Niall POV

As the car continues to drive to the White House, I takeout my headphones, and plug them into my phone. I scroll down my music to figure out which song I want to listen to. I go to my playlist and spot Last Hope By Paramore. I click on the song, and it begins to play, I look out the window while the song plays.

I don't even know myself at all

I thought I would be happy but now

The more I try to push it I realize gonna let go of control

Gonna let it happen, gonna let it happen,

Gonna let it happen, just let it happen

It's just a spark but it's enough to keep me going

And when it's dark out and no one's around it keeps glowing

Every night I try my best to dream tomorrow makes it better

And wake up to the cold reality and not a thing is changed

But it would be happen, gonna let it happen

Gonna let it happen, gonna let it happen

It's just a spark but it's enough to keep me going

And when it's dark out and no one's around it keeps glowing

It's just a spark but it's enough to keep me going

And when it's dark out and no one's around it keeps glowing

And the salt in my wounds isn't burning anymore than it used to

It's not that I don't feel the pain it's just I'm not afraid of hurting anymore

And the blood of these veins isn't pumping any less than it ever has

And that's the hope I have the only thing I know that's keeping me alive

Alive

Gonna let it happen, gonna let it happen

Gonna let it happen, gonna let it happen

Gonna let it happen, gonna let it happen

Gonna let it happen, gonna let it happen

It's just a spark but it's enough to keep me going

And when it's dark out and no one's around it keeps glowing

It's just a spark but it's enough to keep me going

And when it's dark out and no one's around it keeps glowing

This song means alot to me, I was alway's depress, never feeling happy back in high school. The only true friend that I had was Louis, he is so life like, and always making jokes to make me feel better.This song helps me threw the dark days when I used to stay all day and stare at the celiing feeling like crap. I never made an effort to make more friends or even find a boyfriend. One day I will be happy, and let it happen like the song say's. I smile to my self. I see Sam waving his hands to get my attention, so I pull one headphone and he begins to speak.

"Niall, are you alright, you've been quiet for a while. Sam said, concern with a quick look threw the car mirror, and back at the road.

"I'm fine, just listening to some music." I said, smiling at the rear- view mirrow, Sam looked up, and smile back.

ten mintues pass, and the car began to slow down, I look up, and see there traffic up ahead and it's not moving. I sigh.

"Well the good news is, I put gas last night, the bad news, we might stay stuck in this traffic for a while." Sam said,unhappy.

"Niall" Zayn said, nervously.

"Yes, Mr. President" I said, avoiding his eye's. I just need some time to forget about these feelings about him, so ask long as I don't see his beautiful face, until we reach the white house.

"Don't be like that Niall, you can still call me by my first name." Zayn said, sadly.

"No need sir, It's strictly professional between us nothing more, I need to start acting like it. I said, trying to sound smart. I hear Zayn sigh, and stop talking. I was happy that he stop, I couldn't bare even hearing his sexy accent, I just need to keep up with this "professioanl"  act long enough till I return home.

After another twenty mins, cars started to move, and we head into the White House. I exit out the car and, follow Sam, and sam followed Zayn. Once's we reached the presidental office, I walked inside with Zayn said, while Sam stay behind and close the door. Zayn turns around and says.

"Niall, I shouldn't said that-

"Mr. President, shall we begin on what my job is suppose to be, I haven't even got a clue on what does a personal secretary does." I said, cutting him off. I don't need his apology. I just want to work and get the hell outta hear to  eat some ice cream, and complain to Louis about my feelings.

"What's your problem?!, I am trying to help you out by letting you know, I made a mistake, maybe I want this to more than you know, we should be together, please." Zayn Pleaded, his hands about to touch my cheek, but I move back.

"Together?! do you here what your saying!, it can never happen remember what you said? you can't let this happen twice. You told me I was right about what we did was wrong, why all of a sudden you want us to be together?. You forgot about wife Perrie, she been always by your side, and I can't think of anything why would you cheat on her, like you said she annoying,  and can get jealous, but I don't see nothing wrong with that. She wants more Zayn give her more. I said, truthfully.

