Sophrosyne
"I love you"
My heart skipped a beat.
I did not know what it meant but I felt a tingling sensation in my stomach as my heart beat kept on increasing.
Here I was sitting on his lap as he just confessed to me. He looks vulnerable. He looks broken.
I felt his grip on me tighten as I held onto him without uttering any words. I did not know how to reply.
"Don't leave please..." He said breathing on my neck
"I won't" I said trying to comfort.
"Please don't" He said yet again
I did not reply as I held onto him tighter. An urge in me rose that I should be comforting him.
I felt attached
Y/N felt awful seeing Jungkook's broken state. Although she did not understand why he was this way but, she was distressed to see the usually playful natured boy in such a state.
Jungkook was in fear. As if his mind and heart had collaborated printing the thought that if he lets her go, she will fade away. He will loose her again. She held onto him as he silently cried holding her as well.
"Jungkook?" Y/N whispered
Jungkook replied with a hum. He did not want to say anything but just stay close to her and hear the eutony, her voice.
"We need to get up and get ready" She said again.
"Just a little while more. Please..." He begged
Y/N nodded as she caressed the strands of his hair. Jungkook closed his eyes at the pleasant feeling. It was euphoric to him.
"Come on get up already" Y/N said chuckling
"No..." Jungkook replied like a child as he wrapped his arms around her waist further.
"Jungkook!" Y/N said sternly
Jungkook looked up only to be met by the most mesmerising eyes, he had ever seen. He wished he could stare at them forever. Y/N looked down at his dark brown eyes, swollen from the tears. Jungkook kissed her cheeks with his nose caressing it.
Y/N did not know what to do. She was about to say stop considering they are not anything but she did not want him to stop.
"Jungkook....come on get up. We will be late. We don't want to make Jimin wait" Y/N whined
Jungkook rolled his eyes at the mention of the name.
"Why? Who is he? Donald Trump?" Jungkook said sarcastically
Y/N grinned at the comment. Jungkook's childish behaviour is the one thing she appreciated ever since they met. As she thinks so...
"Seriously?" Y/N said laughing
"Yeah.." Jungkook replied
Silence again fell over the room as they both enjoyed eachother's comfort.
"Get up" Y/N said patting his back and hurriedly getting up before he could react
Jungkook groaned at the empty feeling as she exited the room. He got up and head towards the cupboard to get his clothes. After getting his clothes out, the feeling of holding her just a while ago came back as sense of nostalgia. He leaned against the the cabinet door, closing his eyes, reminiscing the moment.
He wished they could stay like that forever
IN THE AFTERNOON
Jimin reached the building as he waited downstairs leaning against his car. After the situation with Baekhyun that day, he was not ready to face him.
He decided to leave a text for
Y/N informing that he was already here. He had bought a bouquet of red roses for her. He put quite a lot of effort on his outfit. He wanted to impress her in every way possible. He tried to find everything that's related to her. However, it hurt him to know that it was not him who knew about her. It was Jungkook.
He rolled his eyes. He rolled his eyes so much nowadays, he felt as if they would go to the back of his head and not come back anymore. The lift dinged signalling someone has come down. He looked to the direction to see Y/N, a smile formed on his face. She was wearing a violet crop top with blue jeans. Her hair was left open. As usual without any make up but still looking glorious.
However, his smile faded away the moment he saw Jungkook alongside her. His eyes fell on their hands only to notice they were intertwined with one another. He clenched his jaw looking away with frustration.
Y/N noticed Jimin standing by his car. She was bickering with Jungkook about random things.
"Jimin!" Y/N called out
Jungkook flinched as his eyes followed Y/N's hands direction. His smile turned into frown. Y/N left his hand and went towards Jimin. Jungkook felt insecure as he ran after her.
Jimin looked at her, only to see her approaching him with a smile. He smiled back as he saw her. He saw Jungkook from behind and sent him a short glare which Jungkook returned.
"Hey!" Y/N said
"Hello!" Jimin replied
They gave eachother a soft smile. Y/N's gaze turned to Jungkook who stood beside her. She felt a blush creep upon her cheeks at how good his side profile looked. She looked away. Jimin noticed it.
"For you!" Jimin said giving the roses in attempt to distract her.
"Ohh thank you" Y/N said politely
"I didn't not know what your favourite flower was. So I just bought this. Hope you like it" He said scratching the back of his neck
"Oh it's okay! Your near. My favourite flower is-" Y/N got cut off
"White roses..." Jungkook trailed off
"Cause it is an early symbol for true love and also for purity and innocence" He completed
Y/N looked at him in utter shock. Jimin looked at glaring.
"H-How did you know?" Y/N asked
Jungkook looked at her gave a soft smile at her.
"Cause it's about you" He replied
Y/N looked at him with mesmerized eyes. Jungkook looked at her with pure admiration. They felt they could continue looking at eachother's eyes forever. But the third party did not appreciate it.
Jimin cleared his throat.
"Let's go?" He said in a deep voice
They looked away as Y/N looked back at him with a red face.
"Yeah sure" She said
They were about to enter the car when Jimin saw Y/N entering the back seat with Jungkook.
