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Anirudh's POV

~Outside Dream Eventrra's Delhi Branch~

I could feel my heart racing like a sports car, it was pretty close. Phew!

I lied, yet again.

Surya asked, "Sir, what's your plan? Are we gonna stay here for a few more days? For ensuring everything remains on the right path... Like decided. Dhananjay Sir's secretary has just dropped me a message asking the same". 

A chill breeze swept in from the slightly down glasses. I tucked back my phone in its place and rubbed my palms. I replied mentally chalking out my plans, "Well, that can be done by you alone... I trust you. But I've to evaluate the progression of the upcoming Republic Day event in the Delhi branch as well and maybe I could pay a visit to Srivastava Mansion". He piped in, "So, we are staying. Right, Sir?"

"Yeap-"

His question suddenly reminded me of Deekshu's curiosity-filled hesitant doe-eyes when she asked me about my return during the call, when are you coming back?

Although I replied still, I couldn't just shake off the strange feeling that slowly started seeping in due to those arcana set of orbs. Those puzzling set always has something hideous... something deep, very deep. Almost unfathomable. I had never understood and I don't think I could ever. But just this time I felt something like I could read them. A certain fear which I get but there was also fear for me and that's not it. She wanted me.

It felt more like... longing! Longing? Well... not... not exactly the word I would use... maybe... umm... Yeah, longing is the correct word to express it. She wanted me to be there, by her side. Like she wants me back as soon as possible. 

"Surya, turn the wheels and head to the airport", I didn't waste a single second as realisation dawned upon me. He gave a puzzled look, "But just now-". 

"Change of plans. I need to take the very next flight back to Mumbai, ask Naina to arrange it. You're staying and ensuring the stuff. I'm going back, today...", I stated firmly, he was about to interrupt but I dismissed him, "...and that's final". Seeing my made-up mind, he simply nodded before instructing the chauffeur.

I'm coming back, Deekshu!

~~~

~In The Flight~

"...We will be landing approximately one hour from now around 22:45 hours. Thank you for your patience, passengers!"

Finally, the captain cared to do the landing timing announcement. I checked my wristwatch, it was nearing 9:45 PM and by the time I'll reach, she will be fast asleep. Shit!

At least, I'll be there and shock the hell out of her in the morning. Alright Anirudh, let's go back to doing the one thing that has been keeping me occupied in my free time for the last two days: Reading Bhaiya's journals. Amongst the hectic schedule, the little chunk of time I got I spent it reading these and almost travelled back in time. From the little adventure trips to sneaking out at midnight to annoying the shit out of our parents and Deekshu to numerous little fights to epic patch-ups using food as a peace medium and everything other things Bhaiya and I, together did were mentioned in his journals. While sometimes I was overwhelmed by emotions, other times I rolled over and laughed clutching my stomach. It became quite a stress relief for me, just like Bhaiya is... I mean he was for me. 

I tuned into the last few pages of the journal as there were some blank pages in between the entry I read last night and the new one.

Dear Diary,

The last few days have been surprisingly peaceful, not that the two munchkins of my life always fight but still, they remain at loggerheads. And I obviously hate that. Jeez... I don't want to talk on that topic, let's recourse.

So, as I was telling you about quiet... I don't how to phrase it but I'll try my best. On the outside, anyone will say I'm fine but only I know how chaotic I've been feeling lately. It's all so confusing. Maybe it's because of the exam prep going on but... Urgh, fine!

It's Priya.

As weird as it may sound, I've to let this out.

Priya. Her thoughts, her face, her antics, she... everything about her has taken over my conscience. Though she has always been there, nowadays it's like I can't think of anything but her.

Whenever I listen to songs, especially romantic ones, I can't help but think of Priya. She just suddenly appears in front of my eyes. It is getting difficult with each passing time. I can't shake those feelings. Crazy, I KNOW! To sod it off I just change the genre and to some extent, it works but not all the time. I just keep thinking about her & her well-being, all the time. I've always been like this with her but this feels different... alien. And it's bugging me... I can't even concentrate on my studies... She just... ugh... What is happening?

Any idea? Nevermind!

Toodles!

Isn't he the cutest? Man, my brother was whipped... This Confused Ved Bear and his confusing rantings are too much to handle. I wish I could just get back in time and knock some sense into him. And not to forget, give him a huge bear hug... Hehehe!

Dear Diary,

Tomorrow is a special day...it's Maa-Papa's 25th Anniversary celebration. And the whole Srivastava Mansion will be all decked up like a bride. Needless to say, it's a surprise party for them. And guess what, the three of us are planning it all for the last 3 days, which explains my negligence towards you, diary. Sorry! 

And just for the record, Priya and Chote didn't fight... a little tussle here and there, which I took care of but nothing major. Shocker, right? Even they must have been wondering how's that happening... lol!

