What do i do with life? I hate it. I really do hate life. My great grandma died 6 years ago and i never got to say good bye and yet everyone thinks that its my fault she died. Why? Idk!

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You were singing while you were sitting by the door because of all this pain you just wanted it all to end, you really did, but life is life, you hated life. Ever since your parents abused you and left you, you were alone but that time, you got to say good bye. Once you were done singing you got up and opened the door to see your friends smiling as they hugged you and you hugged back as you cried in there shoulder but it soon turned into laughter but you didnt care all you cared about, was diying, but Shu wouldn't care right? He would just laugh it off right? You hated it, you even hated Avril the most, you two were friends since you were in 3 grade and now, she does this?! You wanted to to just die, you wanted to jump off a hill and smash yourself onto a rock as you laugh, you wanted to stab yourself until you lost lots of blood, you wanted to just hang, you wanted to see Shu cry and scream for you to come back as he holds your courpse in his arms hugging you as he saud it was his fault. You loved that yoy felt exitment rush up your body untill it stopped, when you stopped breathing, you loved the feeling as you then laughed your head off as you thought of everyones face seeing you dead as they then cry but, someone already did that but you didnt know who they were but you did hate how Avril takes YOUR man and pretends nothing happened. You hated that. You told your friends to leave you alone as you went back in your room and slamed and locked the door making sure no one comes in as you then smile and lay on your bed and think of how you should die even though you wernt going to do it but you just thought of what his reactiom would be like. You looked out the window and saw Avril and Shu holding hands down the street until Shu turned atound and saw you and just stared as you then flicked him off and had a kinfe in your hand not shoiwing but, you did want to scare the daylights out of him si you raised the knife and put it near your neck and pretended to slide the knife left as Shu's eyes went wide and tears pricked the edges of his eyes but you just laughed it off and foged uo the window and write down on it making Shu cry, 'wont you be happy once im gone Kurenai - kun?' and once you saw him cry you laughed clising the window curtins and fall on your bed and look at your photo collection and saw you and Shu hanging out and much mire amazing stuff, it hurt you, you then grabbed all the phots out that were abiut hik and you and looked at them before mummbling "...... Why Shu?..." he broke you thats why! You tore that picture in two throwing it on the ground and grabbing the other ones and tearing them to shreads as you laughed and threw them on the ground and there was one more though, it was you and the gang with Shu kissing your cheeck as you giggled, you hated this picture, you growled very darkly and grabbed a lighter and burned the picture as you then threw it in the trash can as Shu's face burned in the trash as you imagined it happening in real life, how fun would that be? You looked at the wall and saw Avril and you hugging each other in 3 grade, you growled even darker and took the picture and tore it up in two and made sure Avril wasn't on the picture anymore and burned her as you hung yourself back up on the wall but then relized something's missing in the picture, you grabbed red marker and scrippled tour face out and only left your smike and when you scribbled your eyes out you wrote ontop of it 'dead and gone forever' and put away the red marker and smiled seeing Avril burn and seeing yourself dead on the wall as you then plopped on the bed again and fell asleep as someone was watching with sicurity cameras and giggled 'now, the fun will begin!! Hahahahahaha!!" and nothing was heard from the room, not even a single sound from your peacful slumber as you smiled in your dream thinkimg oc how Shu should die. It was amazing.

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Sorry this is short but i hope you like it bit please dont judge me if you hated it i wouldnt really care though but just please dont thank you.