Beep…beep…beep…

The heart monitor beeps silently as it breaks the sullenness in the room. Wires patched to his body. Oxygen mask has not been removed from his face for the past three days. His chest heaves to each of his heavy shallow breathing. His eyes shut close tightly hiding those ruby colored orbs. Both of his wrists were heavily bandaged. Several worried eyes watched him from outside of the room through the mirror.

"How' is he doing?" a worried man in his forty looked at his wife as she took a seat next to him in the waiting room. She shook her head slowly, she sighed. Feeling exhausted as she leans against her husband.

"I'm sure, one day he will wake up…" her crimson orbs sadden. Her husband can only smile at his wife for being strong. He held her hands dearly as he wraps his other arm around her.

From afar, both Kise and Aomine looked at the two worried parent, feeling sad for them. Kise then made his way towards the drinks machine down the hallway.

"Akashichii will wake up…I know he's not weak, we all know he's not…we can't afford to lose another one of our friend…" Kise bit his lower lip.

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[Flashback]

"Akashi-chii~~why did you left the door unlocked?" Kise asked as he enters the apartment. His orbs searched for the smaller male.

"Akashichii, are you here?" he looked in each roomuntil he heard the sounds of water flowing. Following the source of the sound, he ends up in the main master bedroom that belongs to no one else but Akashi Seijuro himself. He walks towards the bathroom, wanting to turn off the water if Akashi is not at home but he was wrong, completely wrong.

"AKASHI-CHII!" he shouted, his orbs as wide as a saucer.

On the cold hard floor in the bathroom, lies his former captain in a pool of blood that was oozing out of his two wrists. A small knife lies next to him. Akashi was completely pale and freezing cold. Quickly, Kise ran towards the latter and gathers him into his arms, trying to wake him up. His hands were trembling at the amount of bloods flowing.

"AOMINE-CHII, HELP ME!" he screams into his phone that is drenched in blood after his hands touched Akashi.

"Oi, stop yelling into my eardrums, I can get d—"he was cut off.

"AOMINE-CHII, AKASHI-CHII IS…!"

Aomine orbs widened in disbelief upon hearing the blond. His lips parted slightly as his phone slips of his hands. His childhood friend, Satsuki who was busy looking at the magazines noticed the frantic voice from the fallen phone on the floor.

"Dai-chan…?"

He gets on his two feet and rushed to his door, "SATSUKI, call the ambulance. Tell them to head to Akashi place.NOW" Aomine grabbed his jacket and speeds out of the house, running towards Akashi apartment.

[Flashback ends]

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Aomine sighed. It has been three days since Kise found Akashi lies in a pool of blood. Midorima informed them that there was nothing he can do to help Akashi. Now it is left up to Akashi will to wake up.

Attempt suicide, the police reported. Aomine frowns at the flashback with the police report.

'Tetsu, if you're there, watching over us…please save Akashi…' He quietly prays. 

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Meanwhile in Akashi ward, Midorima finished checking his former captain condition. He sighed as he looks at the unconscious red head that looks like he is about to give up any second.

"You better not give up…Akashi…" Midorima mumbles before exit the room. Hoping his friend would hear his pleas.

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In Akashi inner thoughts,

I'll stay asleep…in order to find my heart…

Where did my heart go?

When I was little…I used to blow bubbles…

Larger…and …larger…

I wasn't a genius…

The genius was my older twin brother, Ryu…

He could do everything.

Everything…

I was so proud…

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When Akashi was younger,

"It's our neighbor" he smiled as his small hands were held gently by his mother.

"Ryu is such a smart boy!"

"I'm so envious of you!"

"He's nothing like our son"

"I wished my son would become more like Ryu"

"What did you do to make him such a smart boy?"

"He got so many good traits from both of you!"

"He's such a genius!"

The neighbors' praised his brother in front of him. He felt left out.

Mama loved hearing those words…

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His mother let go of his hands and walk towards his older twin that emerged from the bedroom.

"Mama…?" he calls out but was ignored.

"Ryu, people praised me again saying you're such a smart and good boy!" Then, she remembered the smaller boy who was standing by her side. She forced a smile on her face.

"Seijuro, you're a good boy too!"

He knows her smile are fake, her praised to him are also fake.

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I'm always just an addition…

Mama cares only about my brother because everyone praises him…

It doesn't matter if I'm here or not…

Would that be me if my brother wasn't around?

