Taehyung P.O.V

Tae hasn't gotten a millisecond of sleep. After he walked out of the guest bedroom he decided he couldn't possibly go back to his shared bed with Bogum. So he took refuge in his favorite spot. His giant bean bag chair planted in the living room, giving him a perfect view of that beautiful painting. The one that Taehyung is never going to be able to look at the same way.

FLASHBACK - 7 years ago

"Taetae seriously? What do you need with that giant bean bag?"

"Kookie! It's perfect. Look how versatile it is!!" Tae said proudly while showing off all of the different ways he can sit or lay on the giant chair.

Jungkook immediately busted out his phone and began recording Tae's ridiculous modeling session. It always made him laugh how enthusiastic his best friend got over the smallest things.

"You're ridiculous"

"I know but you love me for it!" Tae giggles as he throws the chair into the shopping cart

Jungkook felt a slight blush on his face as he whispers "you're right"

Except he didn't know Tae heard it. I love you too.

END FLASHBACK

Tae just ran his fingers throw his hair and gripped tight as he brought his knees to his chest. He knew he made the right choice but why does he feel like he's dying.

I guess I deserve this huh.
I cheated.
Twice.
I kissed my husband than practically ran down into Jungkook's arms.
I deserve this pain.
I don't deserve happiness.
Jungkook deserves someone better.

Tae fell asleep hugging his knees with tear stained cheeks that night.

Jungkook P.O.V

He heard it. The guest room door was closed but he still heard it. The muffled cries from the living room. He was about to go out there until a voice stopped him

"Don't do it again, Jungkook"

His heart stopped when he saw Hoseok sitting up with his arms crossed

"H-Hobi... I-" Jungkook is immediately cut off by Hoseok walking towards him and embracing him in a soft but firm hug.

"Jungkook-ah, I'm so sorry. I had no idea. If I had known I never would've put you through this." Hoseok feels his own heart breaking. Hearing the words that his maknae said crushed him to pieces. What hurt more was knowing without a doubt that if there wasn't already a ring on Taehyung's left hand—Tae would have chose  Jungkook.

Jungkook backs out of the hug and shakes his head "no, don't say that. No matter how much pain is in me right now, this has been the best weekend of my existence. Had I not come, I would've went my whole life not knowing what it felt like to be loved by him.." Jungkook whispers, embarrassed by how desperate he sounds but meaning every word

Hoseok just smiles and gets up, ruffling the younger's hair "Jungkook, you've always been loved by him... I'm sorry it took you this long to find out..."

Yoongi's P.O.V

Yoongi didn't get sleep either. His mind was racing since he left Jungkook standing outside. Call him awful for wishing divorce unto Tae and Bogum but damn it Yoongi always wanted those two idiots together. They're made for one another and everyone knows that.

Why is the world so cruel huh? Why can't you just let them be fucking happy? Yoongi thinks while staring at the ceiling talking to no one in particular.

It was whenever he heard muffled cries that belong to a blonde named Tae that he got up and stood in the hallway. Half hoping to see Jungkook as well but feeling his own heart break as he saw Tae crumbling apart down below.

FLASHBACK- the night before Tae left

Yoongi woke up whenever he heard muffled cries from outside his room. Strolling out into their shared living room he was shocked to see Tae curled up into a ball on the floor.

"Tae? What the hell? Why aren't you in your room?"

Tae just looked up at Yoongi before running into the older for a hug. "Yoongs... I can't do this anymore... fuck it hurts so bad Yoongi"

"Shhh it's okay, talk to me"

"I c-can't just go along with m-my life. I love him Yoongi. God I love him so much but he doesn't feel the same.. and it's killing me being with him all the damn time"

"You're insane if you think he doesn't love you!" Yoongi spat, making sure to stare directly into the youngers eyes with those words.

Tae shook his head "mm-mm I'm right... I-We talked.. he told me he doesn't know h-how he feels...b-but that he wants me by h-his s-side... but I can't do that.. I can't be by his side every where we go and not be able to love on him the way I want too"

"I'm gonna kill that bunny, what the fuck" Yoongi was furious. He knows that Jungkook feels the same way so why the fuck won't he just admit it.

"I'm leaving Yoongi"

Wide eyed and heart pounding "what do you mean leaving.."

"I'm leaving BTS. I can't kill myself anymore and THIS? This is killing me."

Inside Yoongi wanted to smack the boy in front of him. Shake him til he was dizzy. He can't leave. He's a vital member of our team. But that's why I have to let him.

"Taehyung... you're killing me right now with these words but I understand and I'm here for you. I don't want you to go but if that's honestly how you feel than I have to support you... I only want your happiness Tae"

The younger hugs the older tightly "thanks for talking to me hyung. I love you!"

"I love you too, shit head"

END FLASHBACK

I'm living it all over again, aren't I?

It was 45 minutes later when Yoongi noticed the crying stopped. He decided to go check on Tae and saw the younger passed out with puffy red eyes and tear stained cheeks. Not wanting anyone else to witness this he cradles the younger in his arms and carries him upstairs to his bedroom.

What the fuck? When did he get back? All of a sudden everything makes sense whenever Yoongi sees Tae's husband asleep in their bed. Kook was too late.

