"MY HEAD FEELS LIGHT, WHY IS DARKNESS ENGULFING ME?
IS MY FATE TO DIE?"

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FAIR, DAY 5。
JULY 13, 2018
FREAKY FRIDAY
2:50 PM

x i n g w e i j u n g

"you've got ten minutes." jaerin told me as she stood next to me.

"gosh, in just ten minutes i'm going to see you get dragged into that maze and i won't be able to do anything, i feel so annoyed." jaemin said through gritted teeth as we stood a few meters away from the entrance of the amazing chase.

a lot of students were already playing, but that wasn't the real deal. the actual chase has yet to start.

"hey..." i looked to my other side and saw renjun standing there, his hands around the secret society book as he gave me a sad look. "i hate you for doing this to yourself, you know."

i chuckled bitterly, "i know that very well, injun."

"there's another way, weijung." he huffs, avoiding my eyes.

i ignored his words and just hummed at his statement.

"don't worry, i'm here, just call my name." renjun utters, "please remember that."

my nose scrunched as i snickered, "alright then, i'll do that."

renjun rolls his eyes, "trust me."

i pursed my lips, "trust me, first."

"i trust you, weijung. i trust you so much that i know you're going to call me."

"i will call you, after all, you're the one who the book chooses." i told him.

"promise me?" renjun raises his pinky finger.

i stared at it for awhile before grinning and lacing my pink finger around his, "promise."

"do as your promises, i don't deal with only talking." he huffed making me burst into a fit of laughter.

"jeez, you sound like me."

"one minute." jaerin reminded me and that stopped me from laughing.

suddenly, my digital watch buzzed and immediately checked the notification since i didn't want to bring my phone into the maze so the watch was convenient.

KIILLER-KILLER
— 3.

KIILLER-KILLER
— 2.

KIILLER-KILLER
— 1.

KIILLER-KILLER
— let's have fun!

my mind was all blank as i was roughly pulled and dragged into the thorny entrance. i winced as i felt my sharp thorns poking me through my blazer.

my feet went fast as the cloaked figure in front of me dragged me deeper into the maze. scanning my surroundings, i could tell quickly where i was.

"game starts now, weijung." the cloak figure uttered before running off. "run."

my heart beat went fast as i ran. ran as fast as i could and i felt my vision darkening.

it felt like i was alone.

like i was isolated from everyone, running away from everything like i did when my mom died.

there was no light. darkness was everywhere yet i could see the maze clearly.

i felt hands grab me as it tried to drag me down, i yelped as i felt a blade run along my leg.

screaming, i kicked the hand away and pulled out a knife.

"get away!" i yelled.

i kept running and running.

my eyes were scanning the place as if i was staring at my computers.

it felt so empty.

why was i alone?

no one wants to be with you that's why.

i stopped, flinching at my own voice inside of my head.

"shut up."

it's me, weijung. the lonely you. even you fucking left me.

"we could be happy together—"

is that what you learned from spending time in this shitty school?

we could've been peaceful in our room, weijung.

nothing but computers.

"stop! you're trapping me again! stop trapping me in codes!" i shake my head, my vision worsening.

it only gets darker.

i'm a nightmare of yours, weijung.

you'll never overcome this loneliness.

they will never help you out of this maze.

you have no friends.

you have nobody but yourself.

just kill yourself.

a scream was heard. it was me.

i dropped to the ground as pain engulfed me. mentally hurting, i couldn't take it.

kill yourself.

it kept chanting in my head.

you're all alone.

i felt so lost. "i feel so... trapped... and lost between two." i choked out as my legs started giving out.

my eyes shut as silence engulfed me.

darkness.

where's my light? where's my sunshine?

i felt my heart beat quicken its pace, my fingers curling into a fist as i felt the lingering feeling in my hands.

"my light is fucking here." i stated and opened my eyes.

i looked at my bandaged hands and remember every time they always hold my hands when something was wrong.

"my light was always here... you're blocking it!" i yelled and began to run again.

turning left and right, i went through the maze, finding my self in the center.

"took you so fast."

i looked behind me, "lee yeorim."

"oh? so you knew me all along?" she chuckled.

i scoffed, "why wouldn't i not know you."

"i'm impressed at you honestly." yeorim flashed me a crooked smile, something lurking within those fake emotions.

"you're so smart and yet you still chose to stay in this school even if you had the chance to leave it." yeorim stated, "some dedication you have."

"what do you want?"

yeorim shrugs, "all i want was a better society."

"and you think the society would get better if you keep killing people!?"

"innocent people weren't supposed to die, but they're too nosy. they irritate me." yeorim scoffed as she twirled the knife around the finger.

"this is my way of making the society better."

"do society a favor and fuck off!" i spat.

she narrows her eyes at me, "you're the biggest liar, weijung. you know what's wrong in this society."

"in this society, no one cares." yeorim points out, "if it's not their self, they wouldn't care. so i doubt your so-called friends would save you from here."

i felt my heart clench, that's sad.

"maybe they wouldn't—"

i got cut off immediately, "but you still choose to save them."

"they're my friends." i said through gritted teeth.

"but are you their friend?" she tilts her head, smirking slightly.

"let's say they're not, that doesn't change the fact i want to save them."

"you know yeorim... you're not even talking to weijung's right self right now." i chuckled.

yeorim gave me an amused look, "who is this persona i'm talking to then?"

"the lonely me."

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