"Good morning kitten" He smiled, rolling over lying next to me, his hand trailing along my body.

"I am not happy I missed playing last night, especially you dressed like this" His head lowered, kissing my breast, sitting back up again.

"I was looking forward to a lot of messages yesterday" He looked at me, his eyes assessing me.

"Why is that? They are just words" They were, yet they often sent him wild.

"No, words are powerful, more powerful then you know, while sex involves the body, the best sex always involves the mind" 

That I have to agree with, the mind is powerful and when he is teasing me by using just my sense of sight, the tension and pleasure is amazing, he could push me to my limit with mind games so easily.

"Okay, yes your right, words can be good Sir" I smiled biting down on my lip, slowly pulling it out from between my teeth.

"Don't start with me kitten" His head lowering kissing my lips.

"Why Sir? It is Sunday, I can play all I want" He shook his head, my face fell, here comes the bad news.

"Not today, we need to talk, get your ass up and downstairs" 

He kissed me and walked out the room, was last night real? Had I really kissed Marcus, pulling him to me? 

Getting dressed walking downstairs, Georgina and Liam was here as well, so it can't be to do with Marcus then, that is good. 

Sitting down with them I looked around, something bad has happened, it has to have.

"Jake won't be getting any sentence, they have dropped all charges, lack of evidence" My face froze, how is it possible? 

"How can they say that? There was marks all over my neck" How can they come to that conclusion?

"Well, because he showed them pictures of us, apparently he claimed they were left there by me during sex, they cannot rule it out, so had no option but to drop all charges" 

This is ridiculous, totally stupid, how can he get away with it? What did they need him to actually fully rape me to convict him? 

I feel angry, so bloody angry, I want to scream, how is this right, those marks where not left by Jackson and often he never left marks on my neck or face. 

"We need to just to forget it and move on" Georgina's comment stupid, totally stupid and she pushed me over the edge, standing up and leaning over her.

"We? Sorry was you the one pinned against that wall while he tried kissing you? No, it was me, it is ME! Who needs to forget and move on" 

I walked out, my body shaking, getting in the car, driving down the road, trying to calm down, stopping after five minutes, I look around, why is this all happening to me? 

How can Georgina say we like it has happened to them all when it happened to me? Sitting watching the clock tick by, the car door opened, Marcus sat next to me.

"You broke down or something" Turning to face him I shook my head, his eyes widened with fear.

"What has happened?" 

More like what has not happened because lately everything that can happen has happened. 

"Jake is not being charged, apparently there is no proof the marks where from him and not Jackson" 

Hate began to rise inside me at the thought that he was free without even a telling off.

"I will break his legs for you, just give me the word, he won't walk again, then you will be safe"

"Thanks, but no, I don't care about not feeling safe, it is the fact he gets away with it, I doubt he will get anywhere near me with Jackson around, then Georgina says we need to move on and forget it, like it happened to everyone"

"In a way I get what she means, although she should not have said it, everyone was shaken up by what happened, you the most obviously it affects you unlike everyone else, but then there is also the fact how it affected others around you"

"I felt guilty, I still feel guilty and I am sure Jackson does as well, come on, get your ass home and sort this out" 

He got out the car, walking back to his and climbing in, turning I begin to drive home behind him, parking up, he smiled as he walked into the house, getting out I followed him in, I now need to apologise Georgina sat quietly, not saying anything, clearly worried I would shout again.

"Sorry everyone, especially you Georgina" 

I hoped she realised I meant it. She didn't say anything, just sat quietly. 

"Well now you back, there is something else, I was going to hide it from you, but then I knew you would find out anyway" 

He glanced at Georgina knowing she always slips up, he stood up, grabbing a box and placed it on the table. 

"I got to work last night, this box was there waiting for me" 

My hands went to open it, my mind preparing for what I was about to see, opening it, there was a bottle of whiskey, a toy, restraints and a note, I looked at Jackson and laughed. 

"You have an admirer?" That is what I looked like to me.

"No, read the note" I took out the note laughing, it seems like something someone would do who wants him to know they are attracted to him and want him to tie them up.

Remember the bottle? The toy? The restraints? Two become three then the three stayed three just without the key you even made it four without the key

Well that is a riddle for sure. 

