Its been two weeks since I told Elizabeth that I loved her, and two weeks since she pretty much told me she didn't feel the same. I have managed to keep Asia away from her and from killing anyone else.

I spent most of the time pretending that I was listening to her but really, all that was on my mind was Elizabeth. I haven't seen her much other then in class and at lunch. She's been talking to Cody a lot more and I'm not sure I'm happy with that, but there is nothing I could do. I promised her I would give her the time she needed away from me, and if watching her get comfortable with another guy is what she needs, then I will do that.

Will I?

I have been waiting for the text that would tell me she was ready to talk but as the days went on, I wasn't sure that would come.

I was walking to class when I saw what would make me wish I had never shown up that day. I turn the corner to first see Elizabeth with a smile on her face but my enthusiasm quickly turned to anger when I watched Cody lean down and kiss her.

So much for not wanting to be in a relationship.

I turned around and walked the long way to class.

Elizabeth's POV

I was talking to Cody and we were laughing about something that happened at lunch with him and his friends, when I felt like he was moving closer to me. I wasn't sure of it until his lips met mine. I didn't push him away right away because I couldn't fully comprehended what was going on. When I did, I almost had to keep myself from slapping him, "Cody please." I said stepping back.

He put his hand on my arm stepping closer to me, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't of kissed you." He said with a little smirk on his face.

"Its fine just please... I already told you I'm not ready for a relationship and I'm still trying to figure out the whole Justin thing." I told him, looking down at my shoes.

"Elizabeth, why are you so hung up on him? He obviously doesn't care very much about you."

"Cody." I exhaust. "Please don't do this again. There is no way that he would of said all that he said if he didn't mean it." Explaining this to Cody has been the reoccurring theme of today. He thinks that Justin had said those things to maybe get in bed with me. He theorizes that he's getting 'tired' of Asia, and need someone like me to spice things up.

"If he really meant it, I don't think he would still be with Asia."

"He's only trying to protect me from her."

"Yeah" he says, tapping on the lockers with his fingers. "and I'm only trying to protect you from him. I don't want to see you hurt. You've already been through so much." He didn't even know the half of it. I've been through so much more then he could ever imagine.

For him to say these things about Justin made me a little upset. He didn't know anything about Justin and he didn't know much about me. Justin had been there for me when I needed him and didn't judge when he found out about my bad habit. Something in me knew that Cody wouldn't do the same, that he couldn't be there for me the way Justin was. He had taken my hands in his and was looking deep into my eyes. I can't stand here any more, I have to leave not only because the bell is about to ring but because I am uncomfortable.

I pulled my hands away and turned my head, "I have to get to class I'll talk to you later." When I went to leave, he took my hand and kissed me again. "Cody please." I pushed him off and I left not knowing what was going on.

When I got to my history class, the teacher clapped her hands together and made an announcement, "OK class we are starting a new unit on the Revolutionary War. We are going to be doing a project and I will be pairing you guys up myself so don't even ask." she said returning to her desk and coming back with a paper in her hand.

"OK the partners will be as follows. Jennifer with Cameron, Maria with Zach, Justin with..." my heart pounded in my chest. Please don't say my name. "Jasmine," as she was about to continue, someones hand went up, "Brittney with Ryan," when she noticed the hand she called on the student, "Yes Mr. Bieber what is it?"

"Jasmine moved and Ryan isn't going to be here for another week."

"Oh yes thank you for that." The teacher noted, taking a pencil to the paper she had. "In that case, Justin you will be partnered with Brittney." I sank into my seat. 'Thank you' I thought sarcastically. I so close to not being his partner.

Now, he's going to expect me to talk to him and no doubt he's going to want me to make up my mind, but that wasn't what needed to be made up. My mind was already made up, It was just battling with my heart on whether or not I could trust him.

"You can trust him though he never gave you a reason not to. If anything, he gave you every reason to." My heart screamed, threatening to jump out of my chest and on to the table in front of me.

"But what if he hurts me" I argued back,

Why was I fighting with myself?

The heart is often used as a figure of speech for emotions, as in Pascal's remark that the heart has its reasons that reason does not know. So I think that the meaning of the saying, "The heart wants what it wants" is that emotions such as love are not under conscious, cognitive control.

For example, you cannot simply decide to fall in love with somebody, no matter how suitable. Similarly, you cannot just decide to stop loving somebody, no matter how hopeless.

On the other hand, you can decide to do things that increase the likelihood that you will fall in love with someone, such as having deep, intimate conversations and gazing into each other's eyes. And you might decide to try to fall out of love with someone by avoiding the person, focusing on negative features, and becoming attracted to someone else.

I was shaken up a little when the bell rang, I went to my locker.

