[11/04/17]
[notartsorry––]
(About a hundred different things to rant about, please bare with me)

(1)
Just now starting to watch Yuri!!! on Ice again and I just
AAAAAAAHHH
I know the hype is probably gone already, butstillIcan'tgetoverhowcutetheyare!!
Victurri is the best ship and no one can tell me otherwise. (But maybe Otayuri comes in a close second.)
I just can't deal, alright. It's just...
way...
too darn cute.
Stop them. They are going to destroy the world with their cuteness.

(2)
By the way, if anyone wants me to put my writing on here instead of on my many Amino accounts sometimes, just ask and I'll put it in a chapter. Seriously, I think I'm getting better. I just need less distractions, less school work (-cough HELLOALLMYTEACHERSOUTTHERE cough-), and more inspiration. It's getting to the point that it looks like my writing is lazy, but I promise that it isn't. It takes me more time to come up with a single sentence longer than it takes me to finish a chapter book that I should be able to read in under a week. (IT TAKES ME OVER A MONTH THOUGH, THANKS SCHOOL)

(3)
I'm doing pretty well with my grades, which makes me happy, but trying to keep up with my studies, while also doing things I love can be extremely stressful. I often come home with a headache and a feeling of exhaustion. I'm usually hungry, too, so there's that as well. (Note: Even after I eat, the headache doesn't leave, so those two aren't connected.)
I somehow make it through every week to take a break for two days, but then I come back to start the whole process over again. It's so...
Monotonous.
I need a change.

(4) [Warning! Suicidal Story Ahead]
A tragedy recently struck. A 9th grader took his life because of what some of his rude and cruel peers had to say to him.
Yes, he was bullied to death.
I knew him too. He was such a kind soul. He never deserved anything like that.
Our school usually does prayer circles. But no one did one for him. Except for a few friends of mine and me. We all knew him. We just cried in each other's arms.

(5) [Vent Topic Ahead!]
Okay, so there's this guy I had this HUGE crush on last year. He didn't want to be in a relationship with me, but he wanted to be "close" to me. I nearly slapped him in the face when he told me this. He hurt me beyond words and I can't explain why. I guess I hate people chasing after anything, but my personality.
It breaks my heart, though, coz I don't see him at school anymore. Everyone thinks I hate him, but I secretly hope that he's okay. I guess you could say that I...
Miss him.
I have all these dreams where I finally see him and he reacts in two different ways.
1- He hugs me and tells me that we need to catch up.
2- He completely rejects me and doesn't even look at me.
It's so confusing. Is this normal? Do I need to try and forget about him? Do I need to text him to see if he's okay? I just don't know anymore...

Oh wow. I feel better after getting all of that out. Thank you for anyone who made it this far! I am feeling fine now.

Side Note: If you don't think you are loved, find someone who does. You are loved! You are unique! You are special! You are smart! You are brave! You are kind! Never forget that! There is no one else like you! Don't listen to those who try to put you down! Rise above their insults and love yourself!

I love you all! Please be safe!
Bye!