The major planning arena is being taken care of by Chote... his management skills are very much impressive. The things I struggled to get through with, he did those pretty easily. He has got some skills, which I might add, if he hones then I think he will excel a lot. I think I should talk to him about it and help him somehow. Hope he finds his calling soon... My little brother is growing into a man. And I can't wait to see his future endeavours.

And then there's my Priya... She helped us in figuring out what we should gift our parents and even is helping a lot in keeping the whole planning under the wraps. Of course, our parents trust her much more than we, brothers. They know she won't keep anything from them but what they don't know is Ved can make his Priya do anything for him. So, basically, I took the advantage of that trust and it bore delicious fruit. None of them has smelled the whole surprise yet.

You must be wondering what I'm doing... well, the most important thing in the world, which is, making sure a WW III doesn't break out between you know who... And of course, invitations, schedules and all the other stuff. As of now, it is going well & I hope we execute our plans perfectly tomorrow.

Tomorrow's a big day and a lot of things are still unfinished... I better go sleep. I've to wake up early and wake Chote as well... or else Priya will kill us for being late.

Wish us luck, diary!

Toodles!

Oh yeah!!!! I remember all of it... My first ever event planning. I was just so damn nervous but Bhaiya's company helped me a lot. He's just being humble here but in reality, I was messing up a lot when my concepts weren't turning into reality. I had planned everything on paper but in the execution part, I was facing difficulties due to my hot-headedness. Yeah, I know... I was a sucky teenager. And he balanced that out... he always did.

And this event really opened my eyes about what should I do... Of course, Bhaiya had to knock this into my mind later. And he even went to extreme lengths... that's a story for another time.

God, I remember how we three always remained on our toes all the time during those 4 days. Those sneaky meetings at the terrace or the nearby park, to keep the secrecy intact. And Bhaiya is totally right, I hardly remember any fight happening between me and Deekshu... I still don't know how we pulled it out though. But boy, we were a great team!

Dear Diary,

Today was the d-day. And guess what, we nailed it. Yes! The celebration was a blast... And we managed to keep the surprise till the very end. In the morning, our trio acted as if we don't remember what was today and you should've seen their faces... Both sulked so much internally that it reflected on their faces. And as per our plan, we made them leave on false pretexts. It wasn't as difficult as we thought it would be as they were more than happy to leave their stupid children. After they went away, we completed all the preparation... It was crazy! Everything happened so fast that it's all blurred.

But I must say, that saying hard work definitely pays off is very much true. When Maa-papa arrived in the evening and we literally spooked Maa out with the darkness and later left them flabbergasted. The shine on their faces was remarkable... they were so delighted. And so were we, our plan worked out perfectly without any glitches. They loved the surprise and our gifts. Right now everyone is happy. Especially, the star couple. They must be enjoying the little date that we planned for them to give them privacy after the party and not to forget the holiday for the next three days.

And after the most tiring day, here I'm with you... I can never forget this day. Everyone was happy and I couldn't be more grateful to the almighty. Please, keep showering kindness and love on my family, Lord. I don't want anything but their happiness.

One more thing, I wanted to tell you. I know I shouldn't be thinking like this but I can't help it... Lemme elaborate... 

There was another surprise not only for our parents but also for me. Priya was taking a lot of time to come downstairs while the guests had already started to pour down and it was nearing Maa-Papa's arrival timing. I & Chote were literally getting battered while attending and briefing everyone without her help but there was no sign of her. Then in the meantime, Maa-Papa's car pulled up in the driveway and we had to get on with the plan as Chote was persistent. The moment they entered everything was dark and silent leaving them confused. Maa called out for Priya as a reflex knowing her nyctophobia and we were about to turn on the lights when suddenly a spotlight fell on the piano area with a silhouette sitting in front of the instrument confusing me. I asked Chote but he just smirked in return leaving me bewildered.

Then a very much known sweet voice wished them and then I realised that figure was none other than my Priya. Dressed in a turquoise coloured evening gown she looked gorgeous... For a second, I just couldn't believe that she was my Priya. Everything... every inch of her screamed beauty. She was so graceful, elegant and enticing. Though I hardly know anything about women's apparel, still every little detail of hers commanded my attention. There was nothing glamorous but rather subtle and her looks were enough... Urgh! I would rather not describe it because expressing it in words would be an insult to Deekshya. I may sound like a poet. But I just realised that what I felt at that moment is just so personal and inexplicable that I want it all by myself, to cherish it.

