"Knowing about how stupid the idea is, is not a reason to cancel it."

I've planned to show Sky the memory about how we've had this picnic but I forgot about the fact that Stephen was there as well and that Sky can see the memory from my point of view. He can see how I've behaved in the moment and how I was feeling. 

I could only show him a part of what he sees if I had control over my magic. But not having control over my magic means that Sky is able to feel the way I feel towards Stephen so I quickly pull my hands away from Sky's and look at him shocked. 

"Scar", Sky begins seriously and I wish I could just run away, "What were you thinking? What was Stephen thinking?" "Sky, please don't give me a lecture. I haven't seen him since that day and it doesn't matter anyways", I try to calm him down and it seems to work. 

"Okay, you know what? You wouldn't listen to me anyways. I'm even glad about it somehow. Stephen's good, probably better than Riven. I'll keep my mouth shut." "Are you serious?", I ask wondering where that comes from. 

"You said there's nothing going on so I don't think Saul needs to know about it", Sky nods and smiles at me chuckling, "Thanks for the memory. It's always good to see things from another perspective."

"Heard your boy left", Riven teases me as he walks around the corner and realizes that I'm standing right there. "Sky?", I reply assuming that him and my brother must have talked about me. "Silva said that's not a reason why I should flirt with you." 

"Well, he's right", I shrug trying to act like I don't care. "So you're free tonight?" "Not in the mood. Seriously, Riv", I already state so he doesn't ask twice. "I thought we're still friends or can't we meet as friends anymore?" 

Riven makes me immediately regret my cold behaviour towards him so I'm annoyed about myself. I tend to feel like I have to push him away twice as hard just to be able to resist him. After all, there's still a sexual tension between him and I. 

That's also why I cut him off so strictly when Sam and I started going out. He probably didn't even know what was going on at first. "Alright. Behind the stones at midnight?", I suggest and he nods. „Glad you're still in, S."

"You're hanging out with Riven again?", Sam asks me as he sits down in the corner during lunch break. "You're sitting with me in public?", I reply sarcastically. "Can you please stop acting like this, Scar?", Sam asks softly and he actually looks a little sad but I can't help it, "I still care about you." 

"What a shame you couldn't forget about me in a second", I mutter and put my meal aside as I'm not hungry anymore. "Scar, please don't make this so hard for both of us", Sam tries is again, "I understand if you don't want to see me anymore if I don't want it to be official but you're still someone close to me. We were also friends." 

"I'll think about it, alright?", I sigh knowing that I'd give in anyways. "Good", he smiles happily, "And please be careful with Riven." I'm about to defend Riven and I but Sam already rushed off through the wall behind him.

Last year

"So how's it going with Riven and you?", Sam asks me during lunch break. "I don't know. I haven't seen him since sunday. I've been working on my powers the whole week. It's freaking me out that I'm the only person in class who can't fulfill this stupid exercise." 

"You'll make it soon, Scar, just trust yourself and be patient. Farah would have told you if it was bad." "I know. It's still just.. frustrating." "Are you pushing yourself into school tasks because of Riven and your fight?", Sam assumes and I wonder how he knows about it. 

"How do you know that Riven and I had a fight? We were talking in the suite." "Well.. I wanted to check up on you and see how you're doing but I was busy so I jumped through some walls until I heard you two", Sam admits and smiles at me shyly. 

I would have snapped at him if it wasn't that funny. "I love earth fairies", I laugh shaking my head about how good his magic is, "I'm fine, don't worry about me." 

"Just.. know that there are enough other boys who's be good for you. Riven triggers your anger and that is bad for you and your magic. I want you to be happy, Scar." "I've got good friends like you, Sam. I am happy."

"Have you found out what's wrong with my powers?", I ask Farah during our next private lesson but she looks out the window. "Your magic has been manipulated", Farah sighs and I open my eyes widely. "What does that mean?" 

"Someone from our past, an old friend of Ben, Saul and I, has manipulated your powers and already given you the full strength of the dark magic. This is why you weren't able to control your magic last year. It is too strong for you to understand at the moment. Ben and I have to find out what exactly has been changed on your powers so we can find out how to teach you the right way." 

"Why would that friend of yours do that to me?", I ask confused. "She was also a friend of Andreas", Farah sighs, "I assume that she wanted you to become the second strongest fairy in this world so you could fight side by side with her and your father." 

"So I was chosen to be used for a war?", I conclude wondering why my dad would let anyone do this to me. "That's what we think at the moment. But you have to come to me and Ben regularly so we can find out more about this to help you properly." 

"And if we don't find anything out about this concrete magic, I won't be able to control my powers?", I assume and sigh slowly. Great, I can't even do anything about this situation. Farah nods and I can see that she's pitying me by the way she looks at me. 

"Scar-" "No, it's fine. My dad wanted to use me for times of war and let someone manipulate me and now I'm standing here not knowing what to do. It's completely fine", I mutter. "Andreas was a soldier, he wanted you to be strong enough to protect yourself and your people. He didn't know that this would be the situation years later. We're going to find a way", Farah tries to calm me down so I nod slowly and let her hug me. I can't change it anyways.