Taehyung's P.O.V

He wasn't sure how long he cried before finally falling asleep...all that he knew right now was that he had a massive migraine and a huge hole in his heart. 

I'm the one that did this, I don't get to feel sorry for myself. 

Taehyung decided that he wasn't going to follow his normal routine today. He needed to branch out and get himself out of this rut. Not knowing anything better to do, he made a phone call to his favorite art gallery and hopped in the shower. If there was anything that could make Taehyung feel at ease when his heart is hurting it was staring at beautiful artwork for hours. 

Basking in the warm water, he let his mind wander and tears began to fall. Everything about the last few months of his life was insane. He wasn't sure how things went from peaceful to a complete disaster--even though that was a lie. He knew exactly how. Had he never opened back up, none of this would have happened. 

Bogum and I could've just carried on. 

Jungkook wouldn't be hurting. 

I wouldn't be hurting this much. 

My life was easier when I was suffering in silence, alone. 

Everyone around me was happy. 

Why do I do this everytime? 

Shaking the tears off and the water out of his hair, Tae got ready to face the day.

Jungkook's P.O.V

"Hyung, did you set up a hotel for us?"

"No, we're gonna sleep on the streets." Yoongi flicked his forehead "Of course I did. It's less than 5 minutes away from Tae's by taxi...don't worry."

Jungkook felt like he couldn't breathe. Tae had just told him he was leaving him and to move on, so he had no idea how the older would react to him being here but to be honest he didn't care. Jungkook spent all night replaying so many moments he shared with Tae. From trainee day adventures, to shameless backstage flirting and all the way up to the amazing nights they shared together. No matter what Taehyung forced himself to say on the phone, Jungkook knew that he loved him. You can't make love the way that they did and share the words that they shared if you didn't mean it. Jungkook also knew that Tae had a responsibility to Park Bogum and he wasn't going to keep him from that--he just wanted to know that once this is all said and done, Tae would be his. No matter what it takes. 

"So this is all your idea...any ideas how I should approach him?"

Yoongi scoffed "Nope. Your man. Your ideas. You gotta fix this yourself Kook." the older grumbled before covering his eyes with a face mask and falling asleep. 

Uncertainty and butterflies filled Jungkook's body. They would land in Kyoto in 45 minutes, he had no idea where Taehyung was or what he was doing. All that he knew was that he had to do something. 

Taehyung's P.O.V

It was already 3 p.m. whenever Taehyung realized that he hadn't been to the hospital yet. He was scared to go back there. He was scared for Bogum to wake up. Why, he's my husband. Tae was ignoring the urge he had to call Jungkook every time he felt sad, he and Jungkook had just gotten to a normal point in their lives again...so it will definitely take awhile for Tae to get used to not calling him again. 

It was almost perfect...almost. 

Suddenly his phone started ringing and his heart was pounding...

"Mr. Park?"

"Speaking."

"Your husband is awake..."

"I'm on my way." 

Running out of the art gallery with tears in his eyes-though he was unsure if they were tears of happiness or fear...probably both. If he didn't know any better, he would've thought that Jimin was a psychic because somehow he always had a way of contact Tae right when he needed it. 

"Jiminie..."

"Taetae, sorry for calling..I was just thinking of you."

"B-Bogum just woke up...I'm on my way to the h-hospital now"

"Oh fuck Tae, is he alright?"

"I have no idea, I didn't ask I'm just hurrying to get there. I'm so scared Jimin. Why am I scared?"

"because 3 weeks ago you were planning on divorcing him and now you just threw that away to stay with him out of guilt..."

Taehyung really thought he was gonna have a heart attack.. "JIMIN! SERIOUSLY, WORDS OF COMFORT WOULD BE NICE"

A loud sigh came through the speaker "You asked why you were scared, I just told you why. Tae I spoke to Jungkookie and I think you made the wrong choice. You don't have to stay married to Bogum. You can take care of him until his full recovery and then tell him how you really feel. It's not fair to you or him or Jungkook or HELL ANY OF US, to watch you pretend to be happy.."

"P-please... I c-can't t-talk about this r-right now...Kookie deserves better than m-me...he deserves someone that doesn't ruin things like I do...someone that knows what they want and can g-give him themselves...I c-can't Jimin."

"Well your first mistake is thinking that there is anyone in the world that Jungkook would ever find better than you. You guys are meant to be together Tae. I'm not gonna pester you, I know you have a lot going on and I love you. Just don't commit to this decision before it's too late...don't let him move on again."

"I want him too.." 

And with that Taehyung hung up the phone call. Not even realizing he was already in the hospital parking lot. Clutching to his chest trying to calm down his pounding heart and stop the tears that are falling. It was time to go see his husband. 

Jungkook's P.O.V

"Ahhh, this bed is amazing" 

"You're so lazy hyung, you slept the whole flight."

"Hey, I gotta get my sleep while I can because once shit starts to go down I know I'm not gonna get any rest until we go home." 