I was snapped out of my trance when her fingers hit the keys. She played a note that Papa has taught to her ages ago, I remember when uncle Devesh was still alive. It was their favourite. After he passed away, Priya never returned to her piano lessons. And that got me worried as needless to say it would've taken a lot of strength to do so. But the cute little yet nervous smile playing on her lips was enough to check my concerns. It was melodious, enchanting, no one could ever say that she hadn't touched the keys in a long time. And then Chote appeared from my side strumming the wishing tune on guitar as everyone started singing. When we finished, Maa-Papa took Priya into their collective embrace and the moment was overwhelming yet lovely... I couldn't resist, ran to them grabbed Chote with me and turned their little hug into a huddle. And that moment I realised, I've got everything right here and I don't need anything but this... how I wish I could just relive that again.

Later in the party, it was suddenly getting difficult for me to keep my eyes off Priya or even leave her side. Wherever she went, I went... whenever someone needed me I made sure to drag her along with me. I was almost glued to her... I don't know why I did that but couldn't help it. She was so bewitching, I couldn't just... But then I had to leave her as Maa asked me to when Priya complained about me to her that I was annoying her. Of course, I was annoying her, what else did you expect... But hey, I did compliment her. And you know what, this surprise was the last-minute addition by Chote and Priya as they wanted to add a little meaning to the entrance. This strengthens my hopes that this enmity has the potential to be turned into friendship.

Anyways, I did leave but not for long. Then when I was teasing her for all the strain she's taking in carrying that stupid gown just like she was complaining to me, suddenly a lady from the guest interrupted us and complemented Priya on her looks. To that extent, it was all cool but it went awkward when she asked whether we are dating each other. Both of us were taken aback...  but she was quick to rephrase her query that whether we are dating anybody else. There was this wickedness oozing out of that lady's face which felt heavily unsettling. It wasn't a regular question for any of us so we just politely declined. She really thought that... Gosh! Everyone knows we're best friends for God's sake.

And as if it wasn't enough, she immediately said that soon Priya will have to go to her marital home and that she would make a really beautiful bride. That flipped something in me and I was heavily pissed that I started drilling holes in her person... Deekshya literally has just stepped into her 18th year and already such stupid things are being asked. Like what the hell? And why on earth is our dating life suddenly a topic to be peered upon?

Priya noticed it and excused us quickly knowing I was annoyed. She wanted to calm me down but I excused myself and went to see over the preps as I knew she would've convinced me that it was nothing whereas it was anything but nothing.

But in all this, I'm realising that I didn't like the talks of sending Priya away or her dating life. And that I'm attracted to her... I don't know what to write anymore. I need a stress release. See ya!

Toodles!

Ah, I can never forget those nerve-wracking hours before the event... I was so damn nervous and stressed, almost threw up one time but somehow I was able to contain myself. It was my first event after all and ensuring everything was ought to be perfect to T definitely gave me cold feet but then Bhaiya and some shots helped me calm down.

But little did I know that my little change of plans with Deekshu actually became the driving force for him to admit that he was attracted to her... Aww! So in a way, I did help him realise this. God, now I know why he was so flustered during Deekshya's piano segment. At that time, I thought it was out of shock and mock anger that his face was all red because we made last-minute changes but the actual story... LOL!

And yes he did stick to her side the entire evening except for the time Maa-Papa required him while I was getting battered in juggling between stupid guests. I was almost going to burst at him for that but then all of a sudden he came to me all worked up and gulped several shots. I did ask him what happened but he replied nothing and just remained with me the entire time. I guess that happened after that intrusive comment from that lady... 

Okay, what's with people concerning themselves with anybody's dating life or even life for that matter? Why do people take so much interest in other's life? Like, isn't anything good happening in your life? Or gossiping is the only source of entertainment? Or is it because you've free time? Or do you find joy in putting people down? What is it? It's a blatant violation of privacy for God's sake! I can understand such obsession for celebrities to some extent as I myself enjoy such attention if not all the time but I do. But for new adults? Who has just turned adults and doesn't know a single thing about adulting... Like why? And the female fraternity gets the worst of it... Once a girl turns 18, everyone starts asking when she's gonna get married. Like bro, go figure out your fucked up life or more aptly get a life!

That lady was lucky because it was Bhaiya who was respectable enough to just stare at her angrily, if it had been me then I would've said something ugly for questioning my friendship.

This is an endless debate, probably I should just move to the next page... 

Dear Diary,

The tiredness from yesternight's party and last few days' preps finally caught up with us. It was Sunday... and we slept round the clock. Thankfully, the next two days are public holidays & our parents are on vacation. So, it's a merry time!!! Though we slept today we ain't going to waste time tomorrow. I had planned all of it in my mind... FRIENDS marathon, gardening, books shopping, and many more with Priya while boy's day out, gaming, and bro-time with Anirudh. Goshhhh! I can't wait already...

For your information, I'm still thinking about the things I said at the end of my diary entry. It's a huge thing and I need to be very careful. But for now, I don't think anything about it. I would let life happen to me, I guess.

Oh, shoot... Priya is going crazy and so is Chote. I made them agree to a movie night. And it seems they're on the verge of getting into another brawl... I better go.

