⚠️ WARNING THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS MENTIONS OF SELF HARM AND SUICIDE⚠️

(In their POV)

John-
"Amanda please don't do this...." She pleaded, the gun pointed towards the top of her forehead, Amanda holding it.

"Amanda...You don't want to do this!" I know she'll listen to me, she has to.

"Yes I do! She's just like him! Her brother! She's far to young for you she's just using you so me, Mark, Logan and you end up in a jail cell!"

"Please no I'd never-"The words fell from her lips as the apprentice I had high hopes for pulled the trigger. This can't be happening.

My eyes spread wide open-thank god it was just a dream? Or was it?

My hand feels warm. I can tell she's beside me-Amanda would never do that. Now I can sleep knowing an innocent life hasn't been taken.

Amanda-
I walked into the room that me and Y/N share, I freeze.
"Y/N w-what are you doing?!" She's pointing a  gun at me.
She smirks, "you can't be THAT stupid, can you Mandy. I mean, you were stupid enough to get hooked onto drugs and self harm when you claimed that you 'appreciate your life'." She laughs. What's wrong with her? She wouldn't say this!

"W-Where did you get t-that?"

"Trap devices warehouse. Where do you think?! Jill was right, you really are a lost soul just like Jill said. Mark was right you really are pathetic. You kill your test subjects. You give them no chance. Like Adam for example."She spat.

"Y/N please..."

"I never loved you. Goodbye Amanda." Her fingers were half way to the trigger

I closed my eyes. Wait.

" Y/N THEY PUT IT BACKWARDS!!!!" I screamed. I felt blood splatter onto my cheeks. It wasn't mine.

"Oh god no Y/N..."

I jolted up, turned on the light and smacked Y/N awake with my pillow.

"Mandy what the fuck!?!?!"

"Don't you dare die on me again Y/N Hoffman!"

"Heh, bad dream?"

I gave no reply, she already knew.

".....Y/N?"
"Hm?"
"Do you love me?"
"You know I do."

Mark-
"Y/N Tuck, you have kidnapped the innocent,tortured them to their death and covered it up numerous times."

"No! I didn't do anything wrong please!"

"Silence! This court sentences you to 5 years on Death Row."

"Y/N NO!" I screamed out and she looked at me, tears staining her beautiful face and her eyes red and puffy.

"Mark...." She faintly whispered

"Take her down."

"NO!!!!!!!!"
She's gone. Just like Angelica. She's going to die.

"Mark!"
"Mark!"
"Mark!"
I'm shaken awake and a voice calls out to me.

"Mark are you ok?"
"Y/N!" I tackled her in a bear hug, and I'm not letting her go.
She didn't question me. And I didn't want her to.
"I love you."
"I love you too."

Lawrence-
I have this dream almost every night. About how she didn't survive that Bathroom Trap. I went back in and she's bones....beside Adam's. Tonight's one of those nights.

"Baby....I'm fine come here."
"I just....Don't want to loose you. You're the most important thing in my world right now....Except for Diana of course."
She giggles.
"You better keep that giggle."
"Don't worry, this giggle's staying with you." She rolls her eyes at me.

Adam-
When me and Y/N were 17, we were in the school pool and I pushed her in the shallow end.She didn't come back up. I knew she hit her head on the bottom. I've never been so scared. We were skipping class so no one was around. I called 911 after I got her out. She....wasn't breathing. CPR didn't work or...The kiss of life. She survived In real life obviously but in my dream she never does.

Every time we argue I have this dream. I think it's my brains way of telling me that I've done something to hurt her and that could've been the last thing I did to her.

I look around.
"Y/N?" She normally comes to bed even after we've had a fight.
"Y/N?"
I hear running water.
"Oh god no." I run towards the bathroom and she's....cleaning her teeth.

I grab her and embrace her.
"Whoah Ad, you ok? Drowning? Again? Baby I'm fine."

"I just needed to...make sure."

"Aw you're so sweet.. Let's go back to bed." She turns the water off and we go and cuddle until we fall asleep.

Daniel-
"D-Daniel. H-Help." I turn around and she's leaning against a wall. She looks weak and vulnerable, almost like....Laura...Oh god Y/N please no! How are we back here!?! She's gonna have a fit. I can't do anything!

"Y/N you're gonna be fine I promise!"

"Dan...I l-love you." She starts to shake.

"NO!"
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"I'm so sorry Mrs Tuck for coming so late I just....need to talk to Y/N."

She yawns, "Sure, she's most likely still awake. Y/N!!! Come in Daniel."

I step inside. I can't even wait for her to come out of her room I just run in- I'm still in my PJs but oh well.

"Daniel? What are you doing!?!?!"

"You h-had a seizure. I couldn't help you. I have to protect you."

"Gas House? Oh Babe. I'm fine." I pulled her into my chest and kissed the top of her hair.
"I can't loose you..."
"You won't. I promise."

