A/N: IM SO DAMN SOFT FOR THIS FANART OF YOONGI TAKING TAEKOOK OUT. If I knew the artist I'd smother them with kisses because I love it so much.

Jungkook's P.O.V

The short walk back to the hotel felt like it took forever, his heart was pounding in the best way and he couldn't stop smiling. Even though he didn't know when he'd get to kiss the man he loved again, he was reassured that he will get to...one day. That was enough for Jungkook. All he has ever wanted all of this time is to somehow make Taehyung his one day.

"You're back sooner than I expected...why isn't Tae with you?" Yoongi asked worriedly but unsure by the brilliant smile on the muscle bunny's face

"He's at home hyung...but our talk went well." Jungkook giggled bashfully, he felt like a school boy in love for the first time "I just have to be patient. He has responsibilities that he wants to sort out and I respect that. Everything will work out, in time."

Yoongi sighed but also felt relieved. The happiness radiating from the younger assured him that he didn't need to worry anymore however he himself wanted to speak with Tae.

"I'm gonna head out for a bit, is that okay? Then when I get back we will throw back Irish Bombs until the sunrises"

"Sure thing hyung. I'm gonna shower"

The two fist bumped before Yoongi left the hotel.

Taehyung's P.O.V

The content feelings he felt in his heart on the porch in Jungkook's arms faded away immediately once he entered the house. The lights were off and Bogum was asleep. The house was silent and it just left Taehyung to dwell on his thoughts. He meant his words to Jungkook but he truly had no idea when he would be able to fulfill that promise.

Bringing his knees to his chest, facing that beautiful painting that initially ignited his memories of the younger-cursing himself for all the things he's done wrong in the last four years. A knock on the door pulled him from his thoughts and he prayed it wasn't Jungkook...even if he slightly wanted it to be him.

"Yoongi-hyung?!"

Tae excitedly jumped into the older's arms for a hug

"Sup kid?"

"Why are you here?! Did you come with Kookie?"

"Yeah, couldn't let him storm up here by himself could I?" Yoongi smirked and Tae giggled but the smile quickly faded. "Taehyung-ahh, I wanna talk. I know you've gotta lot on your mind and judging by the redness around your eyes you aren't handling it well.."

Tae couldn't deny the claim and felt tears falling as Yoongi pulled him back in for a hug. "Let's sit, yeah?"

Tae nodded and guided Yoongi to the couch. He spent hours filling Yoongi in on every detail of the last few months of his life, starting with everything that went down when they first visited. He didn't spare any details...despite Yoongi begging him to stop raving about Jungkook being a sex God. All of the talking and laughing came to a halt once Yoongi asked the question Tae hated the most.

"So when are you leaving him?"

Tae went silent and stared at his hands fumbling with the hem of his shirt. "I don't k-know hyung...I need t-time...he just came out of a c-coma—God I can't just hand him divorce papers"

"I get that Tae, I do. But it's been years, don't you think you and Kook have spent enough time wasted? Don't you want to get started on your life together?"

"Of course I do! Yoongs I've literally dreamt many nights about being with Kookie....but I do love Bogum and I owe him the decency of ensuring he is 100% healthy before I do something that I know will break his heart." Tae's sobs were breaking his words "he was there for me Hyung. When I was alone here, by myself, Bogum was there. He's always taken the best care of me and all I've ever done is dreamt of someone else...I hate myself for it. I don't deserve the love he's shown me, I never have. That's why I have to do this part right. If nothing else out of our marriage, I want to end it the right way."

Yoongi was listening intently when he noticed some sounds coming from the bedroom right above them. He sighed heavily "but you are going to...right? You're going to leave him. You love Jungkook right? Because he's back at our hotel beaming thinking about his future with you...don't give him false hope"

Tae smiled at the thought of that goofy bunny smile, giggling like a kid. "Of course, since when do you doubt my love for Kookie, hyung? My heart has always belonged to him even before I knew it did. I just have to take care of Bogum first."

"Well that's good to hear. I'm gonna head out, I promised Kook we'd drink alcohol to celebrate." He laughed bringing Tae in for a tight hug "don't struggle with things alone you shit head. If you're feeling alone and need to talk, call me or Jimin alright? You aren't alone anymore Taehyung. Don't suffer alone"

Tae gripped onto Yoongi so tightly. "I love you Hyung. Take care of my Kookie until I can, alright?"

Yoongi smiled and ruffled the younger's hair before leaving. He tried really hard not to feel guilty when he saw Bogum turn on the light in their bedroom but he just brushed it off as destiny working her magic. He needed to hear Tae's feelings one way or another... "bye kid"

•••

Tae felt a lot better after his talk with Yoongi. He proceeded to the kitchen to make some tea. Deciding to check on his husband he was surprised to see a glow from their bedroom door.

"Bogumie??" He whispered as he opened the door

Immediately he felt himself pushed against the wall and a pair of lips against his. He tried to get out of the kiss but couldn't against Bogum's strong grip.

"Bogum!" He muffled through the kiss and the older backed away. "What's gotten into you? You should be asleep!"

