I'm so nervous. Jungkook's parents are coming today to meet me, and share a meal. I feel so unworthy of their son, and I think they're going to tell him to move on from me. All my dreams lately have been the different ways that I'll lose Jungkook. They all start out happy, but then he leaves me, taking my baby away. Ha-eun is usually in them, reminding me of how damaged and worthless I am.

They moved a bed in the room for Jungkook to be able to sleep on since the incident a few days ago. I had basically kicked him out because he was clearly tired after only sleeping on a chair, or the couch. When he was leaving, I saw how I broke his heart. He needed rest though, and he needs to take care of himself. I had refused any touches or kisses that evening, to seperate myself from him. I have to find a way to be able to survive without them... After all, I don't believe we will end up together...

After he left that night, I laid awake thinking about everything. Remembering all the horrible pain I've received, and that he's suffered since I came into his life. Loving me is going to hurt him too much, and I can't have that. I was lost in my thoughts when I heard his voice... Why can't you accept my love? I can't breathe without you... Please Love... Stop pushing me away!

I could hear him sobbing and begging me to let him love me. My heart hurt so much, but I refused to block him out. I discovered our strange, and wonderful connection when I was being held by Ha-eun. I would hear him calling to me and aegi, and it helped me. I found that I could shut it out when I needed to though. Like when Ha-eun or Ju-won were hurting me, I couldn't bear to hear his beautiful voice during those moments.

I lay there hearing his voice, and his cries, with tears running down my face. I didn't even realize when someone entered my room. I froze when she spoke to me... "You know Freak... I don't like that you're in my way since you've come in to my life." Opening my eyes, I see Seo-yeon standing at the foot of my bed. "Please go away Seo-yeon. I have nothing to say to you."

"That's too bad... I think you're going to want to hear what I have to say." She looked smug and like she's knew something I didn't. I was tired, and sad so I tried to ignore her by shutting my eyes. "You need to leave Jungkook... My aunt Ha-eun will kill him if you don't." I snapped my eyes open hearing her say that. She's in contact with Ha-eun? I started to shake, and she giggled at me.

"What? Just hearing about your mother scares you that much? I can't wait to see what happens when she takes you back. I just don't want my fiancée getting hurt trying to save a worthless bitch like you!" She gripped my hair and made me look into her eyes. "I knew from the first time I laid eyes on your disgusting face, you were nothing but a loser. Break it off with Jungkook after the baby comes. Don't drag him down with you." She released my hair by tossing my head to the side... I felt the corner of the night stand hit my temple and I blacked out.

When I woke up again, I found a panting Jungkook crashing through the door. He ran to me, and immediately checked my head. "What happened Love? Did someone do this? Tell me who did it!" I took his hand and looked into his eyes... And lied.

"I lost my balance when I tried to stand... It's nothing... How are you here?"

"Jesus Sophia!! Stop lying to me!! Why can't you just tell me what happened? Who are you protecting?"

At his raised voice I began shaking... My heart beating so fast I felt faint. He saw my state, and tried to come closer, but I cowered away from him. "Nooo... Don't be afraid of me... Please Love..." I watched him collapse to his knees and weep, and I couldn't bear it seeing him like this. "Seo-yeon... She did this... I'm sorry..." He looked at me through his tears, and stood.

"What did she say? Why didn't you tell me?" I felt my body vibrating from the thought of Ha-eun, and how Seo-yeon is involved with her. The threat to his safety... If I tell him, he'll brush it off... He won't take it seriously, and then he could get hurt. I'll never forgive myself if Ha-eun hurts him because I ignore the warning... "Sophia? Please... Tell me what lies she told you."

"It's nothing Jungkook. She just told me the usual... She says that she's your fiancée and I am not good enough for you. Then when I didn't respond, she got mad and pushed my head, and I hit it on the corner of the nightstand. I'm alright."

Looking into his eyes, I remembered he was crying after he left. I watch him hang his head and not know what to do. Hating myself for what I'm about to do, I take a deep breath and look away. "Go back home Jungkook. Get some rest. You've been missing work, but you should go back. I'm fine here. I'll call if anything happens with the baby."

I hear his breathing pick up and he takes a step toward me but stops. I refuse to meet his eyes again, because I'll cave if I see his tears. I hear him sniffle, and out of the corner of my eye, I can tell he's grabbing his hair in frustration. "Fine... I'll go... I love you Sophia." He pauses, waiting for me to say something, but I don't. He takes slow steps to the door, and after opening it looks back at me one more time speaking in a whisper. "i don't know why you're doing this... but i am not going to stop loving you... i will wait for you... i will love you forever."

