"You are cooking"? So, he hasn't seen Marcus cook either then?

"I was, but he told me off and sent me to sit down" Shrugging my shoulders I turn back to Marcus watching him.

"So, he should have, you shouldn't be cooking at all" I think they are both going too far with this, cooking isn't a issue, I am not jumping about or throwing a ball.

"Cooking is far from dangerous, I wasn't even moving much" I can see the next few days being me sat not allowed to move or even pick up the remote.

"Standing for long periods of time, you do that cooking so no, you're not cooking" Okay, I forgot that part, so I guess I will stop trying to fight my case.

"Okay, well back to Marcus, you can cook?" Jackson turns and laughs clearly thinking I have gone crazy.

"Yes, it might not taste good, but I can cook, and I just did. Breakfast is ready" 

Smiling at me, he grabs the plates out the cupboards, well that is something new, I never thought I would see Marcus cooking. Sitting down, as always, we eat together, no one really knowing what to say. 

Jackson and Marcus not exactly talking, you can see so clearly Jackson is still not happy about it. To be honest me and Marcus are wrong, and stupid we always, always use something and that once, him leaving we forgot all the rules.

"If Georgina can, she is coming tonight, going to have a girl's night in, drinks and a bit of food for a catch up, thought I would say while I remember" 

They both turn and look at me, what have I said wrong?

"Drinks? Really" Jackson looks shocked, of course I didn't mean me.

"Not me, she will be drinking I obviously won't be, I am not stupid, please keep that in mind, just a catch up we have not had a girl's night in for ages" 

I should really check my phone, standing up I go to get it out the kitchen where I left it while I was cooking.

"What are you doing?" Jackson looking at me.

"Going for a jog, maybe jump on the trampoline then sky diving, I am grabbing my phone from the kitchen calm down" 

I can't deal with this, I can't even move without being asked what I am doing. Grabbing the phone, I unlock it, sure enough a message from Georgina confirming she is coming tonight.

"Right, so you two have to like I don't know, go away somewhere tonight" Smiling at them I sit down, replying to Georgina telling her I would see her tonight. 

Tonight, is needed, especially with my counsellor out the country till well after the new year.

"Okay, we will I don't know sit in the office and read your blog, watch the videos, something fun" Jackson laughs, clearly joking, or at least I hope he is.

"The videos, where are they all anyway?" Looking at him, I totally forgot about them, now intrigued and wanting to watch them again.

"Videos can wait, everything like that can wait at least until tomorrow" I can agree with that, everything can wait.

"So, what is the plan for today?" Looking at them both, I hope I am allowed to do something today.

"Well, I have to go to meet the team, so I won't be here from 10 till around 4" Marcus reminding me that he is soon going to be leaving on the mission, I totally forgot about it. What if he is the dad?

"And we, are going to sit and have a relaxing day, just me you and the girls. No arguments" Actually a day just us four sounds pretty amazing.

"Okay, but I have to do some work, and a blog post, don't worry all on the laptop while I am sat. I will go do it now in the office" 

Getting upstairs in the office, sitting down I feel my body relax, why was I so tense downstairs? Never mind, I have to do some work and write in the blog especially as it has been two days since the last post. 

Sitting I find myself drifting away while writing, forgetting about a lot of things, sure it is still there but it isn't my main focus. Writing the blog, I write about the party, beforehand the videos I watched, then about the room, and guests being invited. 

It sounds crazy and I hope Georgina no longer reads my blog, yet I get a feeling she does.

"Dinner is ready now" Turning Jackson is at the door, I had spent nearly four hours writing just in the blog, I have not even done work. 

Okay around three of those four hours I spent reminiscing about that night but still, a long time to spend on just the blog.

"Okay, I will come down now and bring laptop then I will finish everything down stairs with you" 

Getting up I grab the laptop, going to walk out the door, Jackson taking it off me and carrying it. 

I can't even carry a laptop really? No arguing, just let it go and carry on, following him down stairs I sit at the table. I still even now, find it strange sat here without Marcus, he has become part of the family, which really is not a good thing.

