Gideon POV

We are in the living room as we have just finished eating dinner. While I am just here beside Mew, they are still talking. I felt left alone and like an outsider here. I don't understand or know what they are saying. They are talking about something in the past that I do not know. I want to cry, but I'm trying not to.

"So, Mew, Is this Gulf? The one you're always talking about for the last few months?" I was shocked to hear her mention my name. So, they are already talking before? Why don't I know anything about her? Mew never says about her to me, which is weird because we always talk about anything. I wonder who she is really in Mew's life.

"Ahh, yes, this is Gulf, my best friend!" Mew said happily, and then he put his arms around me.

It always breaks my heart hearing Mew still telling people I'm just his best friend. I know I agree about it but still. It stings here in my chest whenever I hear him say those words. My best friend!

"Hi Gulf, I'm Sophia, Mew's other best friend. I'm sure Mew already told you about me because he always, as in always! Talks about you to me. Gulf here, Gulf that! It feels like I already know everything about you." She said to me.

"Uhm, no! Mew never mentions you to me. I'm sorry, but I didn't even know you existed." I may sound offensive, but it's true. I'm pissed now!

"What! How could you Mew!" Sophia teasingly said to Mew.

Mew gazed at me; then he said, "Didn't I?"

"Yes! Never!" I said to Mew. He laughed so hard! How dare you laugh when I'm already pissed like this!

"How dare you!" Sophia suddenly throws a pillow at Mew. He was shocked at first, but then Mew threw it back to Sophia.

"You!" Mew suddenly stands up and goes to Sophia. She also stands up and runs away from Mew. He is now chasing her. They look like children who are playing with each other. They look so good together, which added to the hurt and insecurity I'm feeling now. I know this is not okay for me to feel, but what can I do? Auntie Vanessa sits beside me.

"They look so cute together, right? I hope Sophia can help Mew to forget about Allyssa. It's been nearly two years, but Mew still could not find someone new in his life. It seems that he is still not over with Allyssa yet. As his mother, it breaks my heart to keep seeing him hurt because of that Woman. I hope Sophia can heal Mew's heart. I'm starting to get worried about him. It seems that he's finally okay, that he was happy again, but I know he is not! I'm his mother! I want my baby to be okay again." Auntie said while looking at them.

"Is this why she's here, Auntie?" I asked her. Please say No! Please say No! But her answer added what seemed like another knife stabbing in my chest.

"Partly Yes, her family moves back here to supervise the new branch of the company they supervise here in Thailand. So, I took the opportunity and asked her to come back here. She was hesitant initially, but I told her what had happened to Allyssa and Mew. Thankfully she agreed immediately. I guess she still considers her relationship with Mew. If she didn't have to go to Canada with her parents at that time, I'm sure Mew would not be attracted to that Allyssa. He and Sophia will be the ones who will be in love with each other. I still remember how close they are! They are always together doing kid's stuff, playing like camping there in the garden. Aside from that marriage agreement they present to me, they always play with Elise. Sophia is the mom. Mew is the dad, and Elise is their baby! Hahaha, So cute, right?" She said. So, this is why she is here.

My guts are right! I'm breaking! I don't know what I should do about this situation! It is what I'm so afraid of happening. I see how much Auntie roots for Mew and Sophia to be together. I see how much she loves the idea of it. Minutes after, Mew comes back to our seat. Mew is still laughing, and so is Sophia. Sophia suddenly faced and talked to me.

"Gulf! Let me ask you! How did you put up with this man? Did you know that no one wants to be friends with him at all? No offense Mew! But you're such a dorky little guy! I mean, he is always by himself. Always alone studying! But My parents took pity on him and requested me to be close to him, which at first, I didn't want to because I would never be friends with him. He's such a weirdo, hahaha!" Sophia told me

"Sophia, It's not true! Don't makeup stories! Please don't make me look bad to Gulf! Gulf! Did you know that Sophia is such a tomboy? He acts like a tomboy, always wanting to be in a fight. That is why everybody is so afraid of her, hahaha! Sophia, do you remember when you punched that student because he suddenly grabbed your hair? I still remember the look on his face. You just like an Amazona right there!" Mew seemed to be energetic when he was telling a story about her. Is he like this when he tells a story about me too?

"Stop! You're making stories Mew!" Sophia said.

"No, I'm not! Hahaha, I still remember how messed up that boy's face was. You knock the hell out of him, hahahahaha!" Mew answered back.

I can't take it anymore. I can't continue to listen and look at these two so happy telling stories about their past. So, I decided to go to my room here. I need to be alone and process all of this! I was about to walk out, but Mew stopped me.

"Gulf, where are you going?" He asked me while still holding my hand. I acted like I was yawning and then smiled at them.

"Ahh, I feel so sleepy already! I want to go to my rooms first. Can I go, Auntie?" I asked them

"Yes, sure, dear. Sleep well." She said to me. I looked at Mew and saw him murmur to me.

"I will follow you later!" I just smiled at him, and then Mew let go of my hand.

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Here I am in my room. I know it's not Mew's fault, and he didn't plan this. But I really can't help but feel so hurt. I am so hurt and afraid of the possibility that Mew may choose to be with Sophia. His parent like her so much! They want her for Mew, and I can't blame them. She looks so perfect for Marcus. Also, He seems so happy with her company.

How can I match with that kind of Woman? How? All I did was cry. I cried silently on my bed. I feel so alone! I feel so insecure and so afraid about the future!

What should I do now? Mew, please tell me you will choose me. Please choose me. Please! Suddenly I heard someone trying to open the door of my room, so I immediately pretended to be asleep. After a few seconds, I felt someone lie beside me.

I guess it's Mew. I still pretended that I was already asleep. I felt him caressing my hair. He was facing my back.

"I love you so much, Baby. It will always be you! I will always choose you! Good night, Babe! Sweet dreams!" I heard him say before I felt him lie with me in this bed and hug me tightly. I don't understand why he is saying this to me. Did he know about my problem? But it's Impossible.

I love you too, Mew. I love only you! But till when are you going to say those words to me? Till when Mew? Until when?

TO BE CONTINUED