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May POV

Christmas is in two weeks, Harry's Christmas party is two days before Christmas.

"So," I say while glancing at Adam, we're by our lockers getting stuff. "I uh, kinda need help with something." His eyes look to me.

"Of course, what's up?"

"I need to go dress shopping and I need your help?" It comes out as a question. "I would uh ask Ronnie but she'll say I look good in anything and not tell me the truth. If I look like a whale I know you'd tell me."

"Wow thanks." Adam says sarcastically.

Adam and I have slowly been hanging out more. It's awkward at times, but it is what it is. I've been hanging out with Ronnie more as well.

She didn't do anything wrong, which I felt bad about. Adam was the one who said he wanted to stop being "best friends" and I assumed Ronnie and Evan did as well. So, I just ignored their texts and dismissed the conversations with them they tried to start in school.

"And yeah, I'll go with ya." Adam smiles gently.

"Thanks." I sigh.

"What's it for?" He asks. "I thought you hate dresses."

"I do." I say. "But uh, Harry invited me to a Christmas party that his Mom throws every year and it's fancy, and I need a dress."

"You're meeting his parents for the first time I'm assuming?"

I haven't told Adam a lot which makes me sad. I wanted to tell him the first time my boyfriend and I say I love you, or I meet his parents, anything really.

"I met them in November actually." His brown eyes widen.

"No shit, really? How'd that go?"

"I like to think they like me." I bite my lip.

"That's cool." His eyes narrow at me. "There's a lot of new info I don't know, isn't there?" I nod hesitantly.

"Wanna fill me in when we go dress hunting?"

"Yeah, sure." I never seen Adam smile so widely.

I feel his arms wrap around me. He hugs me tightly and puts his head on my shoulder, "Thank you." Adam murmurs. My heart pinch and I smile gently.

I missed Adam. I kinda hate that I do, but he's just...my best friend.

We pull away from our hug and he smiles softly a me. "Today after school good?"

"It might be a process of days." I say and he laughs. "But yeah, uh meet me at my house at three?"

"Sounds good."

***

I get home at 2:45 and text Harry.

Me: I need to know what type of dress I need to get

Me: like the color

Harry: white or black

Me: ok cool

Harry: ya going dress shopping? ;)

Me: yeah

Harry: send me a pic of you in the dress?

Me: nO

Harry: :(

Me: gtg bye

Harry: :(

Me: :)

I lock my phone and head upstairs real quick to change.

***

"What color dress does it have to be again?" Adam asks me we go through racks of dresses.

"White or black."

"Then it should be easy to find out." He says while referring to the dresses in the store that are mostly white and black. "What about this one?" He asks while showing me a black one.

"I don't like the bow." I say. He nods and puts it back. "I don't know why I said yes. I'll feel like shit the whole night."

"You just have to find a dress that you feel good in." Adam hums. "This is the one." He shows me this semi long white one. "Try it on."

"But-"

"Can't say you hate it until you try it on." I give in and walk to the dressing rooms.

~

"No." I say to Adam while looking at myself in the mirror.

"No?" His eyes widen. "May, I mean this. You look fucking good." It's one of those skin tight dresses that cut off at the shoulders.

"I feel fat."

"You're not fat." Adam scolds. "Harry will fucking love it on you." I tilt my head and shrug my shoulders. "Your ass looks amazing as well."

"Thanks." I laugh.

"Say you'll get it."

"I don't look fat?"

"I would tell you if you do." I nod and bite my lip. "I'll let you change back into your regular clothes."

~

I bought the dress.

My goal is to not stain it at the party though. I bought heels that match as well. My feet will be fucking killing me the whole night, but it will be worth it, hopefully.

We're sitting in the food court at the mall. I sip my sprite and he sips his coke. "So," Adam starts. "Fill me on the things that's happened between you and Harry."

"Uh," I pause, thinking. "I don't know what to say."

"Well, are you still a virgin?" I nod.

"But we did stuff."

"Stuff?"

"He did stuff." His eyes widen so much I feel his they're are going to fall out of their sockets.

"Oh my fuck! May! What did he do specifically?"

"I don't exactly know...?" His eyebrows furrow. " I don't remember exactly." The thought of that night makes my legs jerk slightly.

"Was it good at least?" My face flushes and I sip my drink. "May! Oh my god! I'm so fucking happy for you. Like that you took the step let him you know... Of course if you haven't done anything now it would've been fine." Adam rambles.

"I got what you're saying, Adam."

"I just don't want to come off as a dick, again."

"If you want us to be like what we were, can we just pretend that uh thing between us didn't happen?"

"Yeah, of course." I see his face turn sad a bit. "I'm sorry about that again, May. I really am."

"I know." I murmur. He grins.

"Anyways, would you let him do it again?" I take a gulp out of my drink before answering.

"...Yes." Adam just smirks.

"What else have I missed?"

"Uh," I bite my lip. "We started saying I love you." He chokes on his coke.

"Are you being serious?" I nod. "Do you mean it?" I nod again. He pouts. "May, awe. I'm all emotional for you." I smile gently.

"Oh and, he doesn't know about you and Todd."

"You haven't told him?" Adam's eyebrows furrow.

"It was a secret between us, no?" His head tilts to the side. "Don't say I'm sorry again because I will throw my drink in your face." He laughs as do I.

"Can I ask you something?" Adam asks.

"Yeah."

"Have you thought about doing it with him?" I bite my lip.

"Yes and no? Like I think about what if, then I stop because it kinda scares me."

"Scares you?"

"What if we don't work out? Or what if he doesn't like the sex and wants to leave me?"

"It will be your first time so it won't be that great for you. But if you love each other, it will mean something to the both of you. But wait May, if you're not ready."

"Is it bad I try not to think about it?"

"Eh, I wouldn't worry."

***

I get home around six and feel tired.

I hang up my dress and change into my PJ's.

Harry: did you find a dress

Me: I did

Harry: what color

Me: white

Harry: ohhh nice

Me: where is the party going to be at?

Harry: vancouver

Me: that's three hours away from here

Harry: we kinda stay at a hotel ????

Me: kinda?

Harry: my dad owns one of the hotels there and that's where the party is going to be in the ballroom

Me: wait

Me: your dad owns a hotel ?

Harry: I didn't tell you ?

Harry: surprise

Me: and we're staying at one for the night?

Harry: yes

Harry: I can get you your own room if you'd feel more comfortable

Me: idc about sharing a room with you Harry

Harry: okay cool hahaha

Harry: the plan is I'll pick you up at 3, we'll get to the hotel at 6, hangout for a bit, change into our clothes around 7:30, then go to the party thing around eight

Harry: so bring a few pairs of clothes

Me: why didn't you tell me that your dad owned a hotel?

Harry: bc I'd seem more of a snobby rich boy

Me: Harry

Me: you have a cook and maid I know your parents are wealthy

Harry: people just assume that their money is my money

Harry: I don't ask them to buy me stuff

Me: ik

Me: you don't act like a snobby rich boy

Harry: this party seems like I am tho , right?

Me: eh

Me: I would've liked to know it's out of town tho

Me: but I understand why you didn't tell me

Harry: :/

Me: anything else I should know?

Harry: my aunt and uncles are snobby

Harry: just a heads up

Me: thanks haha

Harry: it's uncomfortable for me too

Me: I love you

Harry: I love you too

A://N

Smut will be in the next chapter as a heads up

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~lauren