Kairo's POV

I pulled her off to the VIP room wherein there was privacy for the both of us. There were still drinks here in the room at di ko alam kung anong gagawin ko. We were both silent but we could hear each other's breaths.

It's like I'm headed straight to the floor because my head is spinning. The alcohol clearly had already served its tour. I could feel the cold air from the air conditioner but the heat from the tequila keeps me warm.

Our eyes locked and the urge to kiss her, so I did.

I held her neck in my right hand while kissing her, at first she was not responding to my kiss but eventually gave in and didn't hold back anymore. My left hand gripped her waist to come closer to my body.

We stopped for a second but we were craving for each other more. Her eyes were pleading for more pleasure. I was about to talk pero inunahan ako ni Jordyn. "I want you, now," she told me and I smirked before following her command.

I brought her to the sofa and I took off her top and pulled up her skirt giving me access to her luscious body. This used to be mine, and I don't even know why I'm going to take her but we both want each other.

I unbuckled my pants and pulled it down and my member sprung out from it's cage. Her eyes were looking at it. Mukhang nahihiya pa siya pero after everything she should know that it's not the right time to be shy. This might be the last time we're gonna do this so might as well go all in and fuck it.

She was staring at my dick and I chuckled because of the fact that hindi niya alam kung ano gagawin doon. "It's still yours. Why don't you touch it?" sabi ko sa kanya before smirking and she did it. The moment she touched my dick I groaned because she was stroking it slowly and it felt so good. She did that teasing me so I returned the favor. I removed her panties and slowly licked her clitoris.

"K-Kai..." she moaned my name and damn, my name never sounded sexier than ever.

She was about to come because she arched her back but I left her on the edge and disappointment filled her eyes. Ngumisi ako bago biglaang ipasok sa kanya ang kalakihan ko.

She screamed because of shock but when I started moving she was filled with pleasure. She was already used to my length, that's why there was no pain.

"Harder..." she desired.

"Harder, huh? Beg for it, babe"

"Please, Kai. Please," Nahihirapang pagmamakaawa niya. "Kai.."

"More, Jordyn. Say my name more.. Louder," I whispered.

"Fuck it, Kai! Harder!"

I chuckled in her ear before thrusting deep but slower. But still, she became impatient, that's why we switched positions and she was now on top of me grinding. I calmed my body down because she was jumping on top of me and I loved it. I loved it when she was dominating me and confident in what she was doing. She came but didn't stop because I was still not finished

After minutes of doing that, I felt something building up in my stomach. That's why I stood up and let her kneel in front of me. She understood what I wanted so she put my dick in her mouth and swirled her tongue and I guided her head until I came out in her mouth.

She swallowed it before I kissed her breasts. My kisses traveled to her neck until I left a mark on her neck. I was panting but she was still active. I saw the tequila shots at the corner so I got the two and straight it before getting the lime and squeezed it on her breast to her pussy.

I licked her clean and her legs were almost trembling because every time I got close to her, she moved her entrance out of the way. I just chuckled while she was doing that.

I sat properly on the sofa and she was beside me with no clothes. I was tired but I don't want this moment to end. I was supposed to get her clothes when she sat on top of me and we both linked again. She was jumping up and down slowly until both of us came again.

I helped her put back her clothes and she helped me. After that, my vision went blurry and I didn't notice that I fell asleep on the couch. The next thing I know, I woke up because someone is calling me. It was Chase.

"Dude, where the hell were you last night? Where are you now?" bungad niya sa akin. "May pasok pa ngayon, Kai. You're late in your morning class"

I roamed my eyes around the room and realized I'm still in the VIP room of the bar. I suddenly remembered Jordyn and what we did last night. Napahawak na lang ako sa ulo ko.

I thought we were done, how the fuck did you end up in my arms last night?

"I'm still here in the bar. Don't worry, I'll go home now," Pinatay ko ang tawag at umalis na.

I drove off to the nearest coffee shop to calm and energize myself a bit. What happened last night was an impulsive act but I won't say I regret it. God, it's Jordyn, of course I won't have any regrets with it.

Nang makarating sa bahay, Mom and Dad didn't confront me about me not being home last night. They asked me if I'm okay, then I told them that everything I'm going through will be fine and that they shouldn't worry about me.

I decided to not attend my afternoon class, too. I just know that my body couldn't take in more exhaustion. Gusto ko lang magpahinga.

I opened my Spotify and I accidentally stumbled upon Jordyn's podcasts. Nakita ko na naman ang isang episode niya na napakinggan ko na noon, it was the one titled "Decisions"

Thinking of it now, everything she said about decisions hit me so hard now. Her example about love, that fate may bring two people together but staying with them is a choice, a decision.

Because just like what Mom said, love isn't enough to keep two people together.

But now I wonder.. What did Jordyn follow when she made her decision about us separating? Is it her heart or her mind?

Few days have passed, I'm barely living everyday, telling myself that I no longer have someone whom I can tell about how my day went. I used to imagine my life without her and it was impossible, well I thought it was impossible for us to separate. But look at me now, grieving because she's gone. And probably going to be happy in somebody else's arms.

Today is Saturday and I was doing my own thing when IG notified me about Jordyn uploading a story. Notifications from her profile are still on because why not?

Pinakawalan ko lang siya but that doesn't mean that I do not care and I do not love her anymore. I'm still interested in her and knowing everything related to her.

And so, I went to her profile to see her story. It has a black background with a simple text that says 'uploaded something on my podcast :)'

I quickly opened my Spotify and went to her profile. I saw a new uploaded episode. The moment I saw the title, I knew that I'd be emotional once I listened to it.

