I was almost in the hospital last night. I am not doing well at all. I am going to the doctors again soon. I just wanna die. First it started with some ear pressure and a bit of a sore throat. Then it all went downhill from there. My throat it so swollen my ears feel like they are about to bust with blood and I can't breath. Now it's both my eyes, my head, my ears, my nose, my throat, and my chest. I just want to die. I ended up throwing up last night after my grandmother gave me a shit ton of meds. That was the best I felt in 3 weeks. I could stand without being dizzy and bending over without pain. Now I was out of breath and my throat only stung a tiny bit...like when you usually throw up that sting. Gram was debating sending me to the hospital but the hospital here is worse then shit. We went to the doctor Monday she misdiagnosed me. We are trying again today, very soon.

And if I don't get some immediate help I'm gonna die.