Winter P.O.V

Josh stayed with me in the waiting room for almost 8 hours, it was almost 2 AM when we were able to see Jayden. I ran back and as soon as I saw him, I was close to breaking down. Seeing him and knowing how sick he was; it hurt worse than anything... I walked to his bedside and sat in the chair, his eyes fluttered open and he saw me. His eyes took on a look of guilt as he saw my expression, "They told you...?" I nodded slowly, I couldn't get the words to form. I was scared out of my mind, I was angry at Jayden for keeping this from me, I was furious with myself for not knowing that there was something wrong... For the past two months he had gotten more than one skull-splitting migraine.

I thought it was just the season change but it was really this... A tumor in the section of his brain that effects his memories.. "C-Can i-it be removed safely...?" He looked at me and nodded a little, "Yes... They'll have to run tests first.. They told me that if I went through with the surgery I.." He paused and took a deep breath and released it. "I might lose some of my memories.."

I couldn't speak, I couldn't move, I couldn't think... All that went through my mind was: Why am I this cursed?

It had to be a curse, right? I mean, what else could cause this? "Jayden, if it can save you from further damage I think it may be a good idea to have the surgery. I'm not trying to sway you but I want what's best for you as well as Winter and most likely, your parents." Josh said from behind me, Jayden looked at him and nodded, I saw a tear slip down his face and I quickly wiped it away. I couldn't see him cry.. I couldn't.. I pressed my lips to his softly and cupped his face gently in my hands, I wasn't letting go this easy. I'd fight for him if I had to...

When we parted I looked him in the eyes, "You should do it... I want you to be healthy.." I said this quietly and he kissed the tip of my nose. I blushed and giggled in spite of the situation which made Jayden smile. "I love you, Snowy girl..." I smiled sadly, "I love you too, Jayden..." He caressed my cheek softly and I leaned into his hand, I wasn't leaving his side until I absolutely had to... Call me possessive, what if the one person you care most about has to have surgery and they may forget you even exist... That's the thought that scares me..

Now it's just the task of waiting through the tears so he can get the surgery. I hope they don't hurt him..

The two weeks that followed, I went with Jayden to his physical therapy for his knee then to watch the tests they ran on him. They varied from drawing blood to meds to shots. Anything you can name. It made me mad when the doctor took so much blood that Jayden could barely stand and it triggered one of his headaches when we got home. It was just him and I at the house and we were on the couch when he tensed and a hand shot up to his temple to push down hard. I heard him curse under his breath more than once and he kept getting tenser and tenser, he began to shake hard, he muttered an "I feel sick.." He was in so much pain that it hurt me just to watch him... I held onto him the whole time which he said afterwards helped a lot.

Then finally the day came for his surgery, I gave him one last soft kiss and he was wheeled to the operating room. I hated hospitals.. The smell, the feel, the vibe, everything... After 7 hours of waiting for the surgery to be over and 3 more before I could see him I finally was able to go down the hall that was connected to rooms on either side. I got to Jayden's and knocked softly on the door, I heard a small, "Come in.." And I opened the door slowly, "Jayden?" I asked and he tilted his head at me. I walked over to him and asked the question that's been on my brain for 10 hours, "Do you know who I am...?"

He looked at me with concentration for several seconds, what he said gave me relief but it also hurt.. "I-I think so... I-it's fuzzy though... I'm sorry..." I looked down then pulled myself together and looked back up, "Do you remember that I'm your girlfriend?" He looked slightly shocked, "How'd I get someone as beautiful as you as my girlfriend..?" I blushed and it hurt a little but it felt better because of what he said. "Well, if you are my girlfriend, would it be bad if I asked you out on a date so I can learn about you again?" My face lit up and I hugged him, "I'd love to go on a date with you, Jayden.." I felt him smile and wrap his arms around me like the first time we hugged like this.

We'll be fine.. Jayden's fine, I don't know why but when I was in there I felt like someone was... Watching us...

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Yay long chapter! I'm sorry to pile all them feels on y'all but what do y'all think??