Before Jin could even knock on the door, Hyunseok had already opened it.

"Hyunseok, I should have listen to you..."

Expecting to be scolded by his twin, Jin braced for Hyunseok to shout at him.

But was received with a hug instead, by a tearful man.

"I'm so sorry, Seokjin! I shouldn't have let you go. This is all my fault!" His twin broke down, holding Jin in his arms.

Jin started the man with a loud yelp, making him tumble back and fall over his couch.

"S...Seokjin, what happened?! Why did you scream that way?"

"I'm angry! I'm angry at you at the moment, Hyunseok. I just want to go take a shower and go to sleep." The other male responded, stomping to the bathroom, leaving his twin in shock as he ran after him.

"I'll prepare the shower for you, why don't you get your clothing for when you come out later on." Jin nodded, feeling at ease after he went to his room.

His heart ached from how rude he treated his brother. Hyunseok has always done so much for him.

Jin felt guilty for being so mean, but his mind wasn't in any way sane to be nice to even the person he loved the most, let alone, his only family.

He would feel lost without Hyunseok.

As he was walking, he was disgusted by the scent of cum and cologne that lingered on his clothing from Mister Jang.

The man couldn't even properly bend over to reach the clothes that were folded in his drawer.

His tight pants were making his pain unbearable, and kept blocking him from moving around freely, so he unzipped them and took his shoes off to become more mobile.

"Jin, the water is ready! I'll be in the living room if you need me, Seok 1!!" His brother said, shutting the bathroom door on his way out, so that the warmth of the shower would set in to keep the bathroom hot and steamy, just like Jin likes it.

"Thanks, Seok 2!" Jin kindly responded, trying to make it up to Hyunseok for his rudeness
towards him earlier.

He hates fighting with his brother, or being mean to him.

The man made it to the bathroom, still feeling the rush of adrenaline he had before, stuck
to his body while his chest tightened as he removed his pants and socks.

Saving his shirt for last, Jin mentally prepared himself to face the exact same pain he did before, expecting to handle it as well as he did when he was in the club. But sadly, that wasn't what happened.

Now that his adrenaline rush had worn off, Seokjin was left to feel one of the worst pains he has ever had to endure in the world.

He slowly turned around, rolling his shirt halfway up. To avoid the shirt from touching his back, he curved his spine as much as he could, smoothly removing the last piece of clothing off of him to see the crucifixions that were left in the form of bloody lines all over his back.

As if he was left in a trance, Jin stayed in a shock, staring at his back for a while, ignoring his surroundings.

His hands slowly trailed up the deep, dark scratches, filling them with pain with just a simple hover of the shadow his long and slender fingers created.

Even without touching his wounds, Jin felt a sharp and physical pain all around his back.

There had been a knock on the bathroom door, but it was so soft that Jin hadn't heard it the first time.

So the second time there was no warning, the door just opened, revealing his brother who was now in as much of a shock as Jin was.

If not more. Since Hyunseok had no idea of what Jin had gone through, he was unaware
of the scratch marks he had all over his back.

"Jin? Oh God... How did this happen!?" Jin dropped his long sleeved shirt on the floor, looking at his brother.

"Who did this to you! Was it Mister Jang?" He nodded, lowering his head.

"That cock-sucking asshole!!" Hyunseok continued to stare at Jin's back as the man walked away, halfway stepping into the shower.

"Seokjin, I'm sorry. I should have driven you home instead of letting you go." His brother frowned, terribly. The guilt killing him on the inside, now understanding the reason why Jin had pushed him off earlier when he attempted to hug his body.

But there was nothing he could do. Not now, at least.

What had been done could no longer be undone, and Jin's scratch marks were the proof.

"Hyunseok, don't blame yourself. This was my fault... Please just get out of the bathroom,
I want to be alone." Hyunseok's heart felt heavy as he left Jin.

Jin shut his eyes, unable to even use his favorite body wash, as it stung his butt from the amount of stretching he had to endure while he rode Mister Jang's cock.

The corners of his eyes weighed on him by the minute, and before Jin knew it, he was releasing his sadness and anger where no one could hear him: In the shower.

Where he always used to cry whenever he would come home after the first three days of working as an escort, feeling like a miserable failure when he couldn't do his job right.

Memories of his past mistakes flashed back into his head in that moment of sadness and despair, making his current condition become worse.

His peaceful state of mind was now disrupted with terrible thoughts.

Thoughts so dark that only one thing could make all of it go away: Sleep.

Sleeping was Jin's best way to cope with any type of pain. He once slept for so long, his brother thought he had passed away until he finally slapped him awake, yelling at Jin for scaring him.

"If I can just keep my eyes closed long enough, I can feel my body travelling into another world.

A world that I'm not a fake.

A world that I'm a real model.

A world without Mister Jang, would be the best world to live in.

But this is my real world. I can't change it no matter how hard I try.

I can't fix my past errors.

I can't go back to living with my parents.

I can't rely on Hyunseok forever.

He can't make my pain go away.

There's only one thing that can make my pain go away, and it's a type of help I can't get from my own brother.

I need more than comfort...

I need... Love.

Real love.

But most importantly, I need a lover..."

Jin got out of the shower, wrapping the towel around his body.

Since he was lost in thought a while ago, the man had completely forgotten about the injuries in his back.

The pain he was faced with when he wrapped the rough piece of material around his back gave Jin a reminder of the scratches he had all around it, causing him to grunt loudly.

His teeth clenched tightly as he rushed out of the bathroom to change in his room.

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Hyunseok ended up helping Jin change into his pajamas, then he practically had to force him to eat at least a small bowl of plain cereal with milk, since the man desired nothing more but to sleep.

And his brother was not about to let Jin go to sleep with an empty stomach, so he served him the cereal and took it to his bedroom so that he wouldn't have to get up again, to go to the dining room to eat.

Once he ate, he brushed his teeth and headed back to his room.

Just when he thought that he would finally be able to get some rest, "AH!" the pain in his back wouldn't allow him to even lay on his back.

Hyunseok gave him a pain killer and put a comfortable pillow on the side of Jin's lower back, so that the man would be able to sleep without turning over, putting force onto his back like he did before.

Jin slept on his side the whole night and woke up feeling sore and achy.

"Now what am I going to wear? I can't let Namjoon see me like this. Or anyone at all... What should I wear..." While looking around his endless wardrobe of clothing, Jin found something suitable for his job as a secretary, and perfect to cover up the scratch marks on his back.

"Time to start my second day as a secretary."

Before leaving, the man took a selfie just to bring his mood up, then he posted it onto his Twitter account.

Oh, how it warmed his heart to see the amount of love he was receiving from his followers, even if most of them were either other escorts he's been friends with, or some of his customers at the strip club, Jin didn't mind it.

At the end of the day, they were the ones who made him feel less lonely and with more motivation to start his day.

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