Marcus POV

I'm so excited about what will happen on Saturday! Finally, after three years of being together, I can say that Allyssa is one step closer to being my wife. Yes, it's just a proposal, but still. It'll be like a foundation for our relationship, and all the worry and uncertainty I have for us will finally be gone.

After this, I will surely be the happiest man on earth, knowing I have the most beautiful and genuine woman. Many people are still doubtful about my relationship with Allyssa, especially my family, but I'm thankful that my best friend, Gulf, is not like them. He supports my love life all the way! He's always been like that since we are young; I'm always thankful I have a friend like him.

I know she's the one in my heart, and I can't imagine myself being in love with someone else. I admit I was very anxious about whether Allyssa will say yes to me or not. I know she loves me; I know she cares for me, and our relationship is real for her as much as it's real for me. I'm just not sure about my position in her priorities. I know how much her career is important to her! It's always been her passion and goal that sometimes scares me because what if my love for her is not enough for me to beat her career in being number one in Allyssa's life?

I was afraid for the past few days. I feel so anxious every single time like I will be losing someone or something significant, and there is nothing I can do to stop it. Elise's words affect me so much! It keeps replying to my mind.

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Flashback

"Ahh, okay, but serious question. Are you sure about Allyssa? I mean, is she the one?" I was shocked when Princess asked me this kind of query out of nowhere. We never talked about my relationship with Allyssa. She's always supportive of me, so why ask this?

"What do you mean by that, princess?" I tried to feel still optimistic. I'm sure Elise has a valid reason why she is asking me this.

"Brother Mew, because I have eyes! I can see things. I know you, brother Mew! You're so much like dad. You two are both so family oriented. I know you want to settle before you become 30. I know your dream is to have your own family, but I don't see that with Allyssa. She has other plans don't you see that? Her priorities are so different from yours. Sister Allyssa is so much like me. We love our careers so much; it's our priority in life. I will tell you now, brother. It will not work! You and Allyssa aren't compatible with each other." I didn't know Elise was thinking like this about my relationship with Allyssa. Is she the only one feeling like this, or it's the same with our parents? I hope not!

"No! That's not true, princess; I'm sure she loves me! I know she also wants to have her own family with me. Maybe she's just busy with her career now, but in time you will see everything will be okay between us. I know she's the one!" I know she loves me. Yes, maybe we're just busy. How can we not be? We are both professional and passionate about our chosen careers. I knew how much Allyssa wanted to be a professional ballerina. Ever since we met five years ago, that is the only thing she will always say! Someday, she wants to be a successful and world-class ballerina like the one who acts on swan lake, but I know we are madly in love with each other. I can feel it.

"I know she loves you but is that enough? What if you want to settle already? Will she be able to give up everything just for you or vice versa? Are you willing to give up everything just for her? I can see that she loves you but not the same as your love for her. Maybe a thousandfold! You know how much I love you, brother! All I want is for you to be happy. I'm always on your side!" I have never seen my sister looking so serious like this. I could feel the concern in her voice, but I didn't understand why she felt this way. Did Allyssa do something that made her think like this about our relationship? Is my relationship with my girlfriend look unstable and uncertain to them? Do I look like I'm not happy with what Allyssa and I have because I know I am? Am I really happy? Fuck! Why am I feeling this way now?

"I'm happy, princess. Allyssa and I are happy! You don't have to worry about us." I tried to hide my feelings from Elise by smiling at her even though, deep inside. Her words had already swayed me. I thought of Allyssa and me and everything happening to us these days. I realized that somewhat Elise was right! Allyssa and I are so busy with our personal lives and career that we haven't seen each other since my parent's anniversary. I thought it was okay because I'm used to it already. But now that Elise points out what is lacking between my girlfriend and me. I can't help but wonder if Elise is accurate in what she sees about us. Is she right?

"Are you sure, Brother? Are you happy? As in over the moon happy?"

