--- your pov ---

"Y/n please!....*sniffle*.... don't listen to namjoon!"

You hear an outcry from behind you, turning round you gaze up to hoseoks who tightens his grip around you tears charging down his cheeks as he sniffles loudly rubbing his forehead into your back.

"Please don't! You mean everything to me! And I trust you!" He pleads.

You sigh and try to hold back the tears that are now threatening to pour from your eyes.

Hoseoks looks to you and tries to dry his eyes by using his shoulders to wipe his cheeks.

You wipe away his tears for him.

"Please y/n...with out you I could be dead..you saved me and I will do anything in my power to make you smile, please don't listen to namjoon he didn't know...it was all accusations...He only wants to keep everyone safe!" He protests while resting his head on your shoulder.

"I know life is hard right now but please stay strong and focus on the fun things!" Looking deep into your eyes now, "fun things like learning to dance with me! And coming to south Korea with us!" He weakly smiles.

"Y/n, we're all a bit left in the dark about many things and whenever you feel like to need to talk you can talk to me I'll tell you everything about me!" He bribes.

"You are so precious to us all so don't you dare think any less!" He then cuddles you tighter as he slowly calms down crying.

You rub his back comforting him, "I'm sorry for not telling you any sooner..but right now I don't think I want to go to Korea with you all..." You mumble feeling a bit sick of all the trouble and panic you have caused, feeling honestly responsible for it all.

"Please...I want to be able to show you our apartment..and all our thing and tell you about mickey..." he mumbles, holding a pouty face.

You rember seeing videos of his dog on the Internet, and honestly you'd love to play with a dog. You've never owned any pets before and you know that Yoongi has a dog too named holly...

"....Okay....I'll go but only for the dogs.." you consider

Hoseok smiles brightly and giggles.

"Great!" He exclaims while looking away, he slowly let's go of you since you've both calmed down.

"Y/n.." his face turns serious for a moment then softens as he sits up with you.

You look to him anxiously waiting for his question.

"Y/n I was wondering, how long have to been a fan, since you don't really fangirl over anything...and like you actually make me feel human...like I can live a normal life.." he opens up to you while fiddling with his thumbs.

"Saving you was the best thing that's ever happened to me hoseok." You smile, and watch him pull a puzzled face at your comment.

"I've been a fan for some time...but I never get attached quickly, especially when I know I could never get close to them...but now that I have been able to get close to you all, I don't really feel like a fan...i feel like your friend.." You consider your thoughts out loud.

Hoseok smiles and cuddles you, "I'm glad you feel like your our friend," he sighs.

"But I don't think you should keep so many secrets from us...so fall outs like this won't happen again okay?" He chuckles, you nod also smiling and laughing with him as he cheers you up telling you silly stories about the boys at the apartment and how namjoon broke the fridge door once just by opening it.

--- namjoon pov ---

"Our little Pandora box!"

"Oh sweetheart if she hasn't told you yet, then I can't say either"

"She's always been so brave..."

They were hinting at it the whole time!

"She couldn't make it to the other family photo but wished that she could.."

The whole thing!

Her parents left so many hints, why did I not piece things together? I feel dreadful shouting at y/n, I'm so stubborn my thoughts over took me and now I've ruined everything...our bond our friendship...

How could I ever think that she'd plan this?! I'm so blind! She broke down before! And now you blaming her for everything!

I feel so overwhelmed and emotional right now...

How could I know that boy hurt her sister?...no one could've known..

I Try to dry my eyes but they just keep falling down my cheeks, I just walk upstairs slowly to my room contemplating on the information y/n gave me.

Trying to figure out a way to apologise to her, I lie on my bed staring up at the ceiling, trying to focus on something else to help calm me, but all I keep thinking to is all the things y/n belted out...there was so much hurt in her voice...so much pain!

I feel do guilty and horrible...I feel so weak and helpless...im sorry.

--- your pov ---

Great.

Now everyone knows about your life.

What a way to ruin every good relationship, you keep trying to hold back your tears as hoseok comforts you, even after him trying to cheer you up.

You exhale and inhale deeply, trying to calm down all your thinking, you just pull hoseok tighter too you before letting go completely.

"Hoseok I need to be somewhere please let me go.." you mumble not looking at him, but you feel him let go and nod, "thank you for all the help you've given me.." you choke out a thank you before exiting the room, entering the cold and melancholy hallway.