Toodles!

Oh, that particular day was the official SLEEPING OUR ASSES OFF DAY! No one was around to wake us up and I slept like a sloth. How I miss that day... Nowadays, I've become an owl.

And of course, we fought at movie night. She wanted to watch a crime drama kinda film while I wanted a sci-fi one.  But like always, Bhaiya swooped in and at last, we watched the cult Indian comedy 'Hera Pheri' and 'Phir Hera Pheri'. And it was the best pick because we all enjoyed it and laughed our hearts out while gorging upon snacks.

Dear Diary,

It was Chote's share of two days. And we spent the whole day together gaming, driving the lengths of Delhi, eating, clubbing and whatnot. He wanted us to even drive to Agra but I denied it. His happiness knew no bounds today as I chose him rather than Priya to spend the first holiday with. Silly, I know. He's Chote after all... Later we went to our special hideout and stayed there till Priya rang up to me asking about us. We were so lost in our talks and night view of the cliff that we lost track of time.

I had a talk with Chote about his career and future. I suggested he try out in the management sector more appropriately Event management. And the second I mentioned it, his eyes shone brightly... I knew it. Just like I could see how passionate he was while the anniversary preps, he also realised that maybe he could do something in this. He said he was having second thoughts about it but now that I have also seen his interest in this, he wants to at least try his hand at this on a professional level. But of course, for this, we need our parent's assent. He said he had heard Papa talking to some of his colleagues about us. That I'm trying my hand in getting into services so Papa wants Anirudh to take after him in the legal world and that he is pleased Priya chose the law as her career. So he is afraid that how Papa will take up this new development given his reaction to Chote's vague answer the last time, which is a concern. But I assured him that I will talk to our parents, try to convince them and try my level best. I don't know how I'm gonna do it but I will pull it off, for sure. This is the last thing, I can do for my brother.

Okay, it's getting late and I've got a date... I mean a BFF date tomorrow. See ya!

Toodles!

Every moment with him is... was awesome. Of course, dumb me back then was super duper happy for being chosen first by Bhaiya. And like he said, it was silly but the premonitions I had compelled me I guess... well, guilty! To be honest, I suggested Agra visit out of the blues to just get more time with Bhaiya. I know, I was a petty shit. But now, better than playing this game with myself I would rather try to make up for all those mistakes I made except for a few...

Moving on... That conversation with Bhaiya atop the hill of Srivastava Bro's Hideout is one of those precious pristine moments that I have had with him. It really cleared my messed up mind which was filled with confusion and fear of not being able to match up to his standards along with jealousy from Deekshya. But his words did the magic for me just like the other times. Although our apprehensions about Papa's reaction became true, Bhaiya came to my rescue. And then I knew I had to at least try my hand in it and see where I'm standing now, it's all because of him.

It was always him. The binding force of the family, the protective shield of the family, the fresh breath and sunshine of the family... of everyone. Captain Ved Srivastava- The scion of Srivastavas', it was never me but it was meant to be you, Bhaiya! And I can never match up to you. All these months have passed by, but I still miss you.

Dear Diary,

Okay, why and when on earth I've started acting weird around Priya? So much so that she asked me straight on my freaking face... I didn't know what to answer and stuttered so badly, I tell you. Thank God, she was just pulling my legs otherwise God knows how my dumbass answer would've affected her. But this doesn't mean she hasn't noticed my stupidity, lately. And today's day with her might have given her plenty of reasons to ask. Lemme elaborate...

So after breakfast, we went to the garden to take care of her babies while Anirudh went out with his new friend that Bajaj boy (I just don't like that guy, he has got a weird creepy vibe, I'll tell Chote to be careful). Anyways, Priya considers the plants are her children, so she talks to them and they hear her. Crazy, I know but it's cute... The weather was thankfully good and we spent quite a nice time hanging out with her babies.

And then the day went away faster as we binged watched FRIENDS, made quite a mess in the kitchen while making lunch- most of which she should be liable of, no, am kidding. Went out for book shopping and ice cream. Not to forget the insane drive from South Delhi to Chandni Chowk and Connaught Place- just to buy some books at cheaper rates and enjoy the mouth-watering food of Chandni Chowk. Ugh that Rajkachori and those parathas were awesome, also the momos were chef kiss... My mouth is still watering.

So all this while I did unusual things that must have caught her attention. Dammit! During the FRIENDS marathon, when we reach Chandler and Monica's relationship saga... I don't know why but my shitty mind started comparing Priya and me to them. And of course, it went weird way too quickly for me... so I insisted on turning it off and going out like decided. But I think that must have confused her as I never break the FRIENDS marathon in middle.

