabs a plate and piled pancakes onto it, sitting eater we decide once she has the dress we will come back here and book everything else using the laptop or phone. 

Shopping with her took nearly two hours, just for her dress, then her shoes took another hour. I hate shopping sometimes. Driving home, we get in, sitting in front of the tv we start planning more. 

The day passing quickly again, we find an entertainer and a photographer as well. We have everything sorted, I just need my dress closer to the date.

"Right, I am off I will see you in a couple of days" She smiles hugging me before leaving. I slept, in fact I slept for the whole weekend as Georgina was at her parents those days, so she never showed back up. 

I slept most of it. No matter how much I sleep, I still feel exhausted. Sunday came, and Margaret showed me how to cook again, she left and I went back to bed, there is no point me being awake, I am alone and everything is planned. 

Waking up it is Monday, I can't stay in bed, I know Georgina is coming today. Getting up I eat and wait, and sure enough Georgina arrives, but she is carrying my dress and hers.

"Let's go shopping, we need outfits for the hen night, and you still need your lingerie!" She smiles, dragging me out the door. Walking round shops, I found my dress for the hen night quickly in the first shop, my lingerie in the second shop. 

Then another fifteen shops later Georgina finally found a dress she liked, we spent most of our time shopping for her than me, which I don't mind today has gone by quickly walking between the shops. 

Getting in the car I start driving home, getting in we sit down and eat.

"Hen party tomorrow, so early night tonight and I am staying" 

She smiles looking far too excited to be honest, I am not looking forward to it. Saturday is the wedding, the invites have all been sent Saturday, April 15th would be the day I marry Jackson. 

He was expected back anytime this week. I just hope he got back in time for our wedding, every day that passes I become more worried that something has gone wrong. We go to bed early ready for tomorrows late night. 

Once again, I slept perfectly waking up at nearly half eleven, sitting up I stretch feeling great. Georgina stood at the door waiting for me to get up to start today.

"I think you need the doctors Alena, you honestly look like you're getting no sleep" She looks concerned, but I know I feel fine, I brush it off because I can't be dealing with doctors and everything else right now.

"It will just be from the worry, you will see once Jackson gets back, I will be great" I reassured her, smiling knowing everything will be fine.

"If you're sure, come on food and time to get ready" She smiles, pulling me up out of the bed.

"Everyone will be here soon" She grins. Sure enough, everyone came, Friends from university I don't speak to much, Jackson's mum, my step mum and Georgina even invited Roxy! 

I am shocked, but I guess she has realised I like Roxy and I am glad she thought to invite her, how she managed to though I don't know. 

Sitting we get our hair and makeup done, drinking and having fun at the house while we wait for the cars to collect us.

"You're going to love tonight" Georgina grins as we all got in the cars. At the club I start drinking, feeling myself relax more. 

I have to agree I am enjoying tonight. I limited myself to three drinks, I don't want to break his rules, even if he isn't here. I don't need to drink though, I am laughing the whole night passing by for the first time in nearly two whole weeks the thoughts of Jackson not coming home don't plague my mind all day. 

Sitting the strippers arrive, I am forced to sit on a chair I am laughing so much, it doesn't feel right having them naked rubbing on me. 

I sit and let them do what they are paid for, Georgina enjoying them more than me, I can't stop laughing though. I try to enjoy it, after Georgina planned it herself and put so much effort in so I have to at least try enjoying it. 

After the strippers I walk away sitting with Roxy talking to her.