The first thing I register is their voices, low and clearly upset. I don't move, or even open my eyes, trying to hear what they're saying.

"Hyung... I don't know what happened... I just got... mad... It flashed and I couldn't control it."

"Well, look what it caused Jungkook-ah. You have to think about her health. Her blood pressure is high again, and I don't know if she could live through pre-eclampsia another time..."

"I didn't mean to upset her... It all just hit me at once when she said everything would be alright if we're together... Hyung... I have always said that, but she leaves me every time... I just feel like I'm waiting for the next time she does... I won't be able to go through it again."

"I understand you Jungkook... I really do... But imagine all the things she's had to survive... All the broken promises she's endured... The only people who ever loved her, before she had to come to Korea, are dead... Her own mother... Look what she did, Jungkook-ah..."

"You think I don't know this? I love her so much Hyung... I'm here, and have always been, but she leaves anyway... I have repeatedly promised to protect her, and never leave... But she doesn't have faith enough to stay... I'm scared...  She pretended to be dead for fucks sake... Part of me knows it was all to protect me, but it makes me feel like she thinks I'm weak... I'm not good enough to protect her. The next time something hard comes along, will she just leave again?"

I couldn't take it anymore... I hate myself so much, and the guilt sets my body moving quickly to the bathroom. I hear them both calling my name, but I slam the door and lock it. How could I expect this beautiful man to continue to want me after all the ways I've hurt him? It was never him that I ran from... It was me... I'm not good enough, and I know he's finally figuring it out.

I feel like I'm drowning in my tears, and I begin to gag. Hovering over the toilet, I feel the burning bile running up my throat and out my mouth. It's like fire burning me from the inside out. My head is exploding in pain, and I can't catch my breath as I continue to dry heave over the toilet. I hear them knocking and yelling to me, but I can't move from my position. I miss my Dad... I wish he could be here to tell me what's right...

I collapse sideways, clutching my head as the door bursts open.

"Shit! Sophia!"

There's an incredible roaring noise in my head that makes everything seem muffled. I know I'm being moved, but I feel weak all over.

"Sophia-ah? Please baby... Open your eyes for me... I need you to look at me love... Please!"

"Jungkook... Move away... Let me check her. Go and get some cool washcloths, and bring them to me... Call the front desk and ask if there's a doctor on staff..."

"I can't lose her Hyung... I can't..."

"You won't... Now move and do what I asked."

Hoseok

I don't blame Jungkook for finally cracking. I've been surprised that he's remained patient over the years, as the woman he loves runs away. It's a true testament to how much he really does adore her though. I wish he could have held back this time. Seeing Sophia's pale figure right now, I'm scared.

The doctor came, and after checking her, told us that she urgently needs to go to the hospital. We're sitting with her, waiting on the ambulance, and I see Jungkook breaking. He's blaming himself, and I'm not going to tell him he shouldn't. He knows that her stress ties into her predisposition to complications with the pregnancy, so he should have controlled himself. I love my brother, but Sophia is my fragile sister, and I have a weakness for her. My own anger at him right now makes it impossible to comfort him.

"why is she so pale hyung?"

I raise my eyes from her to see him looking at me with watery eyes. My anger immediately fades, and I reach a hand to grip his arm. "I don't know for sure Jungkook-ah... I don't want to guess." He looks back to her face, and leans over to place a kiss on her forehead.

"i'm so sorry my love... please... don't leave me... fight baby... please..."

His teary words, are soft but speak to how desperate he feels. When the paramedics arrive, they are quick to load her onto the gurney. Jungkook and I follow along, both in our own thoughts. I'm so scared, but trying not to show it to Jungkook. If he could hear my thoughts, he would crumble. This situation is not a good one, and I need to put on my professional face to help my friends.

"How long has she been unconscious?" The question brings me out of my thoughts, and I give the answers to the questions they are asking. They are working quickly to put in an IV to give her fluid. The sound of the fetal monitor is a slightly hopeful break in the atmosphere of the ambulance, but looking at the blood pressure monitor tells me that things are not good. They continue to work on her, not saying much. I'm thankful because I know what they would say... Jungkook doesn't need to hear it right now.

When we arrive at the hospital, they don't waste any time. They move so quickly, shouting statistics to the Emergency Room staff, and I see Jungkook, his eyes wide when he realizes what they're saying. We're not allowed to follow, and are left standing in a waiting room. His tears are flowing as he stares at the doors they took her through, and I don't know how to comfort him. His phone begins to ring, but he doesn't move to answer. I go to him and pull it from his pocket as he just watches the doors. I see Jimin's contact, and answer it.

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Hey Jimin-ah...