If only he wasn't around…if only he…

That's it…all he needs to do is disappear…

He should just disappear…

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It was both him and his brother eighth birthday. Ryu received countless of presents while Seijuro received only one. However, when his brother saw him unwrapping the box of present. His brother barged into the room and looms over him. He grabbed the toy truck. 

"Nii-san, that's mine…" he tried getting the toy back. Ryu glares at him.

"This belongs to me because I am better than you. You don't deserve any present at all! " he pushed the younger boy down to the floor and left the room with the toy. Seijuro cries.

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That evening while his brother weren't in his room, Seijuro quietly sneaks into the room. Quietly lke a mouse, he searched for his toy truck, he quickly made his way towards the cabinets upon noticing the toy sat on one of the shelves. He didn't realized that his older twin was at the door watching every move. 

"Seijuro."

"What are you doing?"

Seijuro steps back, as his brother glares at him like a predator that wants to devour its prey, "I'm just taking back what belongs to me!" he hugs the toy onto his chest.

"YOU THIEF!!" Ryu slaps him in the face, causing him to fall. Seijuro orbs widened at his twin act, "Don't touch my stuff without MY permission!" he picks on the toy and puts it on a higher shelf.

"This is mine. Going through someone room without asking…only the worst kind of people would do that!"

"But…"

"This is mine; never touch it without my permission. You heard me?!" he flinched. Never in his life he would find his brother this frightening."Now, LEAVE!" Ryu orders him.

Seijuro left the room with a heavy heart.

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My brother hates me…

It's because I'm not a good boy…

It's because I'm the worst kind of people…

But why…?

I'm sad…

My brother has everything and I have nothing…

I WISH MY BROTHER…

JUST DIE!

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His wish came true. His brother passed away in a car accident. 

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During the funeral, he approached a photo of his brother that lies on the table, "Big brother…?"

"Did you died because of what i wished for...?" guilt starts pooling in his small and fragile heart.

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Where do I go…?

Where do I belong…?

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In the real world, both of his parents looked at their unconscious son worriedly. They noticed their son pained expressions. They knew, nothing they or the doctors can do…it was up to Akashi to wake up.

"Hun…a long time after Ryu passed away, Seijuro became just like his older twin. His began to excells very well in his studies and sports. Was it because of the pressure being overwhelmed by Ryu, we didn't noticed this...?"Her husband nodded as he turns around facing to his wife.

"Back then…we was happy thinking that Ryu came back to us in Seijuro's body. Shouldn't we have thought more about how Seijuro felt?" she added. 

"Seijuro has a lot of good traits, which are his alone. We became snobbish after being called the parents of a genius." he felt guilt.

"Did Seijuro really like studying? I don't think he hated it but…lately I've been thinking that he might wanted to have more freedom from our pressures. " Tears pooling on the corner of her eyes, feeling so bad for what they did to their sons as her husband pulls her into a hug. He tries to soothe her. 

"We failed as parents…" She turns to face where her son lies. Praying to the heaven that one day her beloved son would wake up.

"Please open your eyes, Seijuro..."

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Where did my heart went?

When I was little… I used to blow bubbles…

Larger…and…larger…

Yes, I was always blowing bubbles…

In our garden…with soapy water and a straw with a cut at the end…

Who made that soapy water?

Who cut the end of that straw?

Mom…?

No…

It was my brother…

Yes, I couldn't blow bubbles unless I used the soapy water and straw that he made…

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"Sei, try blowing it" Ryu passes him the glass of soapy water and a straw. "Sure!" He happily took it and starts blowing the straw as it produce a small bubble. It became bigger at each huff. The bubble floats away. They both smiled upon their experiment.

"You can do it too" Seijuro handed over the glass and straw.

"But I'm not good at it" he chuckled.

"There's something you can't do?"

"Of course. No humans are perfect at all."

"You're the best at blowing bubbles because you blow it kindly, I can't do it, they always burst. " he said then turns around to blows the straw. The bubble grew larger and larger.

Suddenly, it burst. Seijuro shuts his orbs upon the burst. When he opens back, his brother is gone.

"Nii-san…?"

"Nii-san, please come back!"

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He won't come back…

He is dead.

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His eyelids flutters open, the he stares into the white ceiling above him. His crimson orbs has no shine, it was empty. He turns his head to the side. Several people were looking at him worriedly.

Why…?

"You're awake!"

"Akashi-chii, we've been so worried!" the blond male approached him, followed by a navy blue haired tan male. The other two older couple quickly rushed to his side. He looks at them.Three words they never expected to hear from the red head who looked like an empty broken doll. With a hoarse voice and dried chapped lips

"Who are you…?"

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