Then in the car ride, I kept switching romantic songs to quirky and fun ones... so as to, you know already how I feel. And my dumbass also couldn't even realise that our favourite songs were playing in between and I skipped past those. She even asked that's why I'm changing the songs and not letting them play on. To which I gave an epic moronic reply that I wasn't just feeling it and wanted a change.

And finally when we were stargazing at the terrace as always...she, out of habit, was going to lay her head on my lap to get a good view of the sky and I jumped as if something attacked me. She gave me a puzzled look and I again came up with a stupid excuse which I don't remember now. Great! But as I didn't let her lay down on my lap so I insisted on tilting her head against my shoulders which she did. What... I didn't want her to think that I was uncomfortable around her all of a sudden. But now because she asked why I'm behaving like that, that attempt failed epically.

I don't know what she has taken note of but if she asks me again, I don't have an answer. What even I'll say? That I'm attracted to her... No way!!! Or should I? I'm confused as hell... these sudden eruptions of feelings are so wrong at so many levels but why does it feel like it's not. Why does this feel like that "this is it" kinda thing they show in movies and shows? Am I falling into the friends-to-lo... trope? Goshhhh! What I'm even thinking? Priya and me??? But then sometimes, I think... why not? Maybe? Maybe it could work... NO! I should just stop right there. This is insane...

But then those few moments at the terrace where her flying wavy tresses were hitting my face, the air filled with her sweet jasmine fragrance, her head against my shoulder, her doe-eyes gazing up at the moon fascinatingly, her gentle yet firm hold on my arms and that cute little amused smile playing on her lips- everything about those moments felt perfect. I wanted the time to stop so that we could sit up there for eternity. That's what I want to have all my life, nothing more or less... Having my Priya by my side is enough to get through anything.

I think it's enough... Either I'm going nuts or...

Toodles!

I have nothing but a single word- AWW!!!!

I had never taken note of Bhaiya falling head over heels for his best friend because of obvious reasons but I'm glad I decided to read his entries. At least, I could get to see this adorable side of his through his own words. I wonder what would've been different if he had fallen for some other girl or that my and Deekshya's relationship wouldn't have been as strained as they were... Either way, I would've become that little brother who helped his elder in pursuing and pleasing his girlfriend. But... never mind!

Ah, man! Even Bhaiya sensed the creepy air surrounding that douchebag, Zayn Bajaj, then, in just a single introduction at our parent's anniversary party. But my dumbass worshipped the ground on which Zayn used to stand. And maybe that's why karma bit me back for never paying heed to Bhaiya's warnings about Zayn and now even Deekshu had to bear the brunt of it just like all those years ago. 

But now, it's all sorted. Zayn is at the place where he deserves to be. And we can get on with our lives in peace, especially her.

Dear Diary,

The notification of the exams came out earlier today. It's exactly three months from today... And I need to focus on my preparation more. I have been doing it for months now but now I can't afford any distractions though there's a lot already. But I can try to cut some of it from my part so here I'm bidding a temporary goodbye. Will get back as soon as possible. Wish me luck, see ya!

Toodles!

Oh, I know where this is heading to... Gosh, let's just dive into it real soon.

Dear Diary,

It's been a long while since I've written something... I'm extremely sorry for this behaviour. And just now, I realised that you're ending, I mean there are a few pages left in you. I know you're not a living being but you've been with me all this while and I owe you a lot. Even though you can't give me advice like a living person, you did help me clarify my clouding thoughts and conscience at times. So, thank you!

But I assure you, I've got another one into our secret council who's your twin... It will keep up your legacy.

You must be wondering why I'm saying this then lemme tell you my reasons. And that starts with good news. Guess what I did... Yes, buddy, I did it. I cracked NDA!!!! I passed the interview and medical tests with flying colours... And that's the reason why I was on a break with you.

I can't believe it till now... but yes I DID IT! The merit list came out earlier today and everyone was so happy for me. We even had a family huddle... crazy, I know.

The training period starts next month in Pune and I'm leaving Delhi in a few days. After it, I will be able to serve my country. I can't wait to finally live my dream of serving my motherland.

I gotta go now.

Once again, thank you for everything... Hope the next time I read you, I would be a decorated officer of the Indian Army by then.

Toodles!

Aww... Bhaiya was so happy then. I bet, he must have cried writing this. He's a softie, you know. I remember when his results came out, we all were in the study waiting for the results. There was this pin drop silence which was terrifying needless to say. But the moment Bhaiya clicked the mouse, I jumped in to see... And boy, it was such an exhilarating feeling. I remember Bhaiya's face which played a range of emotions starting from shock to unbelievableness to numbness to snapping out of the trance to happiness and notably the lingering satisfied smile playing on his lips. Maa-Papa were so proud, I was jumping like a maniac and Deekshu... she never said anything but her watering eyes and tight hug to Bhaiya gave away how overwhelming she was also feeling. Like Bhaiya mentioned, we shared a fam huddle... that day was nothing less than a celebration in the Srivastava Mansion.

