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May POV

"Tom!" I hear a loud laugh say happily.

I swear if they're fucking in the kitchen I'm going to be done.

I step into the kitchen, it's noon, and I see Sadie and her boyfriend. She's wearing his shirt and he's shirtless.

"Did we wake you?" Sadie asks.

"No, well last night yeah." I mumble. "I just wanted breakfast." I say. Her boyfriend moves away from the fridge. I grab the milk then go into the cabinet to grab my cereal.

"Sorry." Sadie says. Her face heats. "Well, uh you've met Tom right?" She asks.

Tom smiles gently at me. "No. Hi, I'm uh May. I would shake your hand but I don't know where it's been." Sadie's face turns a darker shade of red. "I'll leave you guys alone now." I take my bowl and head upstairs.

~~

"Did you get any sleep?" Ellie asks while stepping into my room. I hit pause on my TV.

"Nope." I shrug. She sits down beside me and sighs.

"Do you hear them do it every weekend?" Ellie asks.

"Every other weekend." I huff.

"Ew." I chuckle while eating my cereal. Her blue eyes burn on me.

"What?" I ask.

"Have you talked to Harry?"

"Not since two weeks ago." I say honestly. His birthday is next week. He'll be 19.

"Are you guys broken up?" She asks curiously.

"On a break." I put my spoon in my mouth after. Ellie nods and we hear Sadie scream with laughter again. I sigh.

"I don't know how you deal with that every other weekend." Ellie shrugs while leaning back.

"Usually I'm not here when that happens. It's weird to be back to listening to this." I explain shortly.

"Where are you then?" Ellie asks with a smirk. I roll my eyes playfully.

"Adam's house." I lie.

"Uhuh." Ellie laughs. "So you guys spent the night together then?"

"Yeah. Is that weird?" I ask. She smiles.

"No, it's cute." I bite my lip and eat my cereal. "Would you only sleep over his house?"

"No, he would be over here too." I say casually.

"How?" Ellie laughs

"I have a ladder outside my window." Her eyes widen.

"You would sneak him in?"

"I guess." I mutter. "It's not like we did anything anyways, so." I finish off my cereal.

"Uhuh." My eyes narrow at her and she giggles. "Wanna go to the mall?" Ellie asks.

"For what?" I ask.

"Just to shop." I chuckle. "What? You and Ronnie don't do that?"

"I online shop because I'm scared I'll see people from school there. Plus I feel like people are judging me when I pick something out, so I don't like to go."

"May, c'mon. We never went shopping before."

"Take Sadie."

"She can come with." Ellie says.

"Me shopping is like making a blind guy to take a vision test." Her head shakes.

"We can get you some cute sweaters. I won't make you buy anything you wouldn't wear usually, I promise." I tilt my head. "C'mon, sister bonding."

"I have clothes."

"Every girl needs more clothes." I huff. "Is that a yes?"

"I hate you." She claps happily.

***

We walk into a store called Hollister. I hate this store. I avoid it whenever I'm at the mall because it scares me. Also I only see thinner girls walk in here. I'm not thin so I'd be judged, I feel like. Well, I feel like everyone judges me so what am I talking about?

"Where do you get your jeans from?" Ellie asks.

"Old Navy." I go there because I know they'll have my size. Plus, it's easier.

"What size are you?" My eyes scan the sizes. They have sizes 0-8. It could just be on this side, they have a whole wall of jeans.

"None here." I bite my lip. Ellie's eyes burn on me.

"That's not a size. What? Like a six?" I laugh.

"They don't have my jean size." I repeat.

"Just give me a size."

"13." I answer.

"That's not bad May." Ellie scoffs.

"What's your jean size?" I ask.

"5." I shake my head with laughter. Ellie grabs her over priced jeans and I follow behind her like a sad puppy.

She easily picks out her shirts. Within five minutes we're in line. "You don't need to try them on?" I ask.

"No, I'm a small in their clothes." I nod with a lip bite. She pays for her clothes, then we move onto the next store.

"May?" I hear a voice say humorously behind me. I see Karen, Tara, and Jenna.

Fuck.

I look to Ellie with an eye roll.

"You must be Ellie, Sadie's older sister." Tara says in a high voice.

"And May's, yes." Ellie smiles warmly. Tara's eyes look to me then Ellie.

"You shop there?" Karen asks me. Her voice mocking. Her head also nods to the store we just left.

"No." I answer.

"I was about to say." They all laugh.

"Say what?" Ellie defends. "Just because May isn't a size 0, it doesn't mean she can't shop at stores other people do."

"I don't think those stores cater to sizes 16 though." I just walk away as I hear them laugh.

This is why I hate going to the mall.

"May wait!" Ellie calls. She pulls my forearm back and I turn around. "Don't let them get to you. They're just asses."

"Whatever." I mutter.

"Even if you were a size 16, that's not bad either."

"I just don't care anymore. What stores did you want to go to next?" I see the group of twats linger behind us. Ellie notices.

"There is another mall south, we can go there. Honestly they need a life."

"I guess."

***

"What size are you in shirts?" Ellie asks as we skim through the clothes in Forever 21.

"Depends." I say. I look up and see she looks concentrated on searching for something.

"What about for like a sweater?"

