Gideon POV

As we lay together on the sofa after our steamy session, my naked body comfortably snuggles into Mew like a hamster who loves to snuggle with its owner. Thankfully, this office was soundproof, or we'd be the company's headline. No one knew about this part of our relationship, not even Mew's family. I don't mind telling people because I'm proud to be known as Mew's property anytime, but the problem is this best friend of mine. He is so in denial about us. I mean, what is the meaning of what we are doing? Sometimes I want to ask him about his genuine opinion of our relationship. About his true feelings for me and what he thinks of us, but whenever I try, he keeps on changing the subject.

I'm hurt and offended because I feel like he is just playing with my feelings. Like we keep on doing it because he knew I could never say no to him, then till now, I keep on giving myself to Mew. But I admit a big part of me is so happy about this even though I have no security. At least I have Mew now; I can't help but think that maybe if I give him time and continue to show him that he can love me like the way he loves Allyssa. Someday, it will be me whom he will love and cherish, like how I am to him.

I was catching my breath when he suddenly sat up and stared at me as if he was about to ask me something that could kill me.

"Who is that guy you are talking to?" he asked me while looking at me seriously, and if I didn't give him the answer he wanted, I would be doomed.

Oh no!

"Nothing!" I said, then I stood up. It's not that I don't want to talk about it. It's just that I don't have the extra energy to speak anymore. I immediately got my clothes and tried to put them back on even if I struggled because of the pain; I was in on my lower part. Gosh, he is a monster! He has no mercy on me whenever we are doing it. He is becoming this person that pleasures me so much that I can't help but scream because of too much pleasure I'm having, but sometimes, he scares me too, thinking of how much more he could do to me or if I can take everything, he is doing to me,

As I was about to put my clothes on, he grabbed my arm and made me face him. he was now wearing his pants but still no clothes from the waist up.

"I said, who is that fucking guy you're talking with earlier!" He demanded an answer from me.

My expression instantly changed after hearing what he asked. I don't particularly appreciate hearing him question me like I'm some criminal that needs to justify my actions to him. I feel like I'm doing something wrong when I know I'm not! I could never!

"I already said it's nothing!" I looked straight at him. What is wrong with this guy? Why is he asking me this?

"Gulf! Don't tell me it's nothing because it doesn't look like nothing. He talks to you earlier like you have something going on! Are you close to each other? Also, the way he smiles at you! No one will ever smile at someone like that if he doesn't like him or he doesn't have a relationship with that person! He looks at you like he would grab you by your waist and kiss you any minute! Are you lying to me now? Are you fucking him too without me knowing?" He angrily asked me. Is he seriously asking me that? I can't believe I would ever hear him ask me this kind of question after everything we've been through together!

"What? I can't believe you! Are you seriously asking me this? How dare you!" I hurriedly put my clothes on and tried to get out of here.

I can't look and talk to him right now. How dare he say that to me after everything?

"How dare you, Mew! I can take and swallow anything anyone throws at me but not this, especially if it's from you! Never this! How can you think of me like that? Do I look like a slut to you? A whore, who spreads their legs whenever someone wants to enter anytime!" I angrily yelled at him.

My heart feels like any minute it would burst every frustration and hurt feeling I have inside me. I never thought I would hear this from him, especially him. Is this how he sees me? Just a slut that he can fuck anytime and anywhere he wants. I'm still his best friend before all of this, but I guess that is nothing for him now! Absolutely nothing!

Screw you, Mew! Screw you! I'm trying my best not to cry because I don't want to look weak at him again. I was about to step out of his office when I suddenly felt him hugging me so tightly from behind.

"Gulf, I'm sorry! I didn't mean to say that! I'm so sorry! I'm just so stressed right now because of the new client. I tried finding you because you are the only one who could make me feel better again, but then I saw you with the guy and how he was looking at you like that. It made me feel something that I couldn't understand. I can't stand it! I can't see you with him. No! I can't see you talking to anyone like that! I hate it, Gulf! I'm sorry!" He said to me while hugging me from behind. I let go of his arms and face him. I was shocked by his current expression.

"Please forgive me! Please don't leave me! Please don't leave me! Please don't! Please! Please! Please!" He is crying and about to have a nervous breakdown again. Oh, Mew! I caress his face using both my hands. It is what I always do whenever he's like this.