End of flashback

Yes, I told Elise, we were contented and happy with what we had, but I could not stop thinking about it. Especially with her last query. Are we happy? Am I happy? Can I wait for Allyssa? Can I accept the fact that I'm not her priority?

I admit I've been ignoring this fact for so long. I'm the kind of person that will never overthink things. But this is different because it involves my future with the woman I wish to spend my whole life with. What are we doing? I know that Allyssa is the one I want to be, my wife, my partner, and the woman who will give birth to my children.

Everyone around me knows how I value the meaning of family; how much I want to have my own. The family I will treasure for my whole life; I will protect and cherish more than anything. I want to have the entire package, and I know I want Allyssa to be the one who will give that to me.

That is why I can't help but feel agitated, nervous, and afraid about the future. What if Princess was right about Allyssa? What if she chooses her career and not me? I don't think I can ever handle that.

I was guilty about my recent actions in the office and to the other people. I'm aware that my employees are starting to fear me. I'm very sorry about that. I don't know what came over me that whenever I face other people, I am so irritated. I've been pushing into them all this bad feeling that I have. Believe me! I've been punching myself inside whenever I do those things, especially to my secretary Anne. I felt so bad every time I yelled and got angry at her, but I couldn't stop doing it.

Thankfully, Gulf! My best friend was able to knock some sense out of me. He is the only one who can do it. Even my parents can't cause they pamper me so much. Others are so careful around me, maybe because they know my parent. Sometimes, I intentionally make mistakes around other people about anything, but they will only say I don't have to think that it's my fault and it's their fault, not mine. It's convenient for me from the start, but it sometimes gets frustrating. Why can't they treat me like a fucking average person? I may be crazy to say this, but I love healthy criticism too.

Only Gulf looks at me differently because he treats me like a regular friend would do. He will yell and punch me whenever he is angry at me. He would laugh whenever I got so clumsy again. He will tell me directly if I do wrong or wants to set me right about something.

We are never shy, and I know I never needed to pretend when I was with Gulf. Honestly, I am more myself when I'm with him than with other people, even Allyssa. To other people, I always feel like I must be the perfect version of myself, but not with Gulf because I can always be who I am with him.

He is always there for me, especially during every significant event in my life. He is always there to show his support to me; that is why I made sure to give back to him in whatever way I could. I know something has changed between us since I met Allyssa, but I know he will always be my friend, and I am to him.

He's like the brother I never have. I have one (Luke Andrew), but I never felt he cared for me. We will always be fighting. I remember he would always say those words to me.

Flashback

Luke Andrew punches me again! Fuck! He struck so hard that I knew my lips were cut. I don't understand why he is always angry with me. I don't remember doing anything to make him this mad.

"You stole everything from me! Since you arrived in this fucking world, my life has become a joke! You stole everything! First, our parents? Now the only person that cares for me. The only person that made me realize that I deserve to live and be loved! You will take that person too! You are an asshole! Why! Why!"

Yes, Luke Andrew is the eldest son among us three, but he never acts like one. I tried to stand properly to talk to this asshole brother of mine.

"'What are you talking about that I stole from you? I don't know what you are saying! I stole from you. Who? Cause I don't fucking know." I said to him, but it only made him angrier, looking at how his face changed and became redder.

"You asshole! You still deny it! After you stole that person from me. You dare to deny it! I will kill you." He started to charge at me again, but my father came between us. At the same time, my mom keeps on crying while watching us.

END OF FLASHBACK

I honestly don't know why he is saying those to me. Whom did I steal from him? I don't fucking know. Eventually, he moved out of our house. I heard he lived with our grandparents for a year. I know that he did get a large amount of money from dad. I don't know the details because dad and mom never discuss it. Then, in the end, I don't hear anything from him anymore.

He just disappeared on everyone. Our parents tried to find him, but they failed. Then they just gave up, especially dad. He doesn't want mom to keep crying because of Luke Andrew.

I will always thank God for giving me someone like Gulf. He is the brother that I never had. He will always be my best friend! Always!

To be continued

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