Marcus POV

I've been very grateful to Gulf ever since, but I can't compare how much I'm indebted to him now. I was so surprised when he dragged me outside our office, not minding all those employees that might have seen what he was doing. Did he forget about our situation here at my office at that time?

My employees are eying us, and I can tell they are stunned at how Gulf swiftly drags me outside my office like it's nothing. For sure, they have so many questions about how a mere assistant in training act like that with me can when my employees, whom I've been with for the last three years, can't even look me straight in the eyes. I didn't want to cause any more commotion. That is why I didn't complain and let Gulf drag me anywhere.

We arrived at someplace I don't know. That place was so peaceful that I forgot about my issues and problem with my girlfriend for a few seconds. I admit, at first! I didn't want to recognize and tell Gulf about my problems. He helped me enough. I know he joined my company to help me.

He may think that I didn't notice his true intentions about it, but I know him well enough. He has been so hesitant to work in our companies that he always avoided this topic whenever my parents talked about this with him, so what changed?

It is just a coincidence that I was in the hospital the other day, and the very next day, he wanted to join my company. I don't think so! I've known him all his life, and nothing he can hide from me. I keep my mouth shut because I don't want him to feel bad. If he wants me to know, he will let me know. For now, I will just let him do everything that he wants.

And now, even with my issue with Allyssa, I will have to involve him in this too? I don't think so, but my dear best friend here was so persistent in knowing my issue that I acted this way.

This man knows me inside and out that he will notice if I have changed or If I have problems again that make my life upside down.

Flashback

"You know, it is more convenient if you will share your problems and not keep it inside and just keep thinking about it." I don't know why Gulf must drag me here! I know I made a mistake earlier when I accidentally threw a mag in front of him, but I can't stop myself from being constantly irritated these days.

I thought everything was okay with my life and relationship with Allyssa, but apparently, I'm just assuming that we are okay because we're not! I'm not okay, especially after realizing that Elise is right with everything she said! What if I'm only assuming that Allyssa loves me as much as I love her? But what if I'm wrong? What if, despite my love, she still chooses her career over me? What should I do then? Fuck! I don't know what to do and think now! I feel like going crazy every freaking second of every day that I'm not sure about my actual standing in Allyssa's life.

"What are you saying, Gulf? What problem? I don't have any! Why did you bring me here? You know how much we are busy in the office. I should go back!" I said to Gulf. I don't have the mood to talk about my problems to anyone yet. I need time to think about all of this! I started to walk, but he stopped me by holding my arm and pulling me to turn around so I could face him.

"You know what I'm talking about, Marcus Evan Wayne! Don't you dare tell me otherwise? Do you think I can be your best friend if I don't know you? You're mistaken, Mew! I've known you since I was born in this fucking world and how you act now is not you! The way you get angry and shout at your employee. The Mew that I knew will never do that. So now you're telling me you are all right and you don't have a problem. Are you kidding me? Tell me! What is your problem, Marcus? Would you please tell me what is happening to you? You know, you can always count on me. I'm just here to listen. Would you please tell me? I was starting to get worried about you!"

I'm stunned to hear everything my best friend has said to me that I don't know what to say to him! I don't even know what to start! All I know is that I'm suffocating with every wrong thought I'm having now regarding Allyssa. I'm trying to stop thinking this way, but I can't! I'm so afraid that my heart is beating abnormally every time.

I need help! I need my best friend's help! The next thing I know is that I'm crying already! Fuck! I'm actually crying!

"What the heck, Mew! Why are you crying like that? I've never seen you like this. Please tell me, Mew! Tell me, don't keep it to yourself. I don't like seeing you like this, so please fucking tell me!" I was hurt just to see him like this. My love was crying in front of me, and I didn't know how to stop it.

I felt him grab and hug me, so I just let him cry on my shoulder. I'm not even embarrassed now! My heart is aching so much that I don't care about anything anymore!

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"Let me guess? Is this about what Elise told you when we went to Allyssa's studio that day? When are we going to the amusement park for your date?" I was shocked at what he said.

"How did you know! I thought you were sleeping at that time?" I asked him back.

"Yes, I was, but I woke up when Elise started talking. You know I was a soft sleeper. So, am I right? is your problem about that?" He glared at me!