But now that I think about it, after his... I wish I could go back in time or something so that I could stop him from joining the forces. Or at least do something to protect him... I miss you Bhaiya. I'm doing okay but not that much which I should feel even though you would've been far away from here. You were my guiding star, I don't even know how I & our parents are functioning... We are just going on keeping aside the heartache. I have these diaries with me and I kind of feel nearer to you... but Maa still cries in front of your portrait, Papa keeps himself busy with the Consultancy works and when at home spends time in the study. And your Priya... she is just existing without you.

Deekshu is not doing well... I'm trying my best though, to comfort her and make her relive. I hope I'll be able to do that. Be with me and Deekshu, Bhaiya... we need you but we will be fine, I guess.

"Sir...", A voice brought me back from my trance.

"Errhmm... Yes?" I replied after clearing my throat and wiping the little traitor drops that were about to fall from my eyes. Damn these tears! I'm NOT crying, Bhaiya...

The flight attendant asked with a concern-filled tone, possibly seeing my red eyes, "Are... are you okay? Do you-"

I cut her off, "Yeah, I'm fine" and masked my emotions.

"Okay... I came here to ask you to keep aside your stuff and please, fasten your seat belt as the landing announcement has already been made by our Captain", She said with a sympathetic smile. "Yeah, sure!" I replied and she went away.

I kept the diary in my duffle bag but not before noting that the diary has run out of entries meaning I have to jump on to the next diary, once I get back. This diary and Bhaiya's entries have given me a lot of things and ideas to work on. Hopefully, they'll work out just fine.

Suddenly my gaze fell upon the little sorry gift I have bought at the airport. I hope this will shimmer down Deekshu's anger and that I won't have to face her wrath, but it will be in a way good as any emotion out of her now is a good sign. I'm kind of sure... if my sorry puppy face doesn't work then it will definitely have the effect. 

I grabbed it before fastening my seat belts. And then looked out of the little window to see the breath-taking view of glowing the dark high rise buildings and the beaming City of Dreams.

End Of POV

A cab came to a halt in front of the Srivastava House alerting the bodyguards of the house's lady who instantly sprang up on their feet. One of them swiftly walked to the vehicle to inspect only to realise their master himself has arrived. 

"Oh, sir...", he spoke up in relief, "...we thought you're not... we didn't know of your arrival". But just a curt yet tired nod from Anirudh was enough. The man immediately ordered his men to open the gates. "Any movements dictated in my absence?" Anirudh asked just before moving. 

"No sir, everything was fine"

"Good job! You people can leave now... and report tomorrow morning here", Anirudh said while checking his wristwatch that showed 01:15 AM. "But sir-", he started only to be cut off by his boss, "Raghu, Pia must be waiting for her father". Astonishment filled Raghu's face but Anirudh continued, "...yea, Surya's tongue slipped. You haven't even budged from here for the last two days but made sure other guys visited their home. And it will be a major fault of mine if I'll secure my wife's safety at the cost of keeping a daughter away from her father. So, you guys go!"

And before Raghu could say anything, Anirudh dismissed him and the cab drove in leaving a grateful employee behind.

Once, Anirudh brought little luggage- a medium-sized suitcase and a duffle bag- out of the trunk, he paid the cabby and he drove away. He looked up at his home as a strong gale filled with floral and briny scents hit him, which made him shudder a bit. Automatically, he remembered her words from the video chat that Mumbai has got a little colder but nothing like Delhi. She was right, he thought before rubbing his hands a little. And then he fetched his spare keys from the duffle bag and got in by unlocking the door. 

He quickly scanned the whole silent dark house and strained his ears to catch any irregularities. To his relief, there wasn't any. "Thank goodness", He mumbled shoving the keys back into the bag and swiftly measuring the length of the hall and eventually the staircase. He threw a concerned look towards Deekshya's room to see the door closed and everything seemed fine, so he turned his heels to the opposite way of the corridor into his room. 

Keeping his luggage in a corner to not mess the spic-span room after turning on the lights, he removed his jacket and unbuttoned his first few buttons. His throat felt dry and out of instinct, his gaze fell upon the side table in search of water. And like always, a bottle was there. Was she expecting my arrival? He thought but mentally kicked himself the next second as he remembered she always keeps a fresh bottle in case he arrives unannounced late into the night.

As her thoughts invaded him, he recalled the little gift he had brought for her as a token of apologies. He immediately dug into his luggage and pulled it out. A smile made its way to his face. He was certain that this will work because she liked these back in their nursery times and hardly anyone dislikes these. 

Suddenly, he felt the urge to go to Deekshya's room and keep it there so that it will be a good morning surprise. And he didn't give any second thoughts to it. Soon, he was standing at the threshold of her room in front of the closed door. The sweet jasmine scent- exclusive to her lingered in the air, he sniffed in and just like most of the time a calming effect settled quickly upon him. I missed this, he figured.

