The next few days went by crazy fast, there had already been a viewing and a funeral. I hadn't been in school for almost two weeks but I made to sure to at least stay caught up with all of my work. The school had exempted me and Olivia from attendance but we still had to do the work some of our teachers sent home for us. When I finally had to go back to school, I was worried I wouldn't know how to act. 

I won't know how to act normal.

I woke up the same as I always did but a little more hesitant than usual. I took a shower and changed into a black shirt with a panda face and arms holding a stick of bamboo with ninja stars in the corner, typical black skinny jeans, black and white converse, and my black veil brides army dog tags. 

I went to the kitchen and got a granola bar and a banana. I walked out of the door and headed to school. I put in my head phones and turned the music up all the way I blasted "greatest hip hop hits"  all the way to school and even when I got there. I just don't feel like being around anyone yet. 

I went to my locker and got all the stuff I needed for the first three periods and put away the stuff I wouldn't need till later. I waited for the locker to slam shut and it didn't. I sighed he was probably off sucking face with Asia, why did I even care I didn't want to be around any one. I closed it and went to first period. 

I still had the music blasting. I didn't even need to pay attention I had already covered this whole chapter when I was at home and I had all the work to turn in to show it. When the bell  finally rang, I took the earphones out and walked to the teachers desk. I gave her the biology work that I had done the night before and she gave me a sympathetic smile but didn't say anything. 

I walked out of her classroom, placing the head phones back in my ears. I went to my locker and noticed that Justin still hasn't came to bother me. At this point, i'm not even sure he's here at school today. 

I walked over to Jasmine and she gave me a hug but we didn't exchange any words. We walked together to math class and when i got there, I gave the teacher the work and went to my seat. 

Again, I sat there and didn't pay attention since I had done all of the work already. Putting my head on my desk, I began to really listen to the song that was playing. 

"Everybody Dies in Their Nightmares"

Tired of feelin' like I'm trapped in my damn mind
Tired of feelin' like I'm wrapped in a damn lie
Tired of feelin' like my life is a damn game
[I] really wanna die in the night time

Only time I feel pain, when I'm feelin' love
That's why it's tatted on my face that I'm damn numb

Only time I'm in my mind, when I'm all alone
That's why I'm really never alone in the night time

Change hoes like clothes, I can't get attached
'Cause these hoes fire starters like lit matches
I've been feeling really lost, ducking all attachments

I don't really go outside 'cause I hate traffic
I don't wanna go outside, get caught in traffic.

Tired of feelin' like I'm trapped in my damn mind
Tired of feelin' like I'm wrapped in a damn lie
Tired of feelin' like my life is a damn game
[I] really wanna die in the night time

Tired of feelin' like I'm trapped in my damn mind
Tired of feelin' like I'm wrapped in a damn lie
Tired of feelin' like my life is a damn game
[I] really wanna die in the night time

Tired of feelin' like I'm trapped in my damn mind
Tired of feelin' like I'm wrapped in a damn lie
Tired of feelin' like my life is a damn game

[I] really wanna die in the night time
[I] really wanna die in the night time
[I] really wanna die in the night time
[I] really wanna die in the night time, uh
[I] really wanna die in the night time, uh
[I] really wanna die in the night time

Don't go to sleep
Don't go, stay up and don't go
Don't go to sleep
Don't go, stay up and don't go
Don't go, don't go to sleep
Don't go, stay up and don't

The rest of the day seemed to drip by. When I got to lunch, I got a tray and told Jasmine that I didn't want to eat inside today; that I needed some time alone to think about some stuff.

Stuff like the new additions to my thighs. I thought about covering them, maybe that would be smart, but in a way it's my call for help. One day, I want someone to ask, someone to care .

I took a seat in the grass by the doors and ate the cafeteria food just thinking about what would happen if someone had seen them. 

