Who am I?

I have been bubbly
I have been social
I have been friendly
I have been helpful

I have been quiet
I have been closed-in
I have been upset
I have been scared

I have been trying
I have been reaching out
I have been lying
I have been awkward

I can be quiet
I can be loud

I can be smart
I can be dumb

I can be young
I can be old

I can be motivated
I can be done

I can change
I can stay the same

I can be myself
I can be someone else

Who am I?

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I'm not sorry

I'm not sorry
I told you my limits
And you got angry
I'm not sorry
You know we were forced together
You know we don't actually fit
I'm not sorry
I wished you no damage
But you stabbed yourself with the knife
I'm not sorry
Then you place the blade in my hands
So that I was the one to blame
I'm not sorry
There was a time that I was
That is long gone now
I'm not sorry
So one day when we cross paths again
And you ask how my life has been
"I'm not sorry"
Is what I will tell you then

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(Untitled and Unfinished)

I don't like the person in the mirror
She's ugly inside
Fake, selfish
She's ugly outside too
Fatter than a cow, face too round
I don't like the person in the mirror

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Fake.

Fake.
How fake?
Twenty, fifty, seventy percent?
Faking it.
How many times today?
Three, nine, thirty times?
Feeling fake.
When?
With make up, friends, strangers?

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(Untitled)

Time goes by and here I stay for I am undeserving
Pitiful to the point of hatred
Sick and twisted and broken
Some come and go
Some take pieces
Others leave something behind

But do I go after them?

Time goes by and here I stay for I am undeserving

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That's all for now! I had the first poem already written long before but the rest were done in one night. No, I'm not okay, but please don't ask why. I hope you have a great day!