"i tried to control my life, but it seemed like it controlled me."

— KWON JAENA

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x i n g w e i j u n g

"weijung!" i flinched upon hearing jaemin call my name. i turned around and saw the perfect looking prince right upon me. "what's up, jaemin? why are you here?" i questioned.

jaemin's lips formed a little smile, looking at me sweetly, "mark was looking for you, it's getting dark you know."

to be honest, it was quite creepy that jaemin just suddenly ran up to me and smiled at me like that. "what's wrong about the dark, jaemin?" i questioned again, tilting my head a bit to the side. jaemin shook his head and pulled me close, whispering onto my ear, "you have no idea how crazy this school is, especially during the week of the fair. we may have completed killer's mission for the day even so, it's still dangerous."

i scoffed, "alright, i won't wonder off again. i just had a small talk with the news club's vice president, nothing more."

jaemin nodded, "that's good, at least you're safe. come on, i'll take you back to the headquarters." and placed an arm around me, leading me back to the headquarters.

as soon as we got there, heeyeon bombarded me with lots of questions. i placed both of my hands on her shoulders, doing my best to calm her down. "woah woah woah, slow down okay? i'm fine, jaena is... quite fine, i guess. stop worrying so much." i told heeyeon.

heeyeon nodded and took a breather, "she's okay... right? right, weijung?"

i pressed my lips into a thin line, "let's just say, she kind of snapped and pushed me away, but other than that—she's fine!" i forced a smile.

"did you see what i was trying to tell you? she has mad attitude issues!" heeyeon exclaimed, a bit too loud actually.

jeno let out a groan, "do you mind? i'm trying to focus here."

heeyeon sheepishly smiled, showing a peace sign towards jeno, "i'm sorry."

"what's going on here? are you three hiding something?" jaemin quetsioned us. i ran my fingers through my hair, shaking my head, "no? why would we? it's just that, we have another case to solve."

"case? what case?"

"jaena's split personality." jeno answered.

"split.. personality?" jaemin whispered.

"yeah, and heeyeon's very in to it." jeno muttered. heeyeon denied, "no, i'm just worried for jaena. who knows what she has been going through?"

i shrugged, "you guys continue on with this astronomy club thing, i'll be in my office, dealing with something else."

"can i come?" heeyeon asks.

i thought for a bit before looking at her, "give me some time alone for now, heeyeon. then i'll show you what's wrong."

heeyeon nodded, understanding that i had to investigate it on my own for a bit. "i'll be out here if you need any questions." she said before taking a seat next to jaemin.

jaemin looked at me, "i'll help them with the astronomy club thing."

i nodded and headed my way towards area 51.

it was around 5PM and the others were still outside because of this school fair we have. i didn't want to believe at first but, they were really right about the fair ending at midnight. "operation, kwon jaena's identity." i whispered to myself before clicking on the enter button.

and here i was again, lurking in the deep history of jaena's website—old website. not just that, i also inserted the flash-drive that jinri gave me. "kwon jaena, what are you hiding?" i mumbled and scrolled through her website.

i saw the old posts she had, but what shocked me was her videos. dark videos.

i clicked on some of her videos, it looked creepy as hell. "my gosh." i gaped at the video, it wasn't something you'd expect from her. my mouth formed an 'o' as i instantly covered it with my hand. "jaena..." her name left my lips sounding a bit slow and inaudible.

a video of jaena, sitting on a swivel chair, talking to her self in front of the camera was terrifying. she was wearing all black clothing. her make up was all wiped off, messy from crying.

she had scars on her hands, she was a crying mess. she kept on rambling and rambling about things that i couldn't even understand.

in the video, there were frames she was all kind and happy, the next frames were dark and scary. it was as if behind the camera was someone, someone who was scaring her.

"please don't! who are you?!" jaena cried in front of the camera. i watched her, shocked. whoever was behind the camera, or inside her was deeply in control of her.

"you guys don't understand me, i'm scared of myself. i'm scared of this strange darkness inside me. i've tried therapists, i only brought harm to them. i am scared. it's like i've lost control of my own self," jaena fiddled with her fingers, talking softly. "every time my mother visits me, she... she's scared of me. it was as if she was looking at a monster."

"my father took me to see a doctor, and i had dissociative identity disorder." tears fell from her eyes, she continued crying, "it explained why i act so m-mean. i had split personality and i'm s-so sorry to those people i've h-hurt. i-it wasn't my intention to be mean." a deep sigh escaped her lips.

but then, her disorder strikes again. "huh? why the heck am i crying?! ugh! my makeup! it's ruined! what is this?! some sort of joke?" and then, the camera shuts off.

i found numerous of videos that were the same from the first video i found. "please! don't hurt me! i've had enough, can't you see?! you're using this disorder of mine so you could control me! you're no better than me." jaena shouts, tears still flowing down.

"will you just shut up? if you continue being this bitch, i'd have more attention than you do. people would hate you for your attitude." another voice speaks, quite familiar, someone i've heard before.

i looked for more footages, and i found this footage, a bit far from the others.

the camera turns on, revealing jaena, with swollen eyes. "look, i'm sending a warning to whoever is watching this. i'm being controlled! right now, i'm hiding, in the news club's office files. she's hurting me, she's changing me!" jaena panicked as the video turned a bit shake-y and unstable.

"i need to tell my story. i was diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder, this caused me to have split personalities. to get better, i get therapies and meds. but, she... she took my meds so i could turn into a beast! so that this d-darkness inside of me would take over. i don't have much time before she finds me— please help me! i beg of you." jaena sobs.

"jaena?! where the fuck are you?" shouts from the outside of her hiding place were heard. jaena shuts her eyes tight, "please... help me." and with that, the footage crashes.

i gulped, shocked at how a girl like jaena, had more to her story. it made me so curious, like i wanted to know more. more about her story.

loud knocks on my door making me stand up from my position and wipe the tears from my cheeks. i didn't notice that even i was crying. i felt sorry, really sorry for the things i've said and done to her.

i took a breather before walking towards the door and opening it. i faced donghyuck, who was holding two chocolate milkshakes.

"oh, hold on, are you okay?" donghyuck's bright smile turned into a frown when he saw me with swollen eyes. "hey, why are you crying?" donghyuck's soft voice calmed me. i chuckled, "i'm not crying, hyuck."

"okay, then why did you cry?" he asked.

i playfully rolled my eyes, "i just got dramatic over some video i was watching."

"ahh, here! to calm you down, luckily i have a chocolate milkshake for you, milady." donghyuck smiled at me and handed me the chocolate milkshake. "i know it's not milkshake monday but, it's always time for milkshakes right?" he raised his eyebrows up and down.

i stifled a laugh, "thanks donghyuck."

"you can come inside if you want." i mumbled. "really?" donghyuck said after he sipped on his milkshake. "yeah, sure!" i nodded.

i walked towards my seat, staring at the wall, sipping on my milkshake. "what's this, jungie?"

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"listen to me, you don't want to end up dead don't you?"

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-jibin