He leaves, and I hear him yelling at the guard who was posted, and allowed Seo-yeon in my room. I can expect that she won't be allowed to come back. My safety is not my concern though... Once the baby is born, I need to leave. Ha-eun can do anything she wants to me, but I won't let her hurt Jungkook or the baby...

The door opens and I sigh getting ready to be harsh to get rid of him again. The voice I hear makes me smile instead.

"Hey pretty girl. How are you feeling?"

"Jimin!" I smile at him as he rushes to hug me. He squeezes me tight and I return his affection. He will always be a special person to me. I don't have romantic feelings for him, but I love him like a big brother.

"Why the late visit? Is everything alright?" He keeps smiling, but I can see something is bothering him. "Come on... Tell me Jimin... I'm tired of my own problems." This earned a laugh and he nodded at me taking my hands in his.

"I'm supposed to marry this rich, spoiled princess, in a few weeks. I hate her Sophia. I feel really trapped, and frustrated... Won't you take me back?" He winks and chuckles, but I see he's really miserable. "Does this princess like you?"

"Aish... Noooo... She has a boyfriend, and is being forced by her family into this... We're a miserable couple..." I place my hand on his arm and rub it to console him. "I'm so sorry Jimin. Is there nothing you can do?"

"I grew up knowing that I'd be arranged to someone, and that love was never a part of the equation... And until recently, it was fine... But honestly, seeing Jungkook and you love each other, despite your difficulties, it makes me wish I had that..." I look away when he says this thing to me. I feel ashamed that I'm going to break Jungkook's heart in the end. If Jimin knew, he might not wish for what we have... It's only painful after everything.

"What's going on... I see something is bothering you..." I try to bite back the sob, but it escapes... I curl into myself and cry hard. He pulls me up and hugs me to him. "Hey... Sophia... Tell me what's happening? I'll help any way I can."

"You can't help me... Noone can... I just don't know what to do anymore..."

"I don't understand. Are you not in love with Jungkook? I know that he's desperately in love with you..."

"I am in love with him... But I can't be with him. Ha-eun will hurt him... His family is going to be sued by Seo-yeon if he breaks their arrangement, and I've been ruined in so many ugly ways Jimin... I can't even imagine letting him touch me... He deserves to be with someone who can love him the way he needs. Jungkook risks himself, and his family, to be with me... I can't let him continue to do that..."

"Has Ha-eun threatened you? You haven't seen her here, right?"

"Seo-yeon told me that Ha-eun will find me... She reminded me that I'm not safe, and neither is Jungkook, or the baby, if they're with me... I think..."

"No! You're not ruined... You're a strong and beautiful woman... Sophia... You can't be thinking of leaving Jungkook... He'll die..."

"No he won't... He'll have to take care of aegi, so he'll have to stay alive." I looked away from Jimin's shocked face. I turned back to him and gave him a stern look. "You can't say anything to him Jimin. I'll never trust you again if you tell him about this conversation. I can't stay and wait for Ha-eun to take me again, or worse, hurt Jungkook... I'd say it would kill me, but I'm already dead inside after everything..."

Jimin grabbed me and hugged me so hard. I could feel his body shaking, and I knew he was crying. "Please don't do this Sophia! Let us help you. We won't let Ha-eun get near you. Please... Don't leave..." I just hugged him and didn't say anything more. After a few sniffles he asks "If we find, and catch Ha-eun, will you stay?"

"I don't know Jimin... Jungkook is going to want to be physical eventually... And after everything, I don't think I'll be able to..."

"You're being ridiculous now Sophia... He loves you more than his own self. He'd be happy with hugs and kisses from you for the rest of his life. Don't leave him... I can't watch him break again... Think about it."

I listen, and wish I would be able to change how our love story will end... But I just nod to Jimin and tell him I'll think about it. We talk for a little longer, and he had to leave. I was sad to see him go, but we promised to talk soon.

The next day, Jungkook arrived, followed by a hospital staff pushing a 2nd bed into the room. I look at them in a questioning way, and Jungkook looked proud. "I will sleep here until aegi comes. I don't want any more unwanted visitors upsetting you, and I'll sleep better this way." He left no room for argument, so I let it be.

Now here we are, 3 days later... further apart than ever. His parents are coming, and I don't know how to feel about anything.