Looking at him confused I had no idea what it meant, what did the two become three mean and the bottle and toy don't remind me of anything other than most nights.

"I don't have any idea, what is it meant to mean?" 

I looked around everyone looking at me like I was supposed to know, it was addressed to Jackson so surly he should?

"We were hoping you would know?" I look down at the note again, no, nothing at all.

"No, it makes no sense at all, it is like a riddle, it could mean anything at all, literally, I have no idea" I like how people think I should know though, Marcus walked passed me taking a look, he didn't say if he had any ideas or not, he stayed quiet, so I guess not.

"Well, it isn't Jake, so we need to figure out who it might be, at least there has been no other sabotage attempts" 

Jackson pointed out, I wish I knew, this person is set on making me live in fear and it wouldn't work, Christmas is a couple of weeks away, there is no way I am living in fear at Christmas.

"I will also be moving out after Christmas, I am going to sign back up to at least a year of deployment with the navy, when I get back, I will have a place to live by myself" 

Marcus spoke up, turning to him, I felt hurt, how could he move out, then I remembered last night, maybe it was best, but I still don't want him to.

Everyone walked off, sitting round the table drinking coffee, Jackson stayed and sat with me.

"So, you pushed him away" My eyes flew up to his face.

"What?" I feel the puzzled look on my face.

"Last night, Marcus told me he can't live here anymore, he has feelings for you, I tried to tell him it was just with him been so involved and that he would never be invited to the room again"

"He was adamant he did have feelings, I told him it made no difference, you wouldn't do it, your with me, he asked if he could kiss you, now before you scream and kick off, I agreed because had you kissed him back, and wanted it, I would have let you go, I don't miss the looks and the way you look at him, so if you did, I would have been fine, and it was also to show him how you feel" 

I didn't exactly reject him though.

"I didn't reject him, not at first, I was asleep, he kissed me, I kissed back, I wanted it, I actually went to put my arms around his neck and pull him to me, it was then I realised it wasn't you and pushed him away, so I did kiss him back" 

He didn't say anything straight away, just sat quietly. 

"You kissed back thinking it was me, you pushed him away when you saw it was him, that is all I need to know, and all he needs to know clearly, as he is now moving out" 

"I don't see why he doesn't just stay" He was being a prat, there was no reason for him to leave.

"Alena, he likes you, and I know Marcus, there is only so long before he pins you against the wall and kisses you, I fear like him that you will kiss him back and want it, then it won't just be a friendship lost, but a marriage broken and a family" 

Wow, I can't even blame him for thinking it, I thought it was him this morning when I was pulling him to me, so I can see why he would think that, but it still hurt. 

"I know, you love him, not like you love me, so maybe him walking away will be a good thing" 

Wow, how do I respond to that? Do I love Marcus. Or is it just the lust and excitement getting in the way making me think it? 

"I don't love Marcus" My statement weak, pathetic, no one would believe it, not even I can believe it, I don't want Jackson hurt, I love him more than anyone ever before. 

He moved, kneeling in front of me, my eyes wet with the tears, Marcus watching knowing what we were talking about. 

"I don't hate you, in a way I am responsible, I brought him into our lives, into our bedroom, I let him make love to you, fuck you however you want to see it, you have built up a bond, and I am responsible, I will always love you Alena, even if you said now you loved him more than me, I would not hate you" 

He was right, my head dropped.

"I'm sorry" My tears spilling over, enough to fill a glass, his arms wrapping around me.

"You have nothing to apologise for you have a big heart, you love me, that is all I need I can forget everything else" 

"I love you more than anyone, ever, I do Jackson, and your right about Marcus, there is love there, but it is nothing when I think of the love I have for you" He wiped my tears away.

"That is all I need to know, because if you loved him more, I would set you free kitten, I would let you be with him" Christ how can he be so nice, so kind and understanding. 

"Right, I will go out with the girls for a bit, I do believe Marcus wants to talk to you" 

Oh no, I don't think I can do this, how can I do it, how can I admit to Marcus I love him but then tell him no? 

Jackson walked out, Marcus not moving, he patted Marcus's shoulder and walked to the girls, picking them up and walking out, Georgina and Liam followed, my head lowered, how could life be so cruel?