Jungkook just laughed and started unpacking his suitcase. He spent the entire plane ride thinking about how to approach Tae and decided to go visit him at home. There was a possibility that Bogum was awake and at home already but he didn't care. The chances of finding Tae out in public are slim and the likelihood that Tae would meet up with him willingly was basically non-existent. So he hopped in the shower to prepare himself, he wasn't leaving that house without Tae changing his mind. 

Taehyung's P.O.V

He spent twenty minutes composing himself before finally entering the hospital and heading toward's his husbands room. Standing outside the room he could hear Bogum's voice speaking to the doctor and it made his heart ache. He was so scared for what Bogum would say when he saw him. Knowing he couldn't put it off any longer, he took a deep breath and entered the room. 

"Ah, Mr. Park. I was just heading out." 

Tae bowed to the doctor before proceeding around the curtain to see his husband sitting up on the bed. Looking absolutely drained. 

"Bogumie.."

"Taehyung.."

"I'm so sorry"

"Shh, come here." 

Bogum smiled softly at his husband, it was clear that Taehyung had been having a rough time. "How do you manage to still look so beautiful?" He placed a soft kiss on Tae's head before releasing from their hug. 

"How are you feeling?"

"Ahh, I'm really sore. It also doesn't feel like I've been sleeping for two weeks. I feel like you just left for Seoul yesterday!" Bogum chuckled and it amazed Tae. He was expecting Bogum to scold him for not being here, for running off to goof around while he was here hurt but no. None of that. It was a relief and it made Tae feel worse because in the back of his mind he knew that there was somewhere else he wanted to be. 

"Tae baby? How are YOU?"

The question took Tae by surprise and snapped him out of his trance. He just smiled and shook his head "I'm much better now that you're awake. I was so worried." 

"The doctor said that after my tests clear, I can go home."

"That's fantastic! I bought some new art work today.." doing his best to force a smile. 

"I can't wait to see it, you always pick the best work for our home." Bogum leaned forward placing a chaste kiss on his husband's lips

Right, our home. 

"Tae...did anything happen w-while I was asleep...that I s-should be prepared for?" Bogum's words were broken and Tae could feel the nerves coming out with the words

"No...Bogumie...I've just been here. I flew home as soon as I got the call. I just wanted you to be better." Tae smiled

"So, you haven't made your decision yet then?"

Tae couldn't believe this is what Bogum was deciding to talk about right now "Bogum, I'm here aren't I?"

The older male just smiled at his husbands words. Even if he didn't believe them, in this moment he was happy. Having Tae with him is all that he wanted, even if he didn't know how long he'd have him. 

Jungkook's P.O.V

It was nearing 7 p.m. and the hospital visiting hours ended at 8. So chances are Taehyung would be heading home soon. With his knowledge and heart in his hands...Jungkook decided to head towards Tae's home. 

"Hyung, I'm out. I guess you'll hear from me soon.. maybe? I don't know to be honest"

Yoongi stared at the younger blankly. "I'm not far kid...just let me know if you need me alright?"

Jungkook just nodded and took a deep breath 

"Give Tae a reason to come home, yeah?" Yoongi smiled as he grabbed Jungkook for a hug 

Doing his best to fight back the various emotions running through him he just laughed "That's the plan...whether I succeed or not, I think I'm gonna need an Irish Bomb once I get back." 

Yoongi laughed and ruffled the younger's hair. "I'll have three Irish bomb's waiting here...so make sure to bring Tae back alright?"

With one last encouraging hug, Jungkook was on his way. It only took a few minutes before he found himself in front of that house. The one on the corner. The one that belonged to the "Park'

s". The one that he got to love Tae in for the first time. He took a deep breath before sitting on the porch steps, all of the lights being off was his indicator that Tae wasn't home yet. 

Now, I wait. 

Taehyung's P.O.V 

"Well, Mr. Park all of your tests cleared. You're in great condition in mind and body. You will need to come back three days a week for testing and physical therapy but for now, you can go home and get some good sleep in your own bed." The doctor smiled before shaking the two men's hands and leaving the room. 

Bogum was smiling from ear to ear when he turned to look at Taehyung "Let's go home, baby"

Taehyung just nodded and grabbed all of their belongings. Neither of them knowing someone is waiting there for them...well for him. 

"I already ordered take out to be delivered so it should be there shortly after we arrive. I hope your hungry." Tae said enthusiastically. 

"Mmm, I'm hungry for more than just food." Bogum spoke suggestively while placing a hand on Tae's thigh. 

Three months ago this would have excited Tae. It would've immediately had him ready to pull the car over and let his husband take him--but nothing was the same. Not since that night, and he hated himself for it. He hated the way his body craved someone else. The way nothing felt even slightly pleasing after he experience what he did with Jungkook. 

Bogum could see the restraint in his husbands eyes when he let out a loud sigh. "Tae...you know that you don't have to do this. You don't have to choose me." 

"W-what are you talking about Bogum? I want to choose you." 

Bogum just remained silent as he held his husbands hand. Knowing in his heart that Tae was lying. 

They pulled up to the house and didn't notice the silhouette on their porch. Tae walked around the car to let Bogum place an arm around his waist for support. Bogum placed a soft kiss on Tae's forehead before walking up to the house. Where they both stopped in their tracks...

"Jungkookie?"

"Tae..."