"Sophia? Do you not love me anymore?"

I look up to the man laying on his side in the bed next to mine. His messy hair, and tired eyes are absolutely, adorably sexy... My mind and heart are completely at war, and they have been for days. I look into his eyes, getting lost in the twinkling...

"I love you so much Sophia... I know you're questioning things... But don't you still love me?"

"More than ever... It doesn't change anything though. I think it's best if.."

"STOP IT!! You CAN'T mean that!! Stay with me Love... Let me show you that together we can do anything. Please!!"

He was up on his knees in his bed, hands clasped together in a begging pose... I felt the tears start and I nodded... I can't see him like this. Maybe Jimin is right... He and I are meant to be.

"I'll never be able to relax with Ha-eun out there Jungkook... Thankfully Ju-won is in jail." He dropped his head and I watched his shoulders start to shake. I rolled my large self towards him, and with difficulty, due to the leg immobilizer, stood between our beds to reach out to him.

"Hey... What's wrong? Jungkook... Tell me..." He grabbed me gently around the waist laying his face on my belly and cried. I rubbed his back and played with his hair like he loves. "Take some deep breaths and tell me Jungkook. What is wrong?"

"I'm so sorry... I didn't rescue you soon enough... I failed in so many ways... And now... You're going to hate me... I can't do anything right!! Please don't leave me!! I'm begging... I can't live without you... Don't leave..."

He was squeezing me so tight, begging over and over for me not to leave. I tried to understand... His words were fast and garbled...

The door swung open showing a shocked Namjoon and Jin. I looked at them with pleading eyes while Jungkook clung onto me, begging...

"Yah... Jungkookie... What's happened? Let the girl go... You're squishing her!"

"No! Jin hyung... Tell her she can't leave me alone... Tell her what I was like before... Please!!"

Jin comes and hugs Jungkook from the back speaking to him quietly, while trying to remove his arms from my waist.

"Love... Don't go... Don't take Aegi away from me... Please promise me..."

He looked up at me with desperation, and I cupped his puffy cheeks.

"Jungkook... Tell me what's wrong. I'm right here. Aegi and I are here. Talk to me."

The door opens again, and his parents walk in. I'm focused on Jungkook though. I lower my face to look in his watery galaxies. I place a soft kiss on his lips, and ask him again. "please tell me what happened... i promise to try to understand you... just tell me..."

His parents are whispering with Namjoon but I continue to just talk with the panicked man in front of me. He's almost hyperventilating, but keeps our eyes connected.

"I'm so sorry Love."

"Why are you sorry?"

"Ju-won... He's not in jail..."

I see his eyes flick away, but he brings them back to watch me. I don't know how to react... I feel my world fall away, but continue to look at Jungkook.

"Why not? And why are YOU sorry?"

He looks in pain, and that's more important to me right now. I caress his face and he leans into my hands.

"Seo-yeon was threatening my family with the paper my mother signed... But the only arrangement that was signed by me and my father was with Ju-won. He refused to help us, unless we helped him get out of jail... I couldn't lose you, and I didn't want my parents sued... I'm sorry... I should have talked to you first. I was just so afraid you would not agree and I would not be able to stop Seo-yeon.... Forgive me please... Don't leave me..."

I am stunned at the decision he made, and a new fear rips through me. Now both Ju-won and Ha-eun are out in the world...

"Jungkook... He's out? I'm never going to be safe with both of them free... I... I don't know what to say..."

"I'm so sorry Love...please... forgive me."

I feel a presence next to us as we stare into each other's eyes.

"Miss Sophia... I'm Jung-hoon. Do you remember me from the other day?"

I glance at him but go back to looking into his son's eyes. I just nod at him, still trying to calm Jungkook.

"I want you to know that it was a difficult decision to go this direction. And I have hired a team of men that are assigned to keep tabs on Ju-won. We've put trackers in his car, phone, watch, and even his shoes. This isn't legal, but I'll do anything to keep you, and my son, safe. They are watching Ju-won in shifts until we are confident that he is not meeting Ha-eun, or planning anything to harm you, or anyone else. His personal assistant has a daughter your age, so when my man approached him, he was more than happy to keep us in the loop of his dealings at work. I hope you know... We are willing to do anything to help you and your child. Anything to make you feel safe."

"Thank you Mr. Jeon. That does make me feel better..."

"Please... Call me Dad, or Jung-hoon. Whatever you're comfortable with."