Hobi hyung? Did I call the wrong number?

No... Jungkook can't really talk right now. We're at the hospital.

What? Is he hurt?

No... Sophia... She's sick, and we're just waiting for the doctors to come tell us what's going on...

Sick? I talked to her earlier, and she didn't mention anything... I know they had an argument, or something...

Jimin-ah... I am worried...

What can I do hyung? Should we get on a plane? I'll get Yoongi and we'll come if you say.

I don't know... But if this goes wrong, I don't know what he'll do...

Alright. I'm going to make the calls and we'll be there as soon as possible. Please call me if anything changes.

I will... Tell Yoongi...

I know Hyung... I will... Stay strong, we're on the way... One question though... Should we bring Olivia?

Yes... It might be the only time...

Don't! Sophia will be fine Hyung... Believe it!

Thanks Jimin... Travel safe.

I place the phone on the table near the waiting room couch, and grab a numb Jungkook. After some struggle, I'm able to get him seated, and we just wait. Silent prayers run through my head to help Sophia through this.

Taehyung

There is a sense of deja-vu that we're all feeling. When Jimin barged into my apartment, waking me as he began throwing clothes into a travel bag, I could barely register what was happening. Now we're all seated on Mr. Min's plane, praying we'll get there in time. Olivia is sitting in the seat next to me, staring out the window at the clouds. Her adorable face is pinched in worry, but I don't know how to reassure her.

I overheard Namjoon hyung's half of the phone call with Hobi hyung, and I think this time we might actually lose Sophia. If I understood what he was saying, she may have had a stroke, or something is happening with the pregnancy... Or both. I couldn't ask the questions because Olivia is here, and I don't want her to get scared.

"Uncle Tae? Are we going to be there soon?" The tired voice of the angel breaks me out of my thoughts.

"It's a while longer still sweetheart... It will go faster if you sleep. Do you want me to get you a blanket?"

She nods at me, and I stand to grab it from the closet near the bathroom. When I've tucked her into a little burrito, she quickly falls asleep. Seeing Namjoon hyung and Yoongi hyung whispering together, I move to find out what's happening. As soon as I'm sitting, they stop talking, frustrating me.

"What's going on? Why are you keeping it from me?" I don't care anymore that I sound angry because I feel like I'm being left out.

"We're not Tae... It's just that we don't know anything definite." Namjoon hyung answers, while Yoongi pats my shoulder. He stands to go check on his son, who is sleeping in Jimin's arms.

"Is she going to die Hyung? Is that why you aren't telling me?" My fears spill out, and I pray he'll tell me that's not going to happen. He doesn't...

"Taehyung... I wish I could tell you with certainty that won't happen. But you know that her health is compromised after everything she's gone through... She has had an event due to her high blood pressure... They think she may have had a stroke, but the bigger concern is the pregnancy... They are doing tests to confirm, but she may have a crisis there... They're seeing blood around her baby... which means the fetal sac has possibly detached from her uterus... I don't know any more than that. We just have to get there and pray she'll make it through..."

Tears flow from my eyes at the thought of losing her. She's not only someone I fell in love with, but one of my best friends. I can't imagine this world without her. Then my mind goes to Jungkook, and my heart squeezes at the thought of him without her again... For real and permanently... I think it will end him...

"Taehyung... I know you love her... I'm sorry I can't tell you better news."

"What about Jungkook? Hyung, he won't ever be the same... This might kill him."

"We'll make sure that doesn't happen Taehyung... But hopefully it won't come to that. She's got great doctors, so let's think positive."

Not knowing what else to do, I go back to my seat next to Olivia. Watching her sleep, I hope when she wakes, it's not to a nightmare where she has no mother. I know Jungkook loves his daughter very much, but I'm not sure even that love would be enough to keep him alive.

Jungkook

When the Emergency Room Doctor finally sat me down, I knew it was bad news. I listened trying to focus on the words, spoken in English, and translate them mentally. I like to think that it's because English is not my native language, that I have misunderstood, or that it's not as bad... But it's not true... I know what he said, and the meaning...

My love... The person that holds my heart... She had a stroke... She is bleeding into her brain. And if that isn't bad enough, she may lose the baby because of the same thing that happened with Olivia's birth. It will be completely my fault if the worst happens. My anger, and stupid words, caused this... How will I look my daughter in the eye if her mother dies because of me?

"Jungkook-ah... The Doctor says they are going to take Sophia to the Operating room soon. They can't wait, and need to get the baby out. He says we can see her if you want."

I hear my hyung's words, but don't move. Do I want to? If I go, will my presence upset her? If I don't, will she know I didn't?

