Jesús Manuel,

You are a liar.

That's what you always were, from the very start of our relationship. You made me believe you loved me, made me believe I was the only one when you had someone else in your life. That's why you never let me kiss you in public, or hug you, or hold your hand... I should have known this from the very beginning, but my love for you kept me blind to your lies.

You have a loving wife...and a beautiful son, and I'm the one who ends up losing because I'm left with no one.

When I got to Gabriela's house this afternoon, we waited for her husband to arrive from his job. What was my surprise? To see you walk past the front door with a smile that was wiped clean off when you saw me there with her. My reaction was the same.

My own expression was one of pure shock.

And then watching my best friend run up to you, hugging you, kissing you. You belong to her, she was the one you married. The one you chose to love and to honor for the rest of your lives. Little does she knew the kind of secret you've been living behind her back.

I couldn't bare it for even a minute, to see you both together.

I ended up excusing myself and leaving her apartment in a hurry, as she tried to stop me. She had no idea what was happening, but we both did. Though it was something unsaid, we were over. Over before we really started. Perhaps I should tell her about us, tell her how you let me believe you were single. How you flirted with me shamelessly that first day I met you at the mall. How you spent Saturday afternoons at my apartment before returning to her later that night. How you swore that you loved me, that we would get married one day, and start a family. That is what hurts me the most. The way you lied because you knew those things would never happen.

She would hate me if she knew about us, and I wouldn't blame her, but she would hate you too.

And that's something I can live with.

Edda Van Horn

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the truth has finally been revealed. i feel sad for my main character, but i love sad stories. i actually kind of prefer them over stories in which everything turns out to be perfect and happy in the end. 

anyway, i hope you all like the update.

blessings, clary.