The twinkle is back in Jungkook's eyes, and he's smiling at me. I sit back on the edge of my bed and finally look at his father. He's handsome like his son, and is grinning after watching us together.

"Is the situation with Seo-yeon handled? She was here the other night, and I don't care to repeat the experience. She's always been nasty to me, but I felt threatened."

"What?!? Love??? What did she say??"

I look down at my lap, sighing. I didn't want to tell anyone, but now with Ju-won out, I think it's important to reduce my threats...

"She said I should leave Jungkook... That when my mother comes for me, she'll hurt Jungkook to get to me... I can't let that happen..."

I reach back to Jungkook's face and he holds my hand against his cheek.

"I told Security to keep Seo-yeon away... But why didn't you tell me that she mentioned Ha-eun? No wonder you've been pushing me away... Please stop doing it now..."

I nod and look down ashamed. I hear a light female laugh, and turn to the woman who looks beautiful without trying. She smiles at me, and I can't help but return it.

"I'm Jeon Eun-ji... You two are quite a pair..."

I chuckle at what she said because it's absolutely true. We both are afraid to lose each other, but blaming ourselves for what others do...

"It's nice to meet you ma'am. I'm sorry I'm such a mess today..."

I look down at my pajamas, that are tight around my belly, and now soaked with Jungkook's tears... My hair needs to be washed, but I've been too lazy... And I'm sure I smell.

"Sophia... Why don't you get dressed and we can go to the room that Jin has set food out for us? He brought you bulgogi..."

I smile at Namjoon, and he winks at me. Everyone, but Jungkook, leaves the room, and we both stand. He brings me into a hug that makes my heart melt. I feel his hand run up my back to my neck and I lean back to look into his eyes.

"I love you Sophia."

"I love you Jungkook.'

He joins our lips and I grip onto his shirt. I missed this. I feel his tongue lick at my bottom lip and I open my mouth to welcome the warm feeling it gives when our tongues dance together. When we seperate or foreheads stay attached and I sigh at how nice it feels to just be close to him like this.

"Do you want to shower? We could go together... I won't do anything you aren't ready for. I just want to be with you."

I'm shy, but take his hand and we enter the bathroom. He runs the shower to warm it up, and I begin trembling thinking about being naked with him...

"Hey... It's ok Love. You can shower and I'll wait out here if you want."

"Could you get me some clothes and then come after? I just want to start alone..."

He smiles and nods, giving me a peck on my lips. When he leaves, I strip, remove the leg brace, and climb in the shower to wash my body quickly. I feel self-conscious about the new scars I have, and want to hurry.

"Can I help you wash your hair Love?"

My heart is pounding at the thought of being naked with him... I am panicking even though I know he'd never hurt me.

"Love? It's alright to say no... I just want to help."

"Can you keep your boxers on?"

"Sure... Whatever you want. I'll keep my t-shirt on too if you say."

"Just the boxers"

I feel him climb in behind me, and he takes the shampoo. He goes to work on my hair, and I groan at him massaging my scalp. I bite my lip because I didn't mean to do it, but I hear him giggle.

"Did that feel good babe?"

"Yes... Sorry... I didn't mean to make things weird."

He keeps massaging my hair and scalp and moves against my back. I freeze a little, but try to relax. I know this man will never do something I don't want, but my body is tense.

"Relax... You're ok..."

"Everyone is waiting, we should hurry..."

"I'm just going to rinse the soap, and you're done. Close your eyes Love. Lean your head back a little... Just like that"

He rinses the shampoo and I love how his long fingers glide through my hair and over my scalp. I feel him holding me up with his body, and I understand why he moved against me. When he's finished, his hands wrap around me and rest on my belly. I feel his mouth near my ear.

"i love you my beautiful girl. let's go and have some food, and you can talk with my parents. sound good?"

His husky whisper in my ear caused me to pant a little, but I just nod and hold his hands on my belly.

He backs away from me and takes my hand to help me out of the shower. He wraps a towel around me and takes another to dry my hair. We work together to get each other dried and dressed. It's the most contact I've had with him in a long time, and I find myself craving more... But I'm scared too... No time for that now though. My stomach growls, and we both laugh.

As soon as we are both dressed, and my leg is once again immobilized, he takes my hand and we walk out if the room to go to the dining area they've set up. Jin went all out! There is the bulgogi, japchae, and other amazing dishes. My mouth waters at the sight of all the food.