To the person who used to be my person.

I know that this will add more to the pain I'm currently experiencing right now.

"Hi my Jordies! It's been a while since I uploaded an episode. I missed recording my random thoughts and sharing it with you but hey, I'm here!" she giggled.

"Maikli lang 'to since I just want to express what I feel. I want to share and at the same time, lowkey tell a short message to someone I'm glad I met," paninimula niya.

Based on her voice she seems happy or at least the pain is slightly gone already. Sana ganyan din ako, sana kayanin ko din. Hindi kasi ako matatag kagaya mo, Jordyn. I shrugged my thoughts off my head for the meantime para di ako maiyak and put my full attention to her podcast.

"So, I moved here in Manila to go to college. Naging mahirap sa akin ang makipagsocialize sa ibang tao dahil nagkaroon ako ng trauma sa nangyari sa'kin sa nakaraan but then, I met someone.. This person always makes me giggle," I can almost see her smiling just by listening to her.

"He always pulls the corniest jokes and irritates me most of the time but that's the reason why I fell. He makes me so happy, he made it seem easy to be happy" Natawa ako sa mga sinabi niya. Ganon ba ako ka-corny? Hindi naman 'di ba?

Hindi ko namalayan na nakangiti ako habang nakikinig sa kaniya. She never told me anything like this so hearing these words from her, it felt like an achievement, knowing that I made her happy.

"We did things that made us both happy. We got a dog. We went to several places and left the most wonderful memories. I've always told myself that he was a gift from the stars," sadness in her voice became noticeable. "Kaso I was fool enough to let him go. Kahit ako hindi ko alam kung paano ko nagawa" mahinang sabi niya na parang nagdadalawang isip na sa mga sasabihin niya.

"All I know is that I got t-tired," her voice cracked. "Kaya naman to the person who used to be my.. my person, if ever you're listening to this.. I want you to know that I'm.. I'm happy because we happened. I never regret being with you.. it's just that I got tired, scared.. naduwag ako" pag-amin niya.

Tears are falling down my cheeks. My heart felt like it had been shattered again. It aches and I don't know how to calm it down.

She was the only constant thing in my world and the time where there was no one else around, it was just me and her.

"I love you but siguro nga hanggang doon lang muna tayo. Thank you for making me happy and I'm sorry because right now, I am aware that you're having a hard time making yourself happy" that was the last thing she said before ending the episode.

I didn't know what to say to be honest. I don't know if I should be happy with the fact that she appreciated every moment that I did my best to make her happy or to be sad because she was scared and did not have enough courage to continue in our relationship.

I was about to fall asleep when someone barged in on my door. I looked to check who it was and it was my Dad na nakabihis. "Son, we need to talk you and me with your father." sabi niya sa akin at agad naman ako nagtaka. Bibisitahin namin puntod ng tatay ko?

Hinila ako ni daddy patayo at pinalakad papunta sa kotse niya. I just sat on the front seat looking ahead. Medyo tulala pa ako kasi hindi na maayos yung sleep sched ko. Umaga ako tulog at sa gabi naman iiyak ako magdamag.

After an hour long drive nakarating kami sa mausoleum ni dad. Umupo ako sa harap at inabot yung beer na binigay ni daddy.

"Oh diretsuhin na kita. Nagbreak kayo ng girlfriend mo 'no?" tanong ni daddy at agad naman akong tumango. Di ko naman kailangan itago na yon eh. Pero ayaw ko lang banggitin pangalan ni Jordyn kasi baka patawag nila Mommy at daddy sa bahay lalo pa kami magka-problema.

"Kaya ka nagkakaganyan dahil sa babae?" di makapaniwalang sambit sa akin ni daddy kaya sinamaan ko siya ng tingin at tinawanan niya ako. "You know when I was your age..." paninimula ni daddy at halatang seryosong usapan 'to dahil bumuntong hininga siya. Is this going to be a pep talk? Need ko ba maghanda sa ka-cornyhan niya?

"Before I met your mother in college I loved someone in my freshman year as well. It was like yours, we were happy most of the time. She was the most amazing girl I've ever met and I thought that she was the last..." dad smiled while looking at me. I was imagining his side in my shoes.

"But not every love story ends up together, we fall out of love. We became distant and that's when I thought to myself to just drink everyday and entertain myself with many women. That's where I got the title as the known womanizer." he chuckled like it wasn't a big deal.

"Did you regret falling out of love?" tanong ko sa kanya at napaisip naman siya. I thought he would say yes but he didn't.

"I never regretted any of my decisions back then, I was still young noon kaya di ko pinansin mga katarantaduhan na ginawa ko. I used to risk everything and not take anything seriously but that's when I realize na walang magseseryoso sa akin kapag pinagpatuloy ko iyon. I stopped being an asshole." he told me before finishing his beer. "Besides, if I did regret everything... I would've gone back to the girl I fell in love in freshman year at di ko makikilala Mommy mo." dagdag niya at tumingin sa akin.

"Well, I'm currently fucked because I can't focus on my studies knowing she would be in the same campus as mine, dad." sabi ko at umiling iling siya.

"If old Kairo was here, he would have already known what to do." sabi niya sa akin at napaisip ako. Alam ko na kung ano ang gusto niyang sabihin sa akin.

I should know my priorities again. I should move on, forget about her and move forward for the future. But I'll always know that she will be my last.

I won't stop loving you. Don't worry about me. I've always been good at loving you from a distance and although I can't love you for eternity... I have loved you with my entirety.