You need to go to your secret place.

But after what happened a few days ago..you don't want to go out alone.

You hear piano playing but decide not to interrupt, since you know Yoongi likes his space sometimes.

You creep up the creaky staircase slowly wandering around on the second floor, you look at all the decorations and paintings beginning to feel calmer, but you find yourself stopping in front of large oak Doors.

'Must be Namjoon's room..' you concluded as you breathe out slowly turning the door nob and opening the door.

"....j-joo...um...Namjoon..?" You call out lowly, while closing the door behind you.

You watch him sit up from lying down on the bed, his face pale and his nose tinted with red from sniffles and wiping his nose, he was crying, you never ever expected him to cry...

"Ah...I'm. ..I'm sorry namjoon..." you apologise looking down to the floor, slowly back back up to the door.

"D-did you want anything y/n..?" He asks while getting up slowly.

You nod, "I was wondering...if you wanted to go for a walk..." you look to the side, "with me..?" You question.

He stares at you in surpise for a bit but then nods rapidly and rushes over to grab a jumper and shove it over his top.

"Y-yeah I'd love too" he replies, making you feel a bit more hopeful and happier inside.

You nod and can't help but smile, "okie, well meet me downstairs in 2?" You ask.

He nods and follows you Down stairs while you go get a jacket on.

He smiles at you then sticks close to you, putting his own hat and scale of.

You whack the door open and slip your mask on even if it is a but dark outside you don't want to get the boys in trouble.

You and namjoon silently strole together side by side, annyoing silence fills the atmosphere while your steps only add tapping sounds to the awkwardness.

You sigh and turn a left hastily heading to your secret place, namjoon stumbles at your quick direction change and follows behind you on the single forest path.

"Y/n....where are we going?" He stutters as he closes the space between you.

"My happy place." You state still walking, more of running too.

Namjoon is keeping up with you surprisingly, he soon stops with your at the pebble beach of the lake and stares out onto the water with you.

You look up at see namjok 's face full of joy, as he looks around the scenery.
"It's beautiful," he mutters still absorbing the whole thing in while crouching down next to you on your special seating place beside the lake.

"I'm sorry..." You begin with an apology needing to get it off your chest, namjok just looks taken aback by your words.

"Joonie, I, I didn't want this to happen...I never knew it would...I thought Cole moved away..I nearly had an heart attack when he was sat outside the house." You sigh, cloudy smoke of your breath vapours into the sky.

Namjoon stays silent letting you carry on but scootches up closer to you and huddles next to you.

"...he dated my sister for 4 years, the first year was great he was perfect. The perfect man. But as time went by he back me colder...aggressive and a pain in the ass!" You loudly state using body language to express your emotion.

"My sister was put In hospital, and she slowly became becoming sicker and sicker, all from not eating or something else I don't know..." tears again in your eyes but don't threaten to fall they just sit there.

You inhale deeply, "coco moved away at that time too.."

"Coco...is your friend right?" He questions himself.

You nod, "yeah she moved to south Korea actually..., that's how I found out who you guys were...so you can thank her later.." you giggle slightly at your own comment.

Namjoon just looks at your with concern and guilt.

"And then yeah...so I have been through a lot but life isn't worth living without hardships" you smile, "because then everything will get too boring! Just like a story book." You cheer allowed.

Namjoon smiles brightly and nods, "very much like a story book,"

You stand up after picking up a few stones and begin skimming them onto the lakes silky surface, watching the pebbles hop from place to place and crashing down into the water.

Namjoon joins you on your game, "y/n, I'm sorry for shouting at you..., no body told me, and I was honestly so infuriated with all the panic and problems I just wanted to sort everything out...it was driving me insane..." He confesses

"I do trust you and you do mean everything to me, please don't think any less of this." He finishes before fiercely chucking a pebble into the lake, both of you watch it crash against another rock, and gasp together as the pebble he threw, cracked into two.

Namjoon only sighs loudly in disappointment.

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Well this was hetic, but remember your only going with them for the doggies haha.

How are you finding this so far? I'm trying to lengthen it out a little so that you can have a little break from all the panic lately.

And honestly thank you all for continuously reading my book and it's chapters, I know there's a lot and that I post every day so I was wondering if you'd prefer me posting every other day? Please comment and let me know.

Anyhow see you in the next chapter! ♡