"I love you Taehyung. I love you so much. You have no idea how important you are to me. My life has been changed for the better ever since you've been mine and I don't want to know what a life without you is...please"

Tae was shocked by the sudden confession, unsure where it is coming from. "W-what are you saying? Where is this coming from?"

Bogum sighed and tears fell. He placed his hands on Tae's waist pulling him close. "I know you still love him, the way your heart raced when you saw him on our porch confirmed it. I just had a part of me that hoped if I kissed you again I could somehow make you love me more..."

"B-Bogum..."

He smiled and kissed Tae's forehead "Stop...don't say things you don't mean. I've always known Tae. You don't love someone the way you loved him and completely move on... I hoped I would be enough for you but I understand that I'm not. I don't want you to suffer anymore. You have brought so much happiness into my life meanwhile you've been heartbroken the entire time." Bogum and Tae were both sobbing into each other's embrace at this point "and what kind of husband does that make me? To blindly think I was making you happy, while you were crying yourself to sleep every night. Taehyung you say you don't deserve me but the truth is I don't deserve you...I pretended not to notice you're pain because I was just happy you were mine. Baby...I'm so fucking sorry. I'm so sorry I wasn't enough for you."

Tae was speechless. He was not planning on having this conversation, at least not yet. He started feeling lightheaded processing everything Bogum just said. The truth is that he was wrong. Bogum did bring happiness into Tae's life just not in the way he intended.

"Park Bogum, you are an idiot if you think you didn't make me happy. I was in such a dark place when we met here and I don't know if I would've ever seen the sunlight again if it weren't for you." His breath hitched "you're right though, I have always been in love with Jungkook and maybe that's why I've never been able to open up that part of myself entirely to you. But damn it Bogum you are anything BUT a horrible husband and I am the one that is sorry for not being able to fulfill our promise to one another... I'm so sorry Bogumie...I really do love you, so much." Tae hugged the older tightly and Bogum hugged back

"I love you too, Tae."

And they just sat on there bed in each other's embrace for several moments, crying. For each other, for their hearts, for their time together and for the knowledge that they both have always known but were never willing to admit...they didn't belong together .

1 month later

Jungkook's P.O.V

It's been thirty days since the last time Jungkook spoke to Taehyung. He was respecting the older's wishes for space until his separation from his husband was complete.

What he didn't understand was why he kept hearing rumors that they are already separated and Bogum has already moved out of their home and back to Seoul.

If those rumors are true, where is Tae?
Why hasn't he reached out to me?
Did he change his mind?
Does he not want me anymore?

Jungkook wanted to give in and call the older but he was so scared of pushing him away. So he decided to continue waiting. Even if it killed him, Tae promised. Tae told him to wait. That's exactly what Jungkook plans to do.

You're still coming back to me, right Tae?

Taehyung's P.O.V

The last month for Tae has been better than he imagined. After he and Bogum's emotional revelation following Jungkook's visit, the two spent the next couple weeks going to Bogum's doctors appointments and arranging the divorce. It was very civil and they even promised to remain friends. They truly did love each other and didn't want to be out of each other's lives forever.

Taehyung decided to take some time to himself before contacting Jungkook. It was hard not talking to his favorite muscle bunny but there has been nothing but heart ache ever since they came back into each other's lives. Tae decided that they needed time to heal their own hearts before giving it to each other.

He had plans to visit Jimin in Busan this weekend. Yoongi and Jimin were finally getting married in a few months and Jimin wanted Tae's help picking out decorations and food for the wedding. He went into the guest room to find his box of treasures. There was a Polaroid from trainee days of Yoonmin that he wanted to use on their wedding day. His heart stopped when he saw the box already sitting out on the bed with a letter on top of it.

Tae,

Taetae..my love, you are currently sitting in our living room. You are in tears and pouring your heart out to Yoongi-Hyung. Your words are killing me, my love. Had I known you've felt this way all of this time I would've slapped you and made you run back to Seoul.

How dare you do this to yourself? Don't you know you are my world? No one is allowed to break your heart...not even yourself. I know, I should hate you, I want to hate you but I don't. Maybe it's because I've always known your heart didn't belong to me.

I found this box a week after I moved in here. I wondered if you even knew you had it. When I noticed it's location kept changing I knew you did, I never took much notice to the contents. Figuring it was just memories you couldn't let go of. Now I know that it's not about the items in the box but who the box reminds you of.

I don't know when you'll find this letter but I hope that by the time you do, we've had a discussion about this. I don't want you to suffer Tae. I love you too much to let you suffer.
All that I ask is that you put this letter in your box. I want to be one of those memories you carry everywhere, too.

When you finally go back to him, make sure you tell him to love you the way you deserve.
Thank you for the most amazing years of my life.

I'll love you forever, Kim Taehyung. -Bogum.

The tears falling from his eyes were so warm, it reminded him of Bogum's hug the day he moved out. The way he made Tae promise to finally make himself happy. He smiled fondly before folding the letter and placing it into the box. I love you too, Park Bogum.

He smiled as he grabbed the Polaroid for Jimin and left to finish packing. Heart full of love for the first man he ever loved/still loved and the second man who reminded him how pure love can really be, even if he wasn't worthy of it.
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