When you left me it didn't only make me feel blue.
But you also made me wonder if I am undeserving of you.
You made me love myself lesser than before, now I hate myself more.
I was carefully piling up the bricks of love I made for myself, thanks to you they feel lighter.
I was at the peak of building the strongest fortress that I could ever have.
And then you left me. They began to feel heavier and some built pieces are crumbling.
I couldn't do anything except to watch and cry.
Who I was thinking to fool?
I can't build a strong fortress. I can't carry all these bricks.
I am tired. I am weak.
I stopped acting cool.
I am just a fool.
However, I am still trying. I am starting.
Slowly lifting the heavy bricks. Piling them to rebuild what was destroyed.
I am still trying. I am a fool anyway.
I hope you won't come back and ruin the few piles I made.
I hope you won't come back, 'cause the self-love that's left might fade.