I would not injure myself to kill myself, just to take away the agony I felt internally. It would last approximately a half-hour and then I 'd be hurting all over. I liked that anybody could see all my slash marks. They would see all the agony I suffered and not bother me at all. 

I thought about what the reactions would be and then I thought about Justin seeing them... What would he say?

Would he even care enough to say anything about it? What if he has seen it and just decided not to say anything?

Why was I even thinking about this? I mean I don't even like him, why would I want him to see what I have been doing. I'm not doing it for him, anyway.

I finished my food and threw the foam tray away along with the plastic utensils, this school was so cheep sometimes. 

I sighed and went to my locker to go get my jacket. I put it on and went to the bathroom, what I found in there was not what I wanted to see. Asia was Pressed up against Justin and they where swallowing each other.

"Ew. What? You couldn't find somewhere else to do that," I said as they both looked at me. 

Asia takes her lips off of Justin and looks around him to me, giving me a disgusted look, "Well look who came back to school if it isn't the biggest nerd in the whole school," she said.

Justin stands there like an idiot, looking like he had been caught cheating on his wife or something, which made me laugh.

"Well I'd rather be a nerd and get out of this place then get knocked-up in a public school restroom and left alone with a crying baby nine months later." Saying that, it really pissed her off. She stepped away from the wall and walks around Justin to get to me, slapping me. That set me off. Everything that I had been holding in the past eight days exploded and I was about to attack her.

I took a hold of her hair, or should I say her extensions, and was about to rip them right out when Justin grabbed me and held me back. 

He had his arm around my waist and the other out to Asia to tell her to stop. She looked pissed but I knew she wouldn't tell on me because then she would be in trouble for having a guy in the girls restroom and I also knew that they would believe that she started the fight if I told them that.

She looked angry and when she went to the mirror she fixed her hair and left with out another word.  I pulled myself out of Justin's grip and went to wash my hands and face. I didn't realize I had been crying and when I pulled up my sleeve to wash my hands, I heard a light gasp. I looked to see Justin staring down at my legs. In the midst of what was about to occur, my shorts had ridden up a little bit and my fresh slices were on full display.

I fixed my shorts and I ran out of the bathroom. I look back to see if Justin was following me, which he was. I stood in front of my locker and opened it. I don't know why I did, I had everything I needed from it.

Justin came up and stood there staring at me. He looked a little scared like he didn't know what to say. 

So I started the conversation, "What no cheesy pickup lines for me today?" I said in a snarky tone. 

"Why?" was all he asked. 

I slammed my locker shut and looked at him, "Because that's your thing, right? To hit on me everyday? to piss me off with your flirtatiousness when its only us, and then pretend I don't even exist when Asia is there... Right. I am right, aren't I? That is what happens everyday." I said getting closer anger fuming from me, but it wasn't even anger towards him. He didn't piss me off because what I had seen was what I had expected. I was angry at everything but not at him. If anything, I don't even know why i would be angry. I don't like him, and i don't want him to like me.

"You know that is not what I'm talking about here, so just answer my question. WHY?"

He says, looking up at me, upset like I had done something to hurt him. I didn't do anything to him. What I did, I did to myself it was me not him he had nothing to do with any of it. I wish he would quit acting so special all the time. 

"Stop acting so special! What I did has nothing to do with you, so therefore its none of your damn business." I said I walked away from him. 

I cannot believe him. Of all the times I daydreamed of how he would react, this was definitely not the way i envisioned it to be.

Justin's POV

She left and I didn't follow.

I knew she was hurting inside but I didn't think that it would be nearly enough to make her hurt herself on the outside too. Something in me wants to help her.

When we were younger, we used to tell each other everything, but something seemed to change the older we got. I don't even think I've had a real conversation with her in years.

Things got weird when I started to date and I didn't know how to talk to her anymore, I always seemed to hit on her. It was the only way I knew to get a response from her.

