Here i am again, hoping you'd reply to my messages. I know i'm just fooling myself but i can't stop this feelings growing inside my heart

I don't know what i am to you...

Do you truly love me? Or am i just an option to you?

I keep telling myself that you're the boy i fell in love with 10 months ago but my brain keeps telling me the opposite

I want to shout everything out from the tip of my lungs, from the bottom of my already brittle heart

But i can't, i'm just a secret identity to your world. I'm just someone that should be kept hidden

Every night i always wait for your replies and messages but i receive nothing. I was expecting for nothing, ha..i should've known

I seriously wanted to cry my eyes out but somehow, the tears wouldn't come. My chest was tight, and i just wanted to cry and scream, but nothing happened

Did you experience this kind of pain? Wherein you are happy then suddenly you saw something that made you sad and it pinch your heart?

Feeling this little rock on your throat a sign that you want to cry but you're stopping yourself from crying, so your heart feels heavy and don't know how to be okay

My vision becomes blurry as i let go of my phone. My heart clenched as i read through our old messages

I feel like someone reached inside my chest and is clutching my heart in their hands. Making it for me to feel an unexplainable pain

A shattering pain creeps in the side of my mind, like a fog it slowly spread through my conscience

The words i have just read start reverberating in my head, as my mind replays every memory of the boy i love, as my mind keeps replaying the sweet messages we kept exchanging to each other

Then slowly i realized...all was fading