Justin was standing there waiting for me, "So I guess we are partners."

"Yeah thanks for that," I said a little upset.

"I'm sorry, but she would of noticed eventually."

"Its fine I guess we have to work together."

"OK so when do you want to get started?"

"I guess today after school, meet me at my house."

"OK." Was all he said I turned and walked away. Two more class periods then I would have to deal with him in my house.

When the final bell rang, I was dreading going home. I walked home contemplating what we would do our project on. I wasn't even sure what the project was supposed to be I hoped that Justin paid attention today. When I got home, my mom was sitting in the living room watching TV as usual I walked in and sat my stuff on the table.

I went into the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of water."Elizabeth I would like to talk to you about something. Can you come in here please?" My mom said.

"Sure mom what's up?"

"Well I've noticed you haven't been talking to Justin lately, is there something wrong?"

"No, everything's fine he was just busy working on a project with someone for class"

"Oh OK so everything is OK between you two?"

"Yeah everything's fine... he's actually coming over to work on our history project if thats okay with you. "

"Oh yes of course." We both nodded; and I turned to walk away. "Elizabeth, I'm going over to your aunt's tonight. Do you think you'll be okay?"

"Uh... yeah, ill be fine mom."

"OK and if Justin gets here after I leave, just please don't have him stay."

"Don't worry mom, I promise he will be gone before eight."

"OK I'm trusting you." I nodded my head and walked to my room. My mom came to my room and told me she was leaving. I sighed my phone vibrated.

Text: Hey I'm like ten minutes away be there soon.

From Justin of course, I went to my closet and changed into some shorts and a tank-top. With my socks and jacket on. I put my hair into a pony tail and went into the kitchen.

I was getting some chips down and some cookies. The door bell rang, finally someone who uses it. I opened the door and Justin was standing in front of me. "Come in," I said stepping to the side. He comes in and we take a seat at the table. "So what are we supposed to do this project on?" I ask since I didn't listen.

"Well we are supposed to pick one of the battles off of this list," he says pulling a list out of his backpack he came in with, "We pick one of these and we have to make a diorama of the battle field. We also have to explain who won and what advantages they had in the battle that allowed them to win."

"OK so which one do you want to pick?"

"Well I was thinking we could pick the battles of Lexington and Concord."

"Alright," I start. "Well my computer is in my room. Let's go start this project." We turned and went to my room. I sat in the chair and he leaned next to me. The closeness was a little scary I wasn't sure this would be such a great idea having him in my room just us.

I opened Google and looked up the information we would need. He filled out the paper for the first half of the project. The long part of the project would be making the model and preparing the presentation. When the paper was finished it was already nine. Guess that promise to my mom didn't work out right. Even though I knew I should send him home, I didn't feel right just making him leave. I made us some spaghetti and we sat on the couch and talked a little. Justin told me that Ryan was out of town because he had been helping Jasmine and her mother move. Turns out that they were closer then we both thought. Her mother and his mother were best friends and that he had been a better friend to her then I had.

"I cant believe that I didn't even know that her mom was considering moving. I've been such horrible friend."

"You haven't been a bad friend, you just had a lot of things you were going through."

"It doesn't matter that I was going through things, I should have been there for her as much as she was for me."

"She understands you know. She knows what you've been through just as much as I do."

"Justin please don't," I start but Justin cuts me off.

"Its OK, I'm not. I know that you've been hanging out with Cody and I saw you together today. Its alright, you don't have to explain anything to me. Who am I to deserve an explanation from you, let alone criticize you? I get it I'm not him." He sounded upset, and a little hurt. Hurt from the fact that he had seen me kissing someone else in the halls, but hurt that it want him.

Why would Justin be hurt by the fact someone else was kissing me?

"Justin please its not what it looked like. He kissed me I didn't kiss him. I don't feel that way about him. I only feel that way about you." The words flew out before my brain could filter them. He smiled and I was glad that I had finally said it even though my brain wanted to take it back.

I was the one who finally leaned in and kissed him, I was the one making the move, and I was the one who wanted this. I kissed him and he kissed back. He held me close to him pulling me on his lap. The kiss was intense and I couldn't stop smiling when we pulled away.

I looked at the clock almost ten. "I think it might be time for you to leave," I said standing up.

"What I cant spend the night like before?" He said, giving me a sad little puppy face.

"Not tonight, Justin." I said with a small smile.

"Fine... I'll see you tomorrow at school," he gave me another kiss and turned to leave. "Do you want me to pick you up?" he asked.

"No I'm fine with walking, I'll see you tomorrow." he left and I felt a little nervous with what happened. I wasn't sure what would come of this or if I was really ready for this relationship and the future.