The memories of the last few days of him being in this room hit him like the huge waves hitting the shores outside- from helping her in her various breakdowns to the last time he had to sleep here and how he left by leaving just a note behind. He then realised so much has happened in the span of two days, he has finally eliminated the biggest problem in their lives. But little did he know it was just the beginning...

His body was giving up due to the tiring eventful day and travelling, if he were to procrastinate now about his actions then he won't be able to move an inch let alone keep the gift and go back to sleep in his room. So, keeping his thoughts aside he tried pushing the door slowly and just as he expected it was not locked. He moved in. 

A sudden warm low intensity light flashed, and his eyes that has gotten used to the darkness took a while to adjust. Soon his gaze fell upon the sleeping figure lying in the bed. 

With the bedside table lamp's mild amber luminescence spreading throughout the room, Deekshya snuggled under the sheet slightly propping her back against the headboard while a book of hers was still in her hand. Her reading glasses were on. She had fallen asleep while surfing through various alternate realities that were served to her by the author. 

A certain kind of blissful peace reflected from her, that transported Anirudh to their wedding day. He reminisced the time when she was walking into the court premises with their parents on her side without any pomp but with elegance. The time he filled her hairline with sacred vermillion and tied the Mangalsutra, he remembered that she had the same peacefulness but that was of another kind. The kind of peace that was unsettling, one that has crossed every stage of grief and has finally accepted its fate but this is different. It was of relief as if something heavy has been taken away from her heart & she was somewhat comfortable and free, not fully though. 

Before this whenever he has found her sleeping which was usually after an episode of nightmares mostly, she has been uncomfortable in her own skin. But this seemed good to him and more of a positive sign even though he doesn't know what triggered this change. He is glad that she's sleeping peacefully. 

He treaded in further as lightly as he could to not wake her up as he knew she is a light sleeper. Once by her side, he got a much more clear view of his wife and was left dazed.

Deekshya wasn't in her nightwear but rather was in the same Pink Saree she has worn during the afternoon video call. She hadn't even bothered to wear off her oxidised jewellery except for her tresses previously knotted into a lower bun that now is sprawled all over the headboard. 

In her sleep. he thought, she looked breathtakingly gorgeous much more than what she looked on the video chat. The side table lamp's golden-hued light spread on her face accompanied by the glow provided by the Pink hue of the Saree and the black-silvery ornaments really accentuated her features.

He shook his head lightly when he saw the glasses sitting on the brim of her nose and the book resting on her lap. Silly girl, he thought. Then chuckling, he relieved her of those slowly and kept them aside.

And even before Anirudh could think anything, his hands has reached on their own accord to the few tendrils that have managed to escape their constraints and ever-so-gently tucked them behind her ears. His cold fingers lightly brushed against her warm skin near the upper portion of her ear and he felt a sudden rush of adrenaline. He suddenly wanted to feel more...

Then he couldn't help himself but let his knuckles- that has suddenly become wintry after the first touch- slide leisurely along the curve of his wife's heart-shaped visage which felt sultry than before. His movements were painstakingly lethargic as if he was cherishing the sultry warmth feeling of her soft skin and memorising every dip and curve. But he dared not to go near her petals, why... he didn't know himself. 

This didn't last long as Deekshya sucked in a sharp breath and squirmed under the sudden foreign touch in her subconscious. And realisation struck Anirudh like a lightning, he immediately retracts his advances. But something in him instantly missed the feel of her skin under his hands. He then realises, he had been holding his breath all this while and even his heart has picked up a fast pace. He exhales heavily and shifts a few steps back while his wide eyes kept affixed to her, confused and hoping he didn't disturb her peaceful sleep. A few moments in, he watches her slide down the headboard and lay on her left side subconsciously. And then he hears her breathing get even quickly, much to his relief.

And then he acquired his composure chiding reminding himself why he came here in the first place. He reasoned with himself that he behaved that way maybe because he has been away from women for almost a year now and the touch stirred his urges, he's hardly ever known restraints at least not after coming to Mumbai anyway. 

Anirudh shrugged these thoughts off and brought the gift he had bought for her from his back which he has been silly enough to hide behind him as if they were children. He went across the bed and tucked it under the sheets beside Deekshya's sleeping form. His gaze fell over her sound sleeping face that now adorned a sweet little curve at the corner of her lips while snuggling to her pillow that in turn made a small smile bloom on his face. He pulled the sheets that has slid down from her figure a little while he adjusted the gift and covered her fully... The next second she murmured something incoherent, "Vethhh..." and the once little curve turned into a bright enlarged one as she took the soft sheets into her fist and snuggled again.