I almost forgot that Gulf is a short-tempered guy! I looked at him for a few seconds before answering his question. Is he already mad at me? I breathe before I respond to him.

"Yes, Gulf, Allyssa is my problem. I was so affected by Elise's thoughts about our relationship. Now that I realized it, Elise's words were correct, Gulf! She was right! I've ignored that fact, even if it's just right in front of me. I love her, Gulf! She is my life! I don't know what I would do if she left me! But as I was thinking, am I also her life? Did she love me enough to be with me forever? To be my wife, to be the mother of my children. I wanted to know if she was willing to sacrifice everything. I was just ready to give everything to her. I know I can still wait for her but till when? Till when should I wait for her to be ready? Ready to be with me? Only me! I want to ask her to fulfill my dreams with her, but I'm so afraid of her answer to these questions if I can be her priority for once. Because for me, I can drop everything. As in everything, to be with her. I don't know what to do anymore, Gulf! I'm starting to lose my mind just by thinking of the possibilities. What if she chooses her career over me? Gulf! So many what-ifs that it's starting to mess with my head! I feel like my head will explode at any time of all the what-ifs! Please help me because I'm starting to lose my sanity here!"

Devastated! That is the proper term that can describe how I feel right now. My whole world was about to crumple in front of me, but here I was, so helpless, not knowing what to do to fix this.

"To tell you the truth, Marcus, I don't know what to tell or advise you because it's between you two. You and Allyssa are the only ones who truly knew in what direction you wanted your relationship to lead, not me or other people. I think you need to talk to her. Ask her all of that! Please don't keep it to yourself because it will not solve anything. It will only make you more agitated. Just talk and clear everything out with her." Gulf said.

I guess he was right! As expected, this best friend of mine always knows what to tell me about anything. Allyssa and I should talk about this! I have the best idea for fixing my problem, and I need his help to execute it.

"I think you're right, Gulf. I need to make everything sure. Please help me!"

"Huh? Help you with what, Mew?" He looked confused by my sudden question to him.

"Please help me prepare!" I excitedly said to him. What didn't I think about this? Fuck! I should have done this sooner!

"Prepare for what?" I'm confused.

"Help me to prepare my proposal for Allyssa?" Yes! I need to propose to Allyssa. I need to make my relationship with her secure. I can't always be this way. Always be in doubt and worried about our relationship! I can't live like this! I need to be sure about us, and this is the only thing that will solve it.

"What?" He looks so shocked. Can't I blame him? I have to do this, or else I will always feel like I will lose Allyssa anytime, and I can't continue to do that. It doesn't just affect me but all the people around me. I need to fix this by proposing to my girlfriend. A proposal is one step closer to our wedding. If I got engaged with Allyssa, I wouldn't worry anymore about us.

End of flashback

Since that day, Gulf has been helping me with what will happen this Saturday. I'm so thankful that Gulf accepted my request because I have no idea how to handle this stuff, and I know he is the right person to help me with my proposal. He knows everything that I like and don't like. He will not have a hard time doing it for me.

Gulf is a very detailed guy! He loves to ensure that everything will go well according to his plan, or he will lose his mind.

I remember when he planned my mom's birthday party last year. He designed it for the whole week, and for him, it was ruined because of a small mistake. The cake was flavored Red Velvet when he specifically said it must be Orange Velvet because it's my mother's favorite flavor. My mother didn't notice it because she was so happy and overwhelmed because Gulf had surprised her, and when she knew that Gulf was the one who planned everything, she was more than ecstatic that she bragged it to all her friends.

He feels like he ruined everything because of the cake and cries for days. He feels guilty because he assumed my mom was sad about it. I had to drag him to my mom for him to see that it was okay, and she was happy.

See how much details were so important to him, so I know he will do his best for this proposal. I'm guilty about it to Gulf, I know he is already busy with everything going on in his life, but he still managed to accept my request to help me on this. Now and then, he will barge into my office to confirm something about my proposal. I can see him so busy calling someone about details like the place, the flower, everything. He plans meticulously every detail about it, and I'm very thankful to him.

Fuck! I'm so excited! I can't wait for Saturday to come!

To be continued

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