Kerry-
I don't get nightmares but when I do, they're about Y/N harming herself.
Y/N had cut in her teens, Eric had told me. She sworn that she hasn't done anything since she was 15. My nightmares must be suspicious of that claim. I do get scared, but I know that's she's fine. I had awoken from the same reoccurring dream, in sweats and I immediately turned to Y/N's side of the bed.

"You're ok, you're ok."

Eric-
You cheated on me with Allison. We have a son Eric, if you didn't want me then you should've told me. You may not love me but I honestly do love you. I couldn't say goodbye to Daniel, tell him I love him, take care of him. Be a good father. Have fun with Allison.
~Y/N.

She's on the floor. The pills are surrounding her.
"No. No. No. No. This isn't real it can't be."
We sorted this out, I love her. Kerry forced herself on me and she knew that.

I put her head on my lap and broke down into tears. "Not my Y/N, not my Y/N."

A squeeze of the hand jolted me awake.
"I love you, I'm right here."

Gibson-
"I'm so sorry Mr Gibson. She's gone...." No. Y/N no please no. We've just had a baby Y/N, you can't leave us now!!
I stared down at our newborn daughter, she was born only minutes before.

"No...She isn't you're lying! She hasn't even held our daughter yet! She has to meet her! We've waited for so long!" Tears start to well in my eyes. You're not gone, you're not gone, you're not gone Y/N.

"I'm so sorry...." The doctor just walked away like it was nothing.

"Shh...Hush little baby don't say a word, mamas gonna buy you a mocking bird, and if that mocking bird don't sing, mama's gonna buy you a diamond ring." My eyes are forced open by my beautiful wife cradling our daughter, and singing her to sleep.

"And if that diamond ring turns brass, dada's gonna buy you a looking glass, and if that loolking glass gets broke, dadas gonna buy you a Billy (I want to play a game) Goat."I joined in, smiling.

"Shh...She's asleep, thanks."
I couldn't stop smirking, "no problem."

She got back into bed.

"You were shaking in your sleep. Are you ok?"
"Fine," I looked over at our sleeping child and then snuggled up to Y/N. "Just fine.Perfect. I love you."
She just smiled in return.

Strahm-
"I know you're the Jigsaw Apprentice Y/N. And I can't let you hurt anyone else. I'm so sorry baby...."

"Pete no-"
What am I doing? I love her- I can't do this! The gun is aimed towards her head.

"Please.."
Her body falls limp on the floor. No no no no no Y/N. Don't leave me. Please!

"Y/N!" I've never been this sweaty in my entire life. I looked around.Where is she? What have I done!?!!
Soft breathing. Coming from the floor?
"Y/N/N?"
I lean over the edge of the bed and see...Heh.
"You fell out of bed again baby? Aw." I cooed, but she's still sleeping. "Come on." I picked her up bridal style and placed her back into bed.
"I love you." I heard her mumble.
"Love you too."

Perez-
"Hurry up Lindsey! Catch up!"
"I...Can't...How do you do this everyday?"
Why did I even agree to go on a run with her? I hate running! She's stood in the middle of the road, waiting for me.
"Y/N get on the pavement!"
"Lindsey I'm fine there's no cars coming-"
Horns.
"Y/N!!!"

Oh Jesus that felt real.
"Lindsey?" I look up and I'm laying on her lap.
"You...got run over...."
"Hey! I learnt the crossroad code. Hey, it was just a dream Linds."
"Shut up I was scared!"

Lynn-
"Lynn stop! She's gone...Stop..."
"Try again!"
"Lynn please!"

No...Another drunk has killed my family...

I'm dripping in sweat. I turn to my side,
she's ok....Thank God she's ok.

Bobby-
The timer runs out.
"NO! BOBBY!" The platform lowers her down.
I know it's not real. She's fine. We survived. We have 4 children.But seeing her body being burnt caused by my actions. I shouldn't have lied to her...I don't regret lying at all it's how I met her.

I always wake up at this point and she's always lying in my arms. Always.

Rigg-
"Left side clear, right side clear!"
"All clear."
Another one of Jigsaw's 'games'. Sick bastard.
The next room we enter is pure white. But there's a cover over a bed. It's splattered in blood. Somehow I know who's.
My partner uncovers it:
"No...."
My Y/N's rib cage is torn open, her bones visible.
I wander over to her,
"Rigg No!"
"Y/N..." I kiss her cheek, caressing her perfect face. She looks so...peaceful. But she died in fear. And I'm gonna get this fucker.

"Dan, wake up...Daniel!"
"Y/N! Oh thank God!" I wrap my arms around her torso, pulling her closer and I'm not even thinking about letting her go.
"What were you dreaming about?"
"Jigsaw. I couldn't save you I'm so sorry."
She let me go and sat up, taking her hands in mine.
"It was just a dream ok? Daniel, you can't save everyone."

I know I can't, but I can try. We will get Jig fucking saw.

(A/N I know that some of these suck but i had no ideas so I just made it up as I went along😂😅🙄)