"Y/N why don't you sit in the front?" Jimin asked
Y/N looked ta him with unsure eyes. She made up her mind
"It's okay I will sit at the back with Jungkook" She said making Jimin clench his jaw again.
Jungkook smiled as his heart warmed up. He looked at the girl sitting beside him with only love in him. He felt like trash for treating her the way she was treated.
Throughout the whole ride Jimin spoke to Y/N about random things. Y/N followed showing gratitude for taking them to the fair today.
After they reached fair, they started to roam around. Jimin still talking to Y/N trying to keep her away from the unwanted company. But Jungkook stood his ground holding onto her hand. Y/N did not complain.
While they were walking they bumped into someone. Y/N specifically Jungkook and Jimin said walked forward thinking she was following. She looked up to see a very pretty girl. The girl softly smiled at her.
"Sorry.." She said quietly
"It's okay sweetie! Happens" She replied
Jungkook looked back to see Y/N talking to somebody. He went back to her only to see a girl. He sort of expected her but did not at the same time.
Suddenly two boys came form behind calling out the girl.
"Lia where di-" One of them came saying but got cut off when they saw Jungkook and Y/N
"Y/N and Jungkook?" He said
"Hey Taehyung hyung and Hoseok hyung" Jungkook said
"What are you doing here?" Taehyung asked
"We-" Jungkook got cut off
"Y/N?" Jimin came from behind
All Taehyung, Hoseok and Lia's expression fell at the arrival. Lia was aware of the situation, Taehyung had informed her. Jimin looked at them and smirked, muttering a small 'Hey'. They felt their blood boil at the look of him. They just responded with a nod.
"Why don't we go to the roller coaster?" Taehyung asked
Everyone looked at him and smiled. They all nodded. Except for two people. One was Jimin who just shrugged with an arrogant look. The other was Y/N. She gave off a scared look. She was a bit afraid of roller coasters.
The went on purchased the tickets. Y/N did not want to ruin their moods, so she went along with it. They made their way to the line. As they got nearer Y/N felt her hands shaking.
They were taking their seats and Jimin was about to take the chance and sit beside Y/N but Jungkook was quicker. So, he ended up sitting beside Hoseok, who just rolled his eyes at him. Taehyung took a seat beside Lia.
Jungkook looked beside him to see the nervous look in Y/N's face. He furrowed his eyebrows confused but it soon replace with a look of realisation when he remembered something.
She was scared of roller coasters.
He looked down at her hand to find them shaking in fear. The ride was about to commence. He held onto her shaking hand making Y/N flinch. He gave her a soft smile and said.
"Don't worry, I am here. Just hold onto my hand" He said
Y/N felt relief at the comment. The ride begin and Y/N closed her eyes, feeling the movements of her body. She tightly held onto Jungkook's arm. Jungkook smiled when he saw her. If only he had been been there to give her the protection when she actually needed it. His smile faltered a bit at that.
The ride soon ended but Y/N still had her eyes closed. Jungkook looked at her chuckled.
"You can open your eyes. It's done" He whispered in her ear.
She slowly opened her eyes to see herself in the area where they started it. She sighed in relief, getting rid of the belt.
Jimin had a look of disgust and fury at the skin ship of the two. It was supposed to be his and Y/N's time but they are being disturbed by a third person. He got rid of his belt and stormed off. Hoseok looked at him and smirked, knowing the reason behind it.
As soon as they got out of the area of the ride, Y/N asked
"Where is Jimin?"
"He went to the toilet" Hoseok made an excuse
Y/N nodded.
They all went and sat on the bench. Hoseok and Taehyung went to buy food, while Lia went towards a store. Y/N and Jungkook sat down since Y/N needed moment to calm down after the ride.
"You sit, I will bring you a bottle of water hmm?" Jungkook said getting up
Y/N nodded and smiled at him.
Jungkook went off to buy the bottle. Y/N sat and looked around the area. Her eyes lingered form people to stalls and different activities. She smiled when she saw a mother and her child laughing together. She smiled at them.
She thought that maybe one day, she will have a child too and have good relationship with him or her. She also wondered who will be the father. She had different thoughts in her mind.
She gazed around when her eyes fell on a mouse trapped in a small cage. A man beside it was poking it with a sharp pin. He kept on poking it and it tried to escape. The mouse was struggling to escape it. Suddenly blood oozed out of its body part whilst the man still poking it.
She felt as if the situation was familiar. As if..... This has happened to her before.
She felt difficulty in breathing. She clutched onto her chest as her eyes fixed onto the scene. The blood, the poking, the struggle everything came to her mind in negative form of memory. The faces were not visible but the feeling was relatable.
Tears streamed down her eyes as she felt herself getting weak.
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Jungkook was on his way back to Y/N as he smiled at the moments they shared today. After a long time he felt close to her and the empty feeling he would loose her went way.
He looked towards Y/N's direction with a smile. But that soon faltered. The bottle in his hand fell. He ran towards her and held in his arms. Her body was shaking as her eyes were thrown to back of her skull.
She was having another seizure.
(EDITED)
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