"Large usually. I like to have space." Ellie holds up a pale grey sweater and smiles.

"You should try it on. It's cute."

"Do you think it will fit?" I ask.

"May," Ellie says sternly. "You're not fat. Try it on." She tosses it to me. "I'll find some more sweaters." I just bite my lip and look through all the ugly clothes on my side.

~

"Ew." I say while looking in the mirror. The grey sweater is on me.

"You look great!" Ellie exclaims.

"It's too short." I say while raising my arms up. My stomach starts to show.

"Wear a tank top under it." She says with a warm smile. "I'm telling you, you look cute." I huff.

"How much is it?"

"Don't worry about it." Ellie says.

"Shouldn't I know how much I'm spending?" I say with a chuckle.

"I'm buying whatever you like." My eyes widen.

"No, Ellie-" She cuts me off.

"I should've done more stuff like this with you. I do it plenty with Sadie, so just let me spoil you today, okay?" I bite my lip and nod hesitantly.

"I'll let you change. We'll pay for the three sweaters then we'll go another store." I nod. She leaves my changing room

***

I picked up new jeans from old navy. I got a new color that is washed out blue. Ellie claims it will match my grey sweater, so I got that as well as a basic blue and black jeans.

"Isn't that Harry?" Ellie asks while pointing to him and some girl that is leaving a store.

"Y-yeah." I stammer. He looks over to us and I look away. "Anyways, where else did you want to go?"

"Who is he with?"

"Not sure." Probably his new lover.

"He's walking over to us." Ellie hums to me.

"Hey." Harry's voice chirps.

"I'll give you guys a minute." She dismisses herself and I scowl my eyes at Ellie.

"What's up?"

"I uh, just wanted to say hello." Harry says warmly. My eyes look to the girl who is on her phone now. She's pretty, and tall.

"Hi." I mutter.

"That's my cousin by the way. She's from England, and I thought I should show her around."

"Oh." I say. "That's nice."

"Yeah." His eyes burn on me. "Did you think I was with another girl?"

"No." I lie. His eyebrow raises. "And if you were, that's up to you. We are on a break."

"I'm not seeing anyone else, most people don't do that on breaks. Are you seeing other guys?"

"Totally." I say sarcastically. He smiles gently. Harry steps closer toward me. My pulse quickens.

"What did you buy?"

"Clothes."

"You hate shopping." Harry points out.

"Ellie wanted me to go with her, for sister bonding so."

"That's nice." He smiles.

"I guess." I run my empty hand through my hair.

"Well, I have to be home soon for dinner. I'll uh talk to you later?"

"Sure." I say. He leans down and gently kisses my cheek. "I love you." My heart beats fastly now.

"Uhuh." He just smiles then kisses my temple.

"You look beautiful by the way." After that he walks away and Ellie walks over to me.

"You guys are so fucking cute." I roll my eyes. "Seriously, I wish my boyfriend kissed my cheek and shit before I left." I chuckle.

"It's pity kissing." We begin to walk.

"So, he doesn't do it usually?" Ellie asks with a raised eyebrow. I keep quiet and she nudges me. "You guys are so adorable." She stops at Victoria's Secret and look at me.

"No." I answer.

"C'mon." She tugs my arm.

"Ellie, this store scares me." She laughs.

"Don't you want to feel sexy?" I cringe.

"Ew, stop." Her eyes roll.

She goes to some bras and whatever else the store has.

"What's your bra size?" I huff.

"I think uh, 38C?" Ellie's eyes widen.

"Are you serious?"

"Um, I'm pretty sure. Why is that small?"

"I'm a 30b May. I wish I had a rack." I look down at my chest. Ellie pulls out a maroon bra and a matching underwear. "Do you want cheeky underwear or boy shorts?"

"What's the difference?" I ask.

"Cheeky is what you would wear to show off your ass to Harry. Well, boy shorts too. So I'll get you both."

"Why would I show off my ass to Harry?" I ask as she walks to a different part of the store.

"When you guys like do it." My eyes widen at her. "What? You guys haven't had sex?" I cringe.

"Next topic." She just laughs.

"Fine. I don't think you need a push up bra. Your boobs don't need to be up anymore." She looks around the store. "This is what I wanted." She walks over to where there are different bras. I never knew there was more than one type. "What's Harry's favorite color?"

"Uh," I pause. "Orange, and blue." She sighs.

"Has he ever talked about a color he likes on a girl?" I hate this conversation.

"No." I mumble.

"Did he ever say what color you should wear more?"

"Red." She claps excitedly and grabs the red bra with the red matching cheeky underwear.

"You're totally going to thank me later." She smirks.

"We aren't even together, really."

"Yeah, yeah. You're on a break." Ellie says. "But, lets be real, you both were eye fucking each other." My eyes widen. "I give it another week before you guys are back to normal. Now, help me find something."

~

We put the bags in the trunk and sit in Ellie's car. I pull out my phone and see a text from Harry.

Harry: i miss you

Me: Uhuh

Harry: why wouldn't miss you in general?

Me: idk

Harry: well

Harry: i miss you

Harry: a lot

Me: that's cool

Harry: ....

Me: igtg

Harry: ...okay

Me: i miss you too...

A://N

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~lauren