He quietly places Tae into bed. Using a tissue from his nightstand to wipe away the tears so he didn't get questioned in the morning.

Yoongi's heart was broken for his two maknaes as he walked away, leaving Tae in the arms of his husband.

Third Person P.O.V

All of the boys woke up at a decent time except Taehyung and Bogum. They were all sitting in the living room whenever they suddenly heard feet shuffling. Expecting to see Taehyung you can imagine the shock that went over all their faces when a grumbling Bogum descended the stairs.

"Man, never thought I'd see Bangtan Boys in my living room. What's up guys?" He says with a smile

"Park! When did you get here?" Seokjin states

"Ah, flew in last night. We wrapped up filming early and I missed Tae so I got a plane ticket and flew back as soon as I knew I was done." He rubbed his neck shyly "sorry if I'm ruining any plans. I promise I won't intrude" Bowing to the men in front of him

Jungkook feels horrible, seeing how good of a guy Bogum is. Watching his face light up just at the mention of Tae.. yeah he deserves him. Not a coward like me.

"Don't be silly. You're our Taetae's husband you couldn't possibly intrude anything. If Tae loves you so do we" Jimin says brightly trying to divert attention from Jungkook who is so obviously sulking
"Besides we're leaving in a couple hours anyway! We were just about to head to breakfast but we were trying to wait for Taehyungie"

"Ahhh, he's so bad about sleeping in without an alarm. I'll put on some coffee if you guys wanna go wake him up!" He smiles with a light chuckle at the men in his living room before walking away.

Hoseok and Jungkook have been awkwardly making eye contact every couple seconds. Finally Yoongi speaks up "well shit I guess I'll go wake up Tae since you fuckers are just standing around"

"Taehyung-ahhhhh, wake up so we can have a meal together before we leave"

"Mmm, Kookie?" Tae grumbles as he rubs his eyes together

Yoongi's eyes widen in shock "no you idiot it's me and your husband is downstairs making coffee so you better watch what you mumble"

Tae is still half asleep "oh it's grumpy grandpa... bogum is in Korea idiot"

Suddenly Tae jolted up remembering last night. "Fuck!"

Yoongi just scoffs "welcome back to planet earth Tae, get ready and come downstairs. Bogum is in the kitchen"

All of the men are gathered in the living room while trying to decide where to go for lunch. Bogum was talking with Namjoon having a good conversation with Tae sitting in between his legs on the floor.

Taehyung was avoiding eye contact with the cherry haired man across the room. He didn't deserve to be loved by him.

"Welp, we better go if were gonna eat somewhere good before leaving. Thank you so much for hosting us Bogum." Jimin bows politely

All of the rest do the same. Bogum is walking around giving them hugs and makes eye contact with Jungkook. He can sense that something is up but doesn't care to find out. He just hugs the maknae whispering quietly "thank you for letting him go" which causes Jungkook to freeze but not wanting to give anything away.

He knows Bogum doesn't know what happened so why is he saying that? Before he can ask Bogum is already over to Tae. Hugging him tightly and peppering the blondes face with kisses making Jungkook flinch before walking out the door.

"Yah! Bogumieee I'll be home later!" Tae giggles

"I know I just missed you so much. I'll see you later, okay?"

"Bye, my love" Tae leaves a soft kiss on his cheek before following behind the others

They spent a good hour enjoying each other's company. All agreeing to meet up at least once a month. Tae promises next time he will fly to Korea. All of their taxis are lined up and the members pile in one by one. Just as he was going to leave Jungkook realized he forgot his camera bag at Tae's.

"Fuck.. uh... Tae I left my camera at your house"

Tae is flustered "um.. wanna come back and get it?"

Jungkook almost said yes, realizing he'd have twenty more minutes of time with Tae but he knew he shouldn't.

He just smiled his big bunny smile "nah, just bring it to Seoul next time you come Alright? I have another at home so I'll be fine, until then"

Tae just smiles walking to give the younger a hug. Doing his best not to cry as Jungkook wraps his arms around him so tight. "Besides, now you have to see me again" Jungkook whispers and the dam breaks

"K-Kookie, I'm so sorry... I know you hate me.. I know I'm awful.. I'm so sorry" Tae cries into the youngers shoulder

Jungkook once again found himself not giving a shit about the fact that they aren't alone... (Yoongi and Jimin are waiting for him in the taxi) he gently grasps Tae's chin forcing him to make eye contact.. leaving only a few centimeters in between their lips.. "Taehyung, there isn't a thing you could do or say that would EVER make me hate you" with that he placed a soft gentle kiss on Tae's lips. Before letting go and walking away.

Leaving Taehyung standing there in absolute shock.

He climbed in the taxi to see two Hyungs staring at him. Jaw dropped and eyes wide. He chokes back his tears "just don't, okay?" Before leaning his head on the window and turning on music.

Tae just stared, tears falling as he watched the taxi drive away. Knowing he had to go home to his husband, knowing he needed to forget all about Jeon Jungkook. "Then why are you always leaving me" Tae faintly whispers.

As if a small part of him wished Jungkook would've fought for him. God knows that if he would've gave him the chance... he was going to choose him.

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