"She doesn't have want I want." Zayn said, sighing.

"What is that you want, maybe you two can figuring it out." I said

"What I want is you. Your the one that so easy to talk, your the one that risk your life for me at the hospital. I know you want me to because I wasn't complaining when you attack me with your lips in your bedroom." Zayn said, smirking.

"That was different, it was a moment of weakness."

"So do you regret kiss me then Niall." Zayn said, walking towards me.

I step back with my back against the door. "I honestly dont reget the kiss, but I can't do this, it's to much, as much as I wanna do this secret realationship. I can't see the fact that I am in the wrong for going with along with it.." I said, sadly.

There was a knock behind me, I turn around facing the door, and then Zayn gave me a unexpected quick kiss on the cheek, and walk quickly towards his desk and sat down. I turned and gave Zayn a glare, and he just smirked. The door open and sam poked his head out and said.

"Mr. president, your wife is here to see you, and she brought a guest named Josh." Sam said. As I am still standing, I walk in front of Zayn desk and took seat and one of the two chairs place there.

"Send them in" Zayn said, leaning back on his chair. 

Sam open the door wide, and Perrie and Josh walked in.

"Hello, my lovely husband Zayn, I would like you to meet my cousin, Josh. Perrie said, sweetly. Josh walked over and gave his hand and shook Zayn hand.

"Long time no see, Josh."  Zayn chuckling.

"It's been a while hasn't it Mr. president." Josh said smiling.

"Please call me Zayn. Josh, I would like you to meet my new assistant,Niall.

I get up from my seat and shake Josh's hand, I stare at his face, he's pretty good looking.

"Hi," I said, nervously then letting go of his hand.

"Nice to meet you Niall, you have very nice eye's. Josh said, smiling. I blush, I see from the corner of my eye, I see Zayn staring at Josh with these death glare.

"Well hello Niall, you look pretty handsome with your suit and tie." Perrie said, her eye's gives me a werid feeling that she intimdating me."

"Thank you, Perrie." I said, nervously. Perrie turn to Zayn and said.

"Well Zayn, I wanted to tell you that i'm having another charity event and it's here, I would love for Niall to attend with Josh because I would be so busy with getting everything ready and speaking in front of people. If that's alright with you Niall." Perrie said, kindly looking back and fourth between me and Zayn.

"I'm not so sure Niall can attend, we have alot of work to do." Zayn said, with hint of jealously.

"Zayn it starts later tonight im sure you and Niall you be finish by then." Perrie said, trying to say calm.

"Maybe if we're done, I will escort Niall to the event tonight." Zayn said, sternly.  

"Why the sudden interest in going tonight, you barely attend." Perrie shot back.

As Perrie and Zayn continue to argue, I look at Josh who is walking towards the couch and sitting down, so I quietly follow him and sat next to him.

"So Niall tell me about yourself." Josh said smiling.

"Well I graduted high school barely and that's all there really to tell." I said guarded. I don't like to talk about my past because there's nothing to say.

"Ok, then, how did you get this Job then?" Josh asked, curiously.

"My mom is Madem Vice President, so she pulled a few strings and got me this job." I answered.

"Well that's nice of her." Josh chuckle.

"So tell me about you Josh" I asked

"Well I'm twenty three, I work at B6... I mean a paper company and sometimes it's slow but it's an alright job." Josh said.

"What's B6?" I questioned.

"It's nothing It was a old job." Josh said, quickly. I can tell he's lying. but I don't wanna push him.

Zayn POV

"Perrie, I need you to come down, we have other people in the room." I said, seeking a peek at Niall and Josh. I'm trying my best to not be jealous, or angry the fact Josh is all over Niall, he's mine.

"I am not going to argue no more Zayn, I want Niall to attend the event." Perrie said, angry

 I haven't even trained him yet on what he have to do as a private secretary." I shot back. Another good reason is, I don't Niall anywhere near Josh.