"Kookie-ah... Come on... You have to see her... Tell her to fight, and how much you love her... Let's go."

I stand as he drags me out of my own musings. He's right... What he didn't say, is that I'll regret not going in case she doesn't make it... He is thinking it though, and sadly so am I. The walk to the room where my love is, feels long, but we're standing by her bedside before I know it. I take everything in, the wires, the monitors that are beeping, the machine that is breathing for her... When did they put the tube into her throat? Did she stop breathing? Sinking onto the stool next to her, I gulp my tears down as I take her freezing hand in mine.

"Sophia-ah... I'm here... I'm waiting for you my love... Please fight to come back... I am so sorry that I got angry... I'll never forgive myself for causing you this pain. I just want you to know that I love you so much... Being mad didn't change that... I was stupid to take it out on you. Our daughter misses her Eomma, and I know she can't wait to see you, so fight for her at least... Please don't leave us behind... Not again... I don't think I can live without you... You promised to marry me... We're going to grow old together... I need you to wake up and come back to me... Please love... Please... Please... Please..."

Hoseok

Watching Jungkook break while chanting "please" over and over had my own tears falling. I let myself cry for them, as I tried to comfort him as much as I could. When the team comes to take her, his cries became unbearable. I stood by as he threw himself over her, begging her to come back... Caressing her swollen, pregnant belly, and sobbing inconsolably. They give him a minute, and then a sweet little nurse goes to him and takes his hand.

"Sir... We need to go... If you don't let us, she could die... Please... We'll do everything we can. Trust me, I'll come give you updates, but you need to let her go for now..."

He stood and then swiftly bent over Sophia's face, whispering 'I love you' and kissing her forehead and cheeks one more time. I take his hand to hold him as they wheel her away. The nurse tells him again that she'll check in with us regularly. I thank her as he isn't able to, and follow him as he walks to watch them take her where he can't follow. When the O.R. doors close, blocking his view of her, he falls to his knees and cries pitifully into his hands. His constant apologies to her are only heard by me at this point, but I hope she knows... I hope she fights...

Sophia

Sophia-ah... I'm here... I'm waiting for you my love... Please fight to come back... I am so sorry that I got angry... I'll never forgive myself for causing you this pain. I just want you to know that I love you so much... Being mad didn't change that... I was stupid to take it out on you. Our daughter misses her Eomma, and I know she can't wait to see you, so fight for her at least... Please don't leave us behind... Not again... I don't think I can live without you... You promised to marry me... We're going to grow old together... I need you to wake up and come back to me... Please love... Please... Please... Please...

"It's ok... I forgive you Jungkook... Don't cry please... Do you hear me?"

I feel so heavy and tired. I know people are talking, and there are beeping noises too, but it's so muffled. There is a pressure and burning on my stomach that makes me nervous. What is happening? I focus on trying to feel my baby moving, but there's a pain that I can't understand... The beeping is so fast and loud now... It's so annoying... My head hurts so bad.

The pressure in my stomach stops and the sounds of a baby crying breaks through my haze. The beeping is even faster if that's possible, and I struggle to see what's going on... Whose baby is it? Does it need help? 'Don't cry baby... Someone will help you...' I try to open my eyes, but the lights are too bright. It's like needles in my eyes and I shut my lids quickly.

"Doctor! I think she's waking up... I saw her trying to open her eyes!" "Quick, give her more anesthesia!"

'WAIT! NO! WHAT ABOUT THE BABY? HELP THE BABY!'

A warm feeling flows through my body, and I feel like I'm floating. It's like when Jungkook holds me in his arms. The sounds and voices are again far away. I don't hear the baby anymore... Is it fine? Was it real, or just a dream? I don't care... I feel so warm... This feeling is wonderful... The pressure and burning is gone, and I can finally rest...

Jungkook

The nurse came a couple times and told me they are still working on Sophia, but that she's doing alright. I won't believe it until I can see for myself though. I feel an anxiety in my chest that I think is her. It's not like with Olivia, where I could hear her voice, but it's like a second heartbeat in my chest... Faster and erratic... Hold on love...

"Mr. Jeon?" I raise my head to see the same nurse. She has a smile on her face and hope surges through me.

"Is it my Sophia? Is she alright now?"

"Your fiancée is still in surgery, but I wanted to tell you that the baby is out. He's small, but seems to be healthy. They are taking him to the NICU and you can go there to see him."

"What about Sophia? Is she going to be out soon?"

I don't even care about the baby right now. I have no more space in my heart for it without her. She has to be alright...

"Things are going well... But there's no telling when she'll be out. It might make you feel better to see your baby..."

"No! I'll wait here for Sophia..."