And then there was Asia. The first girl I had dated and for some reason, even now, I went back to dating her when a different relationship fell through. Maybe that was because she was always so easy to win over with the flirtation, but Elizabeth on the other hand was no where near easy. I needed to talk to her and do it soon before she hurt herself more. 

Elizabeth's POV

I ran to the back stairs and sat down waiting for the bell to ring. I put in my head phones and listened to "Marvins Room" by Drake like fifty times before I saw people coming. I stood and quickly wiped of the tears that had fallen. It would be normal for me to be crying at a time like this so no one would ask questions since everyone in the whole school already knew. 

I went to class and sat there same as I did in all of the others. When school finally ended, I bolted out of the classroom and started quick my walk home.

I went up to my room and changed into my pajamas. As soon as my body hit the bed, I fell asleep quickly. I hadn't realized I was that tired. I stayed asleep though the rest of the evening and woke up on time for school the next morning.

When I woke-up, I had a major headache. I got up and went to the bathroom to got some Tylenol from the medicine cabinet and some water from the sink. I swallowed the pill and got into the shower. 

When I got out, I dressed in a black shirt that said "I ♥ Zombies", black skinny jeans, black hello kitty jacket, converse boots and finally my bat wings necklace. I let my hair dry the way it always did and went to the kitchen. No one was here again, as usual.

Mom had been out a lot tending to things that needed to be settled with my fathers death. She has been really busy lately, but she's been able to keep it together for me and Olivia so far. I sighed and decided to skip breakfast and just head out to school. I went to school and was standing at my locker and when it was slammed shut. I actually jumped this time but I immediately knew who it was. 

"Good morning beautiful." It was Justin, back to the way he was as always. He never changes for very long.

"Stop hitting on me already" I shouted pushing him away from me.

"Why should I?" he shouted back, "it's the only way I get any kind of response from you. You never want to talk to me." 

"That could be because no mater what I say or what we talk about, you always end up hitting on me and I'm sick of it! Just act like I don't exist and leave me the fuck alone once and for all." he looked shocked and hurt. 

Justin's POV

The only reason I hit on her is because I don't know what else to say. Like I said, it's the only way I know to get a response from her. What she told me really hurt, I just wanted to talk to her. "You know what, fine? I'll just be straight with you," I said trying to just get out what I wanted to say. 

"You're straight? I thought you were where gay," she said with a snarky tone that stung even more. 

"Will you shut up and listen to me? Look I'm scared." I said getting right to the point, she gives a face of confusion.

"What the hell are you talking about, Bieber?"

"I said I'm scared. I'm scared about what you are doing to yourself and I'm scared that you're going to hurt yourself and its going to be too late to help you."

"I already told you its none of your damn business." she said trying to walk away. I grabbed her wrist and stopped her. I looked around and no one was paying attention to us, they hadn't heard our argument. 

"Don't touch me." she said yanking her arm away. 

I grabbed it again, "You're not leaving until you tell me why you are doing this to yourself." I look down at her with the most sincere eyes I can muster, but with some anger in there as well so she knows i'm not playing around.

She looked scared and like she was about to cry, "You wouldn't understand," she walked away with a big sigh and I didn't bother to stop her this time.

~ LUNCH ~

I looked for Elizabeth at lunch and I couldn't find her. I didn't bother getting food, I just went out side and I found her sitting on the grass looking at her arm. Quietly walking up to her, I sat down and took her hand. She didn't pull away and she didn't yell at me.

We sat there and just held hands not saying anything. 

She began to cry and I put my arms around her and held her there, "I don't know," she whispered to me.

"What?" I asked a little confused.

"I don't know why I do it, that's why I didn't want to tell you." she said and I understood it was compulsion and I guess it was her way of coping with her situation. I didn't say anything back to her, I just hugged her tighter. We sat there and didn't exchange any words even until the bell rang. We didn't get up for class either, we sat there and skipped the next two. No one said anything to us, not even the teachers that walked by.