"Zayn, it's not that hard to be a private secretary, you give him an Ipad that will automatic update your schedule, then he sit at his desks which is outside your office where the bodyguard is. To make thing's easier for you, I will leave with Josh, while get Niall up to speed, and then he will be able to attend my charity event." Perrie said, like she won the conversation.

"Fine" I said, defeated. I am not arguing with her anymore, I want her to leave with Josh, so I can have time with MY Niall.  

"Well thanks for dropping by, we will both see you at the event now can you please leave while I get to work." I said trying to be polite. Both Josh and Perrie nodded and left my office. Niall got up from the couch and walked to the chair in front of my desk.

"So, why don't you want me to go to the event?" Niall question.

"I think you should stay with me, so I inform you about being my priavate secretary." I half lied.

"No I don't that's all the truth, you don't want me to go because Josh is going to be there." Niall said,annoyed.

"Ok, your right, so your not going?" I question. Hoping Niall would say no.

"Yes, I wanna go, Josh seems like a nice guy to hang out with, and get to know him more." Niall said.

"What about me, are you just going forget what we had!" I yelled.

"What we had was a few heated make out sessions nothing more. I don't see why are we going back to this conversation. Niall shot back.

"Whatever" I said, then I took out  my phone, and started to mess around with it.

Niall POV

"Whatever? stop being a big baby Zayn" I said, really angry. He has to face the fact that I don't want this to happen anymore.

"I'm the big baby? Zayn question, while putting his phone away. " I want you, that's all i'm asking for, but you making really hard." Zayn said, frustrated.

"I still amazed that your still trying yet you still can't have me. You have your wife, be with her." I said.

" I will divorce her to have you." Zayn whisper. My eye's widen, is Zayn serious?

"Are you seriously going to throw your marriage over me? Zayn, I'm not that speical, I just wanna  work and that's it.

"You & I over the weekend, the two of us, we can go on a trip anywhere, how about California, or Hawaii how's that sound." Zayn said, excited.

I just stare at him, I can't believe Zayn is trying to bribe me, by going away with him.

" I am going to the charity with Josh." I whisper. I look at Zayn who looks super piss.

"Fine, here's your Ipad all you have to do is tell me what's on the schedule each day. Your desk will be outside my office. Sometimes the desk phone will ring and you will get important events that you must add manually on the Ipad. Zayn said,handing me the Ipad.

"Ok" that's all I manage to say. I look like the Ipad and press the app that say's President Schedule. Then it say's place thumb on the figerprint scanner.

"Is this really necessary?'' I ask Zayn.

"What do you think, you work for the president not some cheap unsecure job." Zayn said. scarcastly. I roll my eye's, he doesn't have to be a dick about me seeing Josh at the event. I place my thumb on the  scanner then it's process my thumb and say's complete. Today is Tuseday, and I look at the time on the Ipad it say's 7:30. Zayn has a meeting at 9, and he's done for today, but tomorrow he has a bunch of meetings, so I have to be here early.

"Zayn, you have one meeting today at nine, and then your free to go home." I said, quietly.

"Why are you whispering?" Zayn ask.

"I'm just feel a little sick." I said. I think this day took a toll on me mentally, and I feel like utter crap, like I have this discomfort in my chest, feeling the urge to cry.

"Do you wanna Iie down on the couch?" Zayn offer, with a concern look on his face.

"yea" I said. I got up and walk towards the couch and sat down. Zayn sat down next to me.

"Tell me what's on your mind.'' Zayn said,

"I just feel overwhelmed with you wanting me, and I'm still suffering from depression, I am feeling to  much emotions and it really hurts." My voice cracks. Then I feel Zayn arms around me, hugging meand, then I burst into tears.

"Niall, you need to tell me more about your feelings, I don't want you to feel overwhelmed because I am pushing you to much.Thank you for telling me, you have depression, it must of been hard telling me that. I will start acting like a better person because you make me want to be a better person Niall." Zayn said, in my ear. I can't believe Zayn just said that, I am making him a better person and he's changing me to be a happier person.

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