The Emergency Room was chaotic, and slow. My right knee sat propped up on some pillows on the bed, a bag of ice laying on top of it. The nurse had already given me a small shot of Morphine before I was taken to get CT scan. Feeling good and not in pain I played Among Us on my phone as I waited for the verdict on my knee's situation. Coach Ukai had texted me to let him know what the doctor says and keep him updated on what's to happen now. My siblings wanted to come with me but I told them all to go be with Kai and I'd be there once I was done.

The door opened and a handsome Doctor walked in, "Well Miss L/N, your knee is pretty swollen and overworked. You have a small tear in your ligament. So I advise staying off it for about three days. So that means no Volleyball practice."

"What? Come on! I have to practice-"

"Well you can if you want to, but you'll be doing more damage to your knee and risk tearing more than your ligament. It's only three days, I'm sure you'll be fine." As he spoke his nurse began wrapping my knee with an Ace Bandage. "Just keep this on it for the three days, use your crutches and take your pain medicine and anti inflammatory. Be sure to follow up with your regular doctor."

"Thanks doc." I sighed taking the papers from him. The doc and nurse left the room and I groaned sitting up, holding onto the crutches for support.

"Damn it this sucks.." a knock on the door had my eyes looking up at the tall middle aged man, "Miss L/N."

I sighed tightening my grip on the handles of the crutches. "Dr. Kalishi."

"You ready?" He gestured towards the door with his hand, "Yeah. I'm ready."
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Hobbling my way up to Kai's room was harder than I had originally thought. With my VolleyBall bag weighing me down it took me some time getting used to using the crutches. But I eventually made it to Kai's room fumbling with the door letting it swing open. Zak rushed to my side taking my bag from me so I could hobble in. The room was dark and quiet sides from Zak's laptop in the corner of the room.

Kai was asleep, his monitors beeping softly, his breathing machine buzzing beside him. Zak helped me sit in a chair next to his and used another to prop my leg up.

"So what's the damage Tiny?" He asked settling back into his seat with a loud sigh. Shiko was sitting on Kai's bed holding his hand. Gak was playing some game on his phone in the floor.

"Well I have a small tear in my ligament and have to stay off of my leg for three days. I can't even practice volleyball." I groaned bringing my other leg up into the chair.

"Well you did fuck it up jumping from the roof."

""And from running around everywhere on the court."

"And when you fell on it during the game with Date Tech."

"Okay I get it. Thanks you guys." Small chuckles were heard from my siblings but the atmosphere around them was heavy. I didn't notice it when I came in but now I do.

"Whoa...what's up? Why is it so heavy in here?" I asked looking at each of their faces, they all avoided eye contact with me, it wasn't until I noticed Shiko crying silently as she rubbed small circles on Kai's hand did I demand an answer.

"What is going on? Someone better start talking-"

"It's...Kai." Zak sighed looking at me through his brown bangs, "He's gotten worse..."

"Now what? What are the options?"

Gak stood up from his spot on the floor, "There isn't any. There aren't anymore experimental drugs or trails. He's too sick to be eligible." My eyes shifted to Gak, he kept his head down to the floor stuffing his hands in his pockets.

"No, there's gotta be something-" I turned back to Zak, "Anything."

Zak shook his head laying down some papers on the table he was using, laying a pen on top of it. "What's this?" I asked not even looking at the papers.

"It's a DNR order...for Kai. We all have to sign it before it goes into his charts."

My mouth hung open, my eyes setting a glare at each of the twins, "You can't be fucking serious? Tell me you're joking?" I couldn't believe what I was hearing, Kai's own siblings each signed a DO NO RESUSCITATE order. They are willing to let him die and not fight to keep him alive.

"It's what Kai wants. Me and him talked about it the moment he was put in here. He doesn't want to be resuscitated if he's only going to be in pain." Zak turned to me fully, his eyes were glossy, the whites of them turning red.

"Look, I don't want to do this either. But he's sick Tiny. Very sick, he fights everyday to stay alive and he's in constant pain. Imagine how you would feel fighting to breathe day in and day out." His brown eyebrows furrowed, "I've watched him suffer for the past what? Five years? And then have to watch him slowly wither away in a fucking hospital." Zak held the pen out to me, "So sign the damn thing. Give Kai what he wants, when he's ready, let him go."

I snatched the pen out of his hands and hastily signed my name shoving the paper back at him slamming the pen down. "Th-thank you Squirt." Kai murmured from his bed. I quickly stood up crying out from my knee before hopping to his bed. He didn't move as I grabbed his hand, his eyes were still closed but a small smile adorned his face.

"Is that what you really want Bubba?" I asked putting all my weight on the left arm.that was pressed into his hospital bed. "Y-yeah...I'm just-so tired..." I shushed him as I played with his sliky white locks. "I know Bubba...I know." I whispered, Shiko and Gak shifted Kai so I could lay down next to him snuggling into his chest as his frail arm was draped over my shoulders.

"You know-you smell right?" He wheezed with a chuckle.

"I did just come from an intense game with Date Tech."

"I-saw...I'm so proud of you-squirt." I hugged him tightly, fingers curling around the fabric of his hospital gown. "Thanks Bubba. But don't talk, save your energy, yeah?" He nodded his head weakly before he relaxed and soft snores were filling my ears.

Being with Kai like this reminds me of when I was a kid, he would cuddle with me when I felt alone, or was missing Mom. He would tell me funny stories about a Princess who rescued a Prince instead of the other way around, even talking in funny voices just go make me laugh.

No matter how old I was, or how much I grew he would always cuddle me when I needed it. But now, he needs it more than I do. he's scared about dying, hell who wouldn't? He's scared about what's going to happen to us after he dies, even though he needs to spend all his time and energy on his body. He's a worry wart, always worrying about others before himself.

Getting mad at Zak earlier wasn't the right thing to do, I need to accept the fact that Kai is dying and he won't be around anymore soon. Just by looking at him now, I'd say he might have another two weeks in him before his body just gives out.

Sighing softly I inhaled his scent, one I've smelled my whole life. Axe shampoo, and Irish Springs body wash. He also always had a hint of peppermint. That could be due to the fact that he always had one in his mouth, Kai feared having bad breath so bad that one year for Christmas his stocking was stuffed full of peppermints.

Holding him to me now put a crack in the dam I had built up since he was diagnosed. The wall I put up to shield my true devastation for his health. I haven't cried much since that day, I tend not to think about it. I mean, who would want to sit there and think about their dying relative all the time?

Hang on, that didn't come out right, did it?

What I mean is, who would want to think about their relative being so sick that they're dying, instead of who they really are? Everytime I see Kai he looks worse and worse, but I tend to shift my brain to the left, to when he was healthy and glowing. When I think about him at random times, I don't think of him being in a hospital sick, I think of him when he was teaching me Volleyball. The time when he seemed truly the happiest I've ever seen him.

As my body finally gave in to it's own exhaustion, I  closed my eyes hearing my siblings whispers about Kai's life insurance policy and drifted off into a deep sleep of practicing volleyball with Kai