Ciel

I stare down at my blank paper helplessly. This is my twenty-fifth time to try writing my final words and it isn't happening. I don't know what to say. Well I have too much to say. Suddenly a thought hits me. I'm thinking to hard about what Sebastian wants to hear. He probably doesn't care about what I say. He'll care that I took the time and effort to do something like this.

Sebastian,

Letters have become kind of our thing haven't they? You confessed your love to me through a letter I still read everyday. I'm sure your head is full of unspoken questions, and I'm sorry about that. I never intended to get Elizabeth pregnant, but now that she is I can't leave her on her own. Honestly I'm clueless on how to raise a child. I'm even more clueless about writing this letter! Sebastian you opening up to me and telling me your story was honestly the best thing that's happened to me in a long time. It allowed me to act on the emotions I'd been feeling for a while. I want to make something clear to you. I do not love Elizabeth, not the way she wants me to. I love her like a sister, like the family she is. I was scared and alone the night she talked me into sex. She cornered me, and I couldn't say no. I never told you because I didn't want to hurt you any more than I already had. While I'm gone raising this child the manner is yours and the others to have. My leave isn't permanent, but it's not going to be a short one either.

I don't want you to cry while I'm gone. Everyday you work through is one day closer to me being home. Yes I'm aware that it's out of character for me to think of the glass half full and I apologize for that. Just don't forget that I love you so so much. Always.

Love Always,

-Ciel Alexander Phantomhive

P.s. Sorry for stealing your spare tailcoat, I just needed something that carried your scent.

I read over the letter four times before deciding it's perfect.

Time Skip

Lizzy

I sit at the table next to Ciel and silently eat. Nobody knows what to say, or maybe it's just that nobody wants to talk.

I make the mistake of making eye contact with Sebastian, and he glares at me like I'm a meal. The glare is so intense it's like he's silently screaming,

"If it wasn't for my lover's child living inside of you, I'd kill you."

I finally break eye contact and go back to eating my meal.

"This is really good." I say quietly. "Thank you."

Sebastian just nods and watches Ciel stare at his untouched food. I can tell by the way they're both acting they're upset.

I never wanted to hurt anyone! I just wanted what was best for Ciel. If I would've known this child would cause him this much pain I never would've said anything.

I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry.

Ciel

Lizzy finishes up her meal in silence. I couldn't bring myself to eat mine. I felt that if I ate it the realization of this possibly being my last meal prepared by Sebastian would've struck way to hard.

"Elizabeth could you give us a moment?" I choke out whilst trying not to cry.

She just nods and leave Sebastian and I alone. I pull the letter out of my pocket and sit it on the table between Sebastian and I.

"What's this?" He asks before picking it up.

"J-just read it." I start to untie my eyepatch.

Once it's off I look at Sebastian, watching his reactions. My heart cracks when I see the tears start rolling down his cheeks.

The letter gets violently slammed onto the table and I get jerked into Sebastian's arms. He starts to sob uncontrollably while holding me which only causes me to.

"I-I'm sorry." I cry and grip his shoulders tighter. "I l-love you."

"I don't care about the damn tailcoat Ciel!" Sebastian cries. "I care that you're leaving me! You're leaving me again!"

"I'm sorry!" I feel myself begin to tremble slightly as my sobs get harder.

Sebastian and I just cry in each other's arms. I brethe in frantic breaths, hoping that maybe it'll give me a change to remember the scent.

"Ciel look at me." Sebastian whispers. I slowly lift my gaze to meet his.

"I'm not mad at you, and I know you're going to make one hell of a father." We both laugh a little at the use of Sebastian's phrase.

"I'm in love with you Ciel and you have no idea how hard it is for me to be without you. I want you to call me whenever you can. Alright?" I nod slightly and Sebastian wipes one of my tears.

He's the one who leans in and presses his lips to mine. It's not our last one. It's not our last kiss damn it!

Sebastian pulls away and places his forehead on mine.

"Be happy kitten. I love you and hate to see you this way." I can't help but smile.

To show my gratitude I press a gentle kiss on my Butler's lips.

"This isn't goodbye." I whisper.

"Ciel I'm sorry to interrupt but our carriage is here." Lizzy says from the door way.

Sebastian wraps his arms around me once more and we share a bone crushing hug.

I can feel his gaze on me as I exit. Just before I officially leave I turn back around and finish the statement Lizzy interrupted.

"I promise!" I shout and give one last sad smile before walking away without looking back.