"Right, so we have a choice, more Christmas films, or we do something crazy and watch something like Easter films just so we get a break from the big red guy" Jackson laughs looking at me waiting for my answer.

"I sense you're jealous of the big red guy, is that because the girls are obsessed with him?" He is jealous, the girls are saying Santa more than mum, dad, Marcus and milk. 

"No, I am just a little fed up of seeing the guy, never watched so many Christmas films in my whole life, but if you want to watch more then let's do it" I can't help but laugh, he has clearly had enough of Christmas already.

"Okay, fine, no Christmas films, nothing like that. Let's just find a good film to watch and relax till tea time, I will do my work later or tomorrow" 

To be honest, just cuddling on the sofa sounds better then working all day. We have finished eating so go and sit in the living room, turning on the film Lion King, we sit and watch it together, cuddling up with Jackson on the sofa, the girls sat watching it quietly. 

When it finished, we put another film on again, sitting and watching it.

"I need to cook tea, you sit with the girls and I will shout you when it's ready" Jackson got up and walked to the kitchen, I should be allowed to cook. I actually feel a little excited about tomorrow now, the fact I will get to see the baby, I can't help but think it is a boy after that dream. 

Looking at the girls, it will be nice for them to have a brother, sure I would have rather waited a few more years, me and Jackson are just getting into a place where we can do all the things we want in the bedroom, a new baby is going to throw that all off balance, no more hard whips, no my rope bunny, there is so much now that are off limits for nearly a year. 

It will be worth it though, I just wish I remembered to take the pill, I am stupid for thinking being late taking it will be fine. With the twins, I had totally forgot it until twenty-four hours later, this time it was around eight hours late, but that eight hours obviously still helped to create a baby. 

A light bulb moment flashed in my mind, getting up I walk towards the kitchen where Jackson is stood.

"What if it's twins again?" I am being serious; how do we know it won't be twins?

"You trying to make me go grey before they even come?" I can't help but laugh at his statement.

"They? See now it is in your mind as well" I can't help but laugh, yet at the same time the thought is scaring me so much, I don't know if I can cope with twins again.

"Look, I highly doubt it is twins, just relax, anyway food is ready, and Liam has text Georgina is already on her way over, she is bringing the puppy for the girls to see" 

Oh great, as cute as it is, I am not really a puppy or dog person, then again I was never a baby person either. Now look at me, maybe I will get used to it and even get one eventually for the girls. Getting the girls, we sit at the table eating.

"If it is twins, we may need to move" What, laughing I shake my head.

"Why would we need to move?" What would another set of twins do that can make us have to move?

"Space Alena, there won't be much space left" Is he crazy? 

"Right, right now we have our room, the girls, two of our playrooms, Marcus's room, plus the office, and two spare rooms, the girl's playroom and everything else, and you think we will run out of space?" 

He is crazy right? How on earth does he work out we would run out of room, I even forgot the safe room.

"Okay when you list them like that, it sounds like a lot. What about the fact Marcus might be here, then the odd time Freya stays, my mum? Maybe we should look into it"

 Okay, he is being serious, just throw away money like it's nothing.

"Maybe, we should wait because I doubt there is two babies, and if there is, get an extension if you really think there is not enough room" I don't want to move, I like this house.

"Please, I would rather not have to move the kids around to a new house, and this house is beautiful, quiet and far away from society, well sort of" 

Nodding he finally agrees and see's my point, I can't imagine moving, plus the whole playrooms would need moving, re-doing and to be honest that won't be a quick and easy job.

"It was just an idea, thought a move might be nice" Why would he think that? What am I missing?

"Okay, the real reason your wanting to move please, why would it be nice to move and not stay living here?" He clearly is thinking of something else.

"Just memories here, I thought it would be nice to have a fresh start elsewhere" He is right, there is a lot of bad memories here.

"All the good memories are here though, every single one, no matter where we go, the bad memories are still there" 

I don't want to move, so I hope he doesn't decide to. The door opens, Georgina walking in smiling.

"We will finish the convo later" Smiling I agree as Georgina walks towards us, bag in one hand and puppy in the other. 

"Who wants to see Snowy?" She smiles at the girls, them squealing excitedly.

