"Is it even honesty when you've been lied to before?"

Scar's POV:

I'm thankful for Alex speaking so honestly about his experience. He might not have told me a lot yet but he did open up to me which I appreciate. I know quite well how hard it is to trust someone. I might talk to him about my time at Alfea and about Rosalind sooner or later but I should never let him know about my dad. He'd go straight back to Sparx. 

That'd be bad for our arrangement only, of course. I wouldn't care about it personally. We've only kissed before and now we've watched a movie. I'm not someone who's too emotionall about this. Although his lips are quiet soft and his hands ran over my waist so.. no, Scar, no. I'm completely fine. I don't feel anything. 

"Thank you for letting me be here", Alex smiles at me when it's already late and he stands up. "I'll come with you", I let him know when he's about to say goodbye but I'd planned to walk him to his room so I could walk a bit. I'm not used to laying down for two hours straight. That's nothing a princess should do. Alani's words, not mine. 

"So the princess walks me back to my room?", Alexanders grins at me making me chuckle as I lay my arm around his when we're walking through the hall way. "Let's say this service is included", I joke and stop walking when we've arrived at his room, „Thank you for the wonderful evening." "It's my pleasure, princess." I'd say something but Alex already taken me by my chin to kiss me. "Have a good night." "You too", I whisper and turn around to walk back to my room.

I'd say this was a successful date. I've not been on so many dates so I can't really tell but it felt great. It's an easy start for something so important. I take my glass of water happily and drink of it but when I accidently let it dropped alarmed when Stephen appears in front of me. In my own bedroom might I add. 

"What the hell are you doing here?", I whisper-yell at him so no one could hear us when walking down the hallway. "Did Alex talk to you?", Stephen asks seriously instead. "Uh, of course he did. We're going to marry so that makes sense, doesn't it?" "Good", Stephen sighs relieved and grabs a glass of water as if he'd live here, "So do you send him back to Sparx or forgive him for playing with you or what's the plan?" 

"Wait, what are you talking about, Stephen?", I ask confused. Playing with me? What the hell is going on? "Oh, uh.. You said he's been talking to you", Stephen mumbles nervously as I furl my eyebrows. "We've been having a date. That's when you talk to each other", I say bluntly. "Okay, uh.. I misunderstood you." "What did you mean by playing with me?", I ask ignoring his other statement. "I.." "Spit. it. out. Silva", I hiss slowly not wanting to be lied at anymore. 

"Alex had a girlfriend during military school.. Becca. She was only dating him for his title and left him to be with me. I mean she's already been flirting with me during their relationship but-" "Did she cheat on him?", I ask raising an eyebrow. I can't imagine this on my mind. Stephen wouldn't go out with his friends' girl. That's not part of behavior. That'd be so reckless.

 "No, not me with me", he denies luckily, "But I made out with her afterwards." "Wait", I mumble thoughtfully, "When you left for military school.. you told me you loved me before." "I did", Stephen assures me quickly, "I mean I do-" "And you say he's playing with me in order to get back at you because you've been a hell of a friend?", I conclude slowly raising my voice, "Is this a joke to you? I'm supposed to marry him!" 

"I can tell", Stephen mutters, "It's definitely not a joke to me, Scar. Otherwise I wouldn't be here telling you about this. Alex and I have been talking about it as well earlier and I thought he would tell you." "So why are you standing here in my room?", I ask confused acting like I don't care at all. 

The better question is why the hell is he standing here in my room after these weeks in which he didn't even seem to care about me? Even if Alex used me, why would he want to help me now? "You know that I'm here for you. I don't want you to end up hurt and-" "Bullshit", I hiss sharply enjoying the fact that William doesn't hear us so I can say what I want, "You're a fool if you think I would believe you after the past weeks. You didn't even say goodbye to me so why would you come back into my life now?" 

"God, Scar, I know that I've messed this up, alright? And no matter how much you might hate me, I'll always love you. But right now I'm here for telling you the truth. Whether or not Alex is playing with you, you deserve to know what's happened." "I do now so you can leave", I decide and point to the door. 

Why the hell can't this life be normal for once? Stephen and I were so close and he just made out with his friends ex-girlfriend. I'm not only disappointed for me but also for Alex. Stephen tends to always be this perfect student, teacher, brother but in reality, he's just hiding his marks. But Alex also lied to me. 

I asked about what's happened between them and it'd be better if he just said he doesn't want to talk about it at all but he claimed that Stephen's just being jealous now and he's so innocent. He might have been innocent during their military time but he's not innocent when lying to me. 

"Scar, no", Stephen sighs frustratedly, "I came here to make it up to you. I know this is bullshit but I want to take all the time we have until I've fully apologized." Stephen comes closer to me and takes my hand which I'd take back but he tries it once more. 

"Why'd you go and take your best friend's girlfriend when I was waiting home for you?", I whisper as my voice cracks. Was I ever good enough? "No, Scar, this wasn't the same time.. I promise to you, this all happened after we've decided to take a break. I've been frustrated and I've let it out on other people and I hate myself for doing so. I don't play the good guy, Scar, I am the good guy." 

"How could you not say goodbye to me then?", I state mumbling and look to the bottom so I wouldn't have to face him this closely. "I.. I don't know.. No, it's been all so frustrating.. I knew you wanted to make a decision and I could tell it's Riven you would have decided for. How could you expect me to watch you with another man or watch you leave?" 

"You know what?", I mutter frustratedly myself, "You're right. I would have decided for Riven because he's always believed in us no matter how little he believed in himself. But you.. You were the only one making me stay away from you. Nothing and no one could have stopped us but that's the only thing that you were thinking about. I've decided against you because anything else would have only been a matter of time until it'd be broken. Just do me a favor and leave my room, now." 

I sigh heavily finally having spoken so honestly. I already regret my words. I do not hate him the way it might seem right now. It's the opposite. I'm only broken from the bottom of my heart.