"Hey Jin... Thank you for all the food. I may be in a food coma later and forget to tell you."

He grins at me and laughs loudly. I've missed that laugh. Jungkook and I sit down by his parents, and I suddenly feel shy.

"So, Miss Sophia... I want to apologize for all the problems that Lee Seo-yeon has been causing because of my mistake. I didn't realize that Jungkook had his heart set on you. When her mother approached me, I agreed to present her offer to Jungkook and signed a pre-arrangement. As you know, Seo-yeon and her parents took it as a promise. I apologize for any stress this has added to you at this time in your life and relationship."

She is smiling genuinely and I can feel the corners of my mouth turn up.

"It's not your fault. I wasn't aware of alot that was happening either. Hopefully, it's all settled now. I want to focus for the next month on trying to bring aegi into the world with no stress. I feel guilty enough as it is..."

I feel Jungkook's hand grab mine and squeeze it. He leans over and kisses my cheek and whispers in my ear that he loves me and I've done great. I feel the tears prick my eyes, and I have to look down to not cry.

"Listen to me... I've brought 2 babies into the world. There isn't a greater feeling. I know you're going to be a wonderful mother. I can see how much you love not only my son, but that baby you're carrying."

"Thank you Mrs. Jeon. That means alot. I'll try not to disappoint you."

"Shhh... Call me Mom. And you will never disappoint me. Now, let's eat this fabulous food that Jin brought!"

We dig in and it is amazing! Jin outdid himself for sure. Jungkook and his parents talked about his brother's possible arrangement. I just listened, and stuffed my face. When I couldn't eat another bite, I put my head on Jungkook's shoulder and just listened to their conversation.

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Jungkook

The connection is back. For the past few weeks I've felt it disappearing... It's like she's blocking me to not hear her anymore. When she sleeps though, her thoughts come through again... I know she's afraid of losing me and aegi. I know she's tormented by thoughts of Ha-eun also. I still don't understand how this is happening... But I cherish being this connected to my love.

The other night, after she'd kicked me out, I was devastated. I was home, begging her to let me love her... Begging her to let me hear her... It was sudden and painful when it came through... The agony in my head stunned me, and then I heard her whimpering in my mind. I ran like a mad, crazy person, to get to her.

Realizing that she'd been hurt and that was what caused the pain, broke my heart. She lied about what happened, and immediately shut me out again. I left her room because she asked me to... Told me to... Every piece of me screaming to stay even if she didn't want it...

Jimin came as soon as I called him. I sent him in, and listened at the door to her tell him that she's planning to leave me and aegi. I heard her say that she feels so broken and is afraid of being physically intimate. She thinks I won't be able to handle that? I listened to it all, with tears rolling down my cheeks, and promised myself that I'll not let her go that easily. I will find a way to make her comfortable again. It's not her fault that she feels that way, so I will help her remember what we share together.

Jimin was the perfect person to talk with her. She relaxed, and opened up to him. He cares about her, and me, so when he cried at the thought she would leave, it made her think. I felt the change then... The sadness, but also the want to make things work, and be happy. The voice wasn't there yet, but I could feel her love, mixed with fear in my heart.

I forced my way into her room the next day. She didn't fight me, but she closed herself to me completely. It hurt to feel the wall she'd built. She's trying very hard to convince herself she doesn't deserve me, but I'm the undeserving one. I have been guarding my feelings, and trying to be patient, but today I just snapped.

Every fear, every emotion I have came pouring out when she mentioned Ju-won being in jail. I had not told her, and I was convinced this would be the final straw for her. She was going to leave... She was going to know how weak I am as a man. I just couldn't lose her, so I made the deal to free one of her monsters... And now she's going to hate me, and leave, and I'm going to be alone...

Breaking in front of her... Begging... It was never my plan. I've been trying to be so strong for her and aegi. Isn't that what women want? A strong man that protects them from everything? But... When I became vulnerable, it made her wall drop and I felt her heart for the first time in days. When she reached out to me and held my face, connected our eyes... I felt at peace. I knew she still loved me in that moment, and I was going to hold onto her with everything I have.

Now we're here, lying in the same bed. She's sleeping peacefully, and I'm listening to her cute snores. Her head on my chest, the belly holding our child against my side. I feel it move and I am in awe, as usual. I feel how open my love is to me again, and my heart is thumping. I pull her body closer to me and close my eyes, breathing in her scent, and falling into a deep sleep.

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