And at that moment she looked so adorable that Anirudh couldn't resist but peck her forehead. "Sleep well, doll", He whispered inaudibly while smoothening her unruly baby hairs on her forehead in adoration. There was a certain twinkle in his hazel brown eyes as if he had found something that he has lost a long time ago.

Then he sauntered back to the other side chuckling as he wondered about her impending reaction the next morning.  He turned the table lamp off and darkness claimed its deserved presence in the room but it wasn't alone. Through the wide-opened windows and balcony entrance, the scintillating silvery refreshing moonlight graced and illuminated the room, along with the chilly zephyrs of Arabian Sea waters. 

"Oh, shoot!", He breathes, instantly striding towards the door and windows cursing himself to be so ignorant about it. That's why she was snuggling, he ponders while carefully shutting them, because of the cold winds. How can I be so silly, man?

Once done with the balcony passageway, he turns on the AC and throws one last glance towards Deekshya... only to be frozen in his place. No, she hasn't awakened, thankfully. But... He sucks in a sharp breath and exhales labouringly while taking in the view. The silvery shimmer of the moon oh-so-softly kissing the features of his wife is nothing but enchanting, to say the least. She glowed under the moonlight, an unfathomable divinely aura suddenly surrounded her which was beguiling yet intriguing. She looked angelic as if nothing had ever scathed her or she has never known grief or that whatever Zayn had filled his ears against her in the afternoon was all wrong and she has always been this peaceful and lovely... And he couldn't take his eyes off her not that he wanted to either.

Anirudh felt an unchartered and nameless pull towards Deekshya, his once nemesis and now wife. And it made his stomach churn because of what... He couldn't point out the reason, himself. It was an exotic feeling... too much!

And suddenly, he couldn't bring himself to step out of the room. Heck, now he doesn't even want to leave her presence but that's the exact thing his mind is warning him against. But this time, he won't listen to his rationality. He then realised he felt the exact thing the last time when he was and dozed off here. He just wanted to stay rooted in here and gaze at Deekshu. He needs nothing, not even sleep but this. Just this one last time, he reasoned to himself.

Without any kind of noise and constantly peering over Deekshya, Anirudh dropped himself on the couch kept in the corner of the room a few feet away from the bed near the balcony entryway as it gave him a clear view of her. He loosened his necktie and unbuttoned the first few buttons of his shirt and took off his belt, to make himself a little comfortable before cosying up on the couch.

He traced every inch, every curve of Deekshya that was accentuated by the shiny crisp moonlit. He noticed the scar on her temple that she had gotten from that prick Zayn is now fading, he realised it wasn't very much deep but the blood loss had scared him that day. Then his gaze fell on her parting filled with vermillion that shone under the moonlit making him smile. He kept observing her- expressions, changes in her face's lines, the way her orbs moved every now and then behind her closed eyes, her breathing pattern, movement of her chest falling up and down, her hands clasped together with the sheets, etc- as if he was memorising her or that she will disappear in the morning.

All of sudden, something captured his attention when Deekshya shifted a bit rendering the sheets and the Saree slid down- A mole sitting at the swell of the area beneath her collar bone and above her bosom's valley. He has obviously never seen it before but it was really hot... He knows it's wrong but he couldn't help but think of the ways he could just touch... No, he can't think like that. 

Anirudh knowingly forced his eyes away at lightning speed only to end up in an even bigger ditch, his eyes fell on Deekshya's lips which has become his source of distraction since the wedding. And this time also the same thing happened, he just wanted nothing but to press his lips on hers. The urge this time seemed stronger than ever and he didn't know why.

But he managed to push back that urge down like always. Of course, he can't do this to anyone, not Deekshya of course. It's just his animalistic side has somehow gotten unhinged out of nowhere but he knows how to control it. He reasoned to himself that probably this was the tiredness of the big day catching up to him and maybe he was hallucinating because the intoxicating jasmine scent of hers has filled in the whole room.

For hours, he kept gazing at her, observing every nuance of her and her movements wondering about anything and everything until his eyes gave up and tiredness took over his senses.

8400 Words. Phewww!

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What do you guys think of Ved's journal? Are you enjoying it? Or should I just take it out of the chapters? And what do you think of Anirudh? Is his lust showing up? And also, what has he brought for Deekshya... any guesses? 

Is anyone missing Deekshya? How she will react when she gets to know what Anirudh did on his little top-secret trip? Any guesses? Don't worry we're gonna hear from her soon...

Sorry! In my defence, I just wanna say the following- Law isn't easy. It sucks up your blood. And the cherry on the cake happens when your college loves playing with students along with the university. And bloody E.X.A.M.S.!!!

And also to some extent, the lack of reactions is one of the reasons behind such late updates. I don't know whether I'm on the right track at all... I seriously need reviews. Say whatever you wanna say, I'm open to everything. But guys please, REACT!

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