"So, you decided on a name then?" Snowy suites the puppy, it is a good name.

"Yeah, we finally agreed on Snowy because of the white fur, I will sit with the girls for an hour before bed if you want? Then you two can talk?" 

Looking at Jackson, I am not too sure, is there any need to do it, we could just talk tonight.

"If you could, not for an hour though just twenty minutes once Marcus gets home" Okay, so apparently, he does want to talk and not just with me but with Marcus there as well.

"Sure, I will put kettle on I want a coffee before I drink, do you two want one?" Turning she looks at us.

"Yeah go on then" Jackson smiles, helping the girls out of their chairs. I can't have coffee yet.

"Not for me, I am good thanks" 

I should drink more water though, and it is time to take my pills, but I don't want Georgina asking questions before we get time to ourselves. Grabbing the cup of water, I walk into the living room, grabbing the tablets I take them in there out of her sight.

"The girls love the puppy, when are you two buying one? Surely it is time to expand the family a little more now by adding a pet?" 

Jackson walks away, clearly giving me space to tell her, but I don't want to yet. That is the whole point of tonight, otherwise there is no point here being here tonight.

"No puppy for us, not yet anyway. How is Liam?" Trying to change the subject is not as easy as you would think with Georgina, she tends to find so many ways to get to the same point she was on.

"He is fine, less annoying then he used to be amazingly, still no deal on us having a baby though" She actually does want a baby, I feel for her because clearly Liam is not ready.

"Let's talk about that tonight" Nodding she agrees sitting with the girls Marcus walks in and goes straight upstairs, no doubt to Jackson.

"Right, be back down soon" Getting up I walk upstairs, going into the office sure enough they are both there sat down waiting. I don't see the point in us talking about anything until we know exactly who the dad is.

 "Right, me and Marcus spoke last night, and sorted a few things out ourselves" I start nodding in a way that says continue.

"Well, if Marcus is the dad, there is two options. He stays living here with us, or he moves out and comes to see the baby, have the baby over nights and what not. It is up to you what happens though" 

Jackson explains what they were talking about, but I thought that was pretty much what we would be doing anyway.

"I can't walk away if the baby is mine, I am sorry as I know it will be easier if I do, but I won't" Marcus has changed so much since we met, I wouldn't expect him to walk away from the baby ever.

"In regard to before, if you can't work out by the dates tomorrow, there is a test you can do but it has risks" Again, I am guessing that choice is with me.

"I have read about it, and would rather not take the risk, so what then?" I can't risk it, I have read what can happen with these tests during pregnancy.

"Well, then we have to discuss how things will work during the pregnancy, birth and everything after until we get the results" 

How will that even work? Jackson is trying to explain but it doesn't help anything.

"Okay, so we don't know who comes to the birth?" Looking at them both I wait for them to answer, both looking at each other, they have not thought about that part.

"Okay, next question, who comes to all the scans? There is only one person allowed in to start with who is that going to be?" 

Looking at them again, no answer so while they think they have thought about it all, they have not clearly. At least they are not arguing, that is something I cannot take listening to.

"What is it with me and coming between you and people you're close to. Liam when we met, then Liam after you went missing, Marcus and now again Marcus" 

I have just realised I am causing all the trouble within his life.

"Every bit of drama you have had is because of me, Caroline, Max, Marcus, Liam and now all this with Roxy, everything seems to follow me around" Everything stems back to me, all of it.

"Erm, I will leave you two alone" Marcus gets up and walks out, I totally forgot he was in here, and I just said all that to in front of him.

"You don't come between me and anyone, everyone falls out it is part of life Alena, and Caroline was my drama, not yours" Walking over to me, he pulls me up, his arms wrapping around me.

"I love you Alena, and I would give up everyone to have just you and the girls" Resting my head against his chest, I understand that, I would do the same for him.

"Right, you go see Georgina, I am going to spend time with my princesses while I get them ready for bed. I will see you when you come upstairs to bed" 

Walking downstairs together we stay quiet, kissing the girl's goodnight, Jackson takes them upstairs, me and Georgina sitting in the living room, where do I even start?