"It's okay, Mew! It's okay! I'm here, Mew! I'm here! I'm not going anywhere! I'm here! Breathe, Mew! Just breathe!" He's like this whenever he is having a breakdown. His breathing becomes abnormal. He will keep saying the words "don't leave me" thing. He looks so helpless that it made me forget about myself and focus on him!

"Breathe, Mew! Breathe! Yes! That good! You're okay. You're okay!" I always do it when I'm trying to calm him down whenever he's like this. I've become familiar with situations.

For a whole year, six months of that is like a nightmare to us. Mew always had a bad dream every single night. He tried to smile whenever I was on his side, but I always saw him looking from afar when I was not. Every time he cries for Allyssa, and every time, my heart dies whenever I see him be like that. I'm so hurt because of the thought that he is crying for someone else when I'm already there by his side. I even tried to remove myself from the situation but as always. I could never choose anyone over him, even myself. He's in hell for the first six months making his family so worried for him. Every day Auntie would visit us in the condo to try to help and talk to him, but no good came from it. Uncle Luke attempted also, but It's like talking to a corpse. He will always say that he is okay, but that is not what we see in him. We tried to ask for professional help, but Mew always refused to do it. It's like he isolates himself in his own created world. I tried as much as possible not to leave him alone. That is why I choose to work at INF and not in another company. I need to keep an eye on him. He is acting as he does

But suddenly, he changed! He learns to have fun. I don't know what happened, but suddenly one day, he just changed. I think he changes for good, but there is still some moment like this. Like he's always afraid that all the people he cares about will leave him. He's always scared and has become so possessive, especially to me. He doesn't want me to be alone with other people, especially with men. He will only allow me if he knows it and it's work-related.

Sometimes I don't understand why he acts this way because we don't have a serious relationship now. He doesn't say that he loves me or likes me! I feel that he does, but still, he never admitted anything. Sometimes he acts like it, but sometimes he acts like I'm still just his best friend.

I even saw him flirt with others. He would entertain those girls in the bars whenever he went there with his so-called new friends. He has been with those higher-position people too, but in the different companies under the Anderson-Ayutthaya Corp. He never acts like that when Allyssa is here! I don't understand us either, but I keep on ignoring it. Should I ask him? What if he gets mad at me for asking? What if he stays away from me because he does not want to be with me anymore? I don't think I can handle that.

"Are you not angry with me anymore? Are you not leaving me? Please say yes, Gulf! Please!" Mew said to me. He was pleading with me with his eyes. He nearly went down on his knees and started to beg me, but I stopped him. I don't want him to stoop at that level just to let me stay. He doesn't need to.

"Yes, Mew. I'm not! I will stay here with you! Please don't worry anymore! I can never be angry with you. Never!" I said, then hugged him tightly, which he reciprocated equally.

We stayed like this for about two minutes, and then I felt Mew caressing my back again. He moved his head and started devouring me on my ear, neckline, and shoulder. He keeps on doing it while I am just letting him and feeling everything he is doing to me. He started to take away my pants. When he succeeded, he started stroking my cock up and down. I just put my arm around his nape to get some support.

"Gosh! Mew ahh~!" He went down to my swollen nipples and started sucking them like a baby. Gosh! Only he can make me feel this way. I can't stop my mouth from moaning so loud to release all this pleasure.

"Oh Mew! ahhh! We just finished earlier, ahh! I'm still sore!" I tried to stop him! Honestly, I still can't feel my ass and my hips. My legs wobbled earlier when I tried to walk, but my Mew here seems he doesn't care about any of it.

"Yes, Gulf, but I still want you! Please! I want you over and over again! Please let me have you now! I want to be inside of you again! Please! Ahhh!" He said between his kissing. He is now kissing me on my lips again like there is no tomorrow.

"But..." I'm still sore, for god's sake!

"Please, Gulf, please! Please! I want to be inside of you! Please! " He keeps saying that in between his kisses! What am I supposed to do now? I don't think I can't stop Mew from getting what he wants again! I'm so weak to say no to him! He is looking at me, expecting me to answer. I can only sigh deeply before answering.

"Yes, Mew, Take me! Take me forever! I'm yours! " I said to him. He smiles so widely like he won a lottery, and I'm lost again.

To be continued

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