I see Hobi hyung stand and move to guide the nurse away. Was I rude? He says some things to her, and she nods before going back to the O.R.

"Kookie-ah... Don't you want to see your baby?" I look at my hyung who has been with me since they took Sophia into surgery. I don't know how to tell him what's in my thoughts, so I just shake my head. I hear him sigh, but he leans back on his chair, and just closes his eyes.

A disturbance in the hallway, and the loud voices of our friends is heard, as they try to find us. Clearly they are being held up by the staff, probably because they are making a ruckus. When the door to the waiting room opens, Jin hyung points to us and yells at someone behind him.

"They here! I tell you!!"

Not giving anyone a chance to stop him, he rushes to me and pulls me into a hug. I let myself melt a little into his sturdy frame, feeling weak and on the verge of tears. More arms and voices join our hug, and I know all my hyungs are here. I let tears fall and bury my face in Jin hyung's chest, trembling with all the emotions I can barely contain.

A small hand pulls at my larger one, and I pull back to look, seeing Olivia tugging at me, trying to get closer through the men who surround me. They seem to realize, and let me go so I can bend down to pick her up. Once she's in my arms, I begin to cry... I can't hold it anymore because I don't know if her Eomma will be alright. She's crying with me, and we sink into a chair to cling onto one another.

I hear Jimin hyung's voice asking Hobi hyung about what is happening. They gasp and clap quietly about the new baby, but I can't be happy about it. I don't want it... Not without her... A hand on my shoulder makes me raise my head to meet Jin hyung's eyes.

"Jungkook-ah... Don't you want to meet your son?" I just shake my head, cuddling Olivia to me. "I'm not going anywhere until Sophia is out... You can go Hyung... I don't want to." I see his confusion, and glancing around, the others all share the same look. I don't care... They can go, I'm not moving...

"I'll go Jungkook... Do you want me to bring Olivia?" Taehyung hyung speaks up, and Namjoon hyung stands to go with him. "Do you want to go Olivia? Uncle Tae and Uncle Namjoon are going to look at the baby." Her eyes twinkle, but she hesitates. "You'll be ok if I go Appa?" I nod, and set her on her feet, kissing her cheek. "Go with them Angel... I'll be alright."

Namjoon

The need to get away from Jungkook's pained expression, had me almost running. The guilt I feel over what we did years ago, is compounded now that Sophia is in this critical state. Holding Olivia's hand, I follow Taehyung as we walk towards the NICU.  When we enter, a couple nurses are talking, and immediately I wish we hadn't come.

Olivia's tears begin after hearing them say how sad they feel that this new baby is probably going to be motherless. They don't stop at that, and mention Jungkook and how hard it is to watch him breaking down. I step forward, pushing Olivia behind me and interrupt their gossiping session.

"Excuse me... I don't want to intrude... But the woman you're talking about is a mother, and my friend. Please don't say another word about your opinions on her condition."

Both women pale as they see the teary eyed little girl peaking out from behind me. It's obvious to them she is related to Sophia, and they start to apologize, but Taehyung just puts his hand up, stopping their voices.

"Which baby is this little girl's brother please." Is all Taehyung says, and they both gesture to the incubator they are standing by. I lift Olivia and walk to the clear box holding her little brother. She just stares at him and places a hand on the protective barrier.

"Please be ok... Eomma and Appa need us..." Her soft voice continues as she introduces herself, and then me and Tae. One of the nurses comes to stand on the other side of the incubator, and she smiles seeing the big sister. "Would you like to touch your brother?"

As Olivia nods, she instructs her how to open the door on the side, and I see Olivia's hand tremble as she reaches inside to run her fingers over the tiny figure of her sibling. "He is so small... Will he be ok?" The nurse tells her that he might be small, but he's doing great. Taehyung and I step back, leaving Olivia to comfort her brother with help from the nurse who is working hard to make amends for how she was gossiping before.

"Hyung? Tell me the truth... Is Sophia going to make it?" Taehyung's quiet voice feels like screaming in my head. I don't know how to answer him, and I just continue to watch the kids bonding. "I don't know Tae... I hope so... I really do..." We stand silently after this until Olivia turns to us.

"Uncles... What do you think his name will be?" We move to her side and gaze down at the tiny little boy. "You know what Livi? I bet you could choose it... What do you think he should be called?"

I see her thinking as she looks into the incubator. Her small hand clutching onto his lightly... "Liam... After Eomma's Appa... Do you think it's ok?" Taehyung and I both nod, and agree. The nurse fills out the name card, and we all smile seeing Liam Jeon written on it.

Welcome to the world Liam... I hope you bring good fortune.

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