"Before we begin I should tell you that I had went between having nightmares of the third task to seeing your Death Eater meetings through your eyes all summer long. I hadn't had a single night where I just slept." The memories started with me sitting on the swing in the park a few streets down from Privet Drive. Anyone could see how tiered I was from the deep dark circles under my eyes to the unfocused look of my eyes. Soon Dudley and his gang came into view. We watched the back and forth between the two of us.

"Why are you antagonizing him?" Voldemort asked

"Because one I don't care anymore. What are my uncle and Aunt going to do they already locked me in my room unless I was doing work around the house, feed me even less then my one bowl of cold soup a day. Second I am so tiered at this point I just kinda hoped he would hit me and I would be knocked out and get some sleep without nightmares. Keep in mind through out this whole summer I have gotten very vague letters from Ron and Hermione. The papers have spent the entire time sense the third task dragging mine and Dumbledore's name through the mud. Calling me an attention seeking lair and saying Dumbledore has lost his mind with all the pressure of all his jobs all because we said you where back. Of course I only know bits and pieces of this because like I said nobody was telling me anything." soon enough the two memory teens started to head home as the teens made it to the tunnel the tempter dropped both for the two teens and for the people watching the memory. "Ew now I'm glad I skipped third year with all the dementor attacks on me I don't need to feel 100 dementors attack as one again"

"What are dementors doing in a muggle town. At this time I wouldn't have the dementors under my control I would need more time."

"The pink toad sent them, it is unknown if it was under the orders of Fudge. One of two things where going to happen. One I would use my wand to keep them away which would be my second offence and I would be expelled and could be tried for braking the statue of secrecy even though my first offense wasn't even my fault it was the house elf's fault but they never came to me and fingered out what that was and the fact that my cousin already knows of magic as I live with him. Or two I wouldn't or couldn't cast the Patronus spell and would be kissed and all there troubles would be gone... although now that I think about it my cousin being kissed would probably be over looked but when it gout out that I was kissed in the middle of of my muggle town the whole ministry would be fucked. The people would call for someone's head and as the dementors are under the ministers control...It wouldn't mater that they where slandering me. I'm "the boy who lived" and the last Potter they would be fucked no mater what." I finish saying as Prongs jumped out of my wand and chased the dementors away.

"An eight point stag?"

"I don't know if the points have anything to do with it but its the same as my fathers and a stag was also my fathers Animagus form my mothers Patronus was a Doe. I never knew if she was an Animagus or not but knowing my dad she was or was on her way to becoming one. I know my Patronus is not a Stag anymore but I am unaware of what it is now." I say as we watch as my uncle and aunt fight on wither I was being kicked out or not. Then the letters came first the letter saying I had been expelled and how they where going to snap my wand and then the letter from Arthur saying to not surrender my wand to anyone.

"He's right nothing about this is right. They don't just come and snap peoples wands theres a whole process and hearings on why and how the magic was used."

"But they snapped Hagrid's wand" I say in confusion

"The whole reason I was able to pen Myrtle's Death on Hagrid was because he was already on thin ice. Yes he was a nice person but as much as I hate to admit it because he has magic. He was not safe to be around. In his first year he sent a third year to the hospital wing with a shattered jaw becomes the third year was talking about giants not even his mom just giants in gentle and how they need to be monitored on how often they have kids. No one even knew at the time he was half giant, he was just a big first year. That happened four more times in his first year of school. Second year he brought a born werewolf pup he found near his house to school and it got out and attacked a younger sibling of a student who was at the school with his parents to give the student some news or something that could not be done through letter. The little child who was attacked attracted lycanthropy and had to be registered as a werewolf at the age of four. That child's name was Fenrir Grayback." My head snapped to Voldemort

"Your saying Hagrid is responsible for Grayback and in tern every werewolf Grayback turned?"

"Yes, His wand should have been snapped at that point but do to Dumbledore's word he wasn't. Fenrir's Life was forever ruined before it hade even really began but Hagrid got away scot free. His third year he bright that spider. When the accident happened I saw an opportunity to keep the students safe and blamed Hagrid. Not a lot of good it did with Dumbledore talking Armando into letting the boy stay as an apprentice for the grounds keeper."

"Accident?" I asked

"I never meant for Myrtle Warren to die. In the beginning I just wanted to separate the magic world from the muggle world. When I went into the chamber that day she wasn't there, when I released Athena to let her hunt, Myrtle was in the bathroom and she was caught by Athena's eyes. There was nothing I could do. I didn't even know until the next day that she was in there because her body fell into the stall and I didn't see her. When I graduated Myrtle's Ghost was still traumatized because she sat there for hours by her dead body instead of finding someone. I still don't know if she ever got better..."

"I think she is still hurt but I think that's has more to do with her being so young when she died."

The memory changed to show when the order showed up.

"A Metamorphmagus thoughts are rare. Its usually a family magic trait that has been lost the blacks where known to have this power but not for many generations."

"She is a Black by blood but nothing else. Her mother is Andromeda Tonks née Black the older sister of Bellatrix and Narcissa. Its because of the new fresh blood of her father a muggle born, that she was able to have the Metamorphmagus powers her son also had that abilady and his father was Remus Lupin."

"I wander If that is her true face" Voldemort said looking at Tonks in thought

"What do you mean?"

"Many times when someone has Metamorphmagus unless they are hidden from the world the child will change the way they look so much or so for long because of criticism that there own body and mind forgets what they look like or are meant to look like." I give him a look as the memory makes there way outside. "Say a grandmother tells a granddaughter that she would look more proper and pretty with higher cheek bones. And the little girl doses it, she holds this morph for years... eventually her cheek bones will stay that way even if she where to "let go" of the morph. Many Metamorphmagus have done this and by the time they become of age they look nothing how they where meant to look. Most go for a mixture of there parents and hold that look until it becomes "Them" once they near of age."

I thought about Teddy and how until he was 11 he looked more like me then his own parents and then he meet the paintings of his parents in Hogwarts and started to look less like me and more like them. It made sense how he was using his abilady just minutes after he was born and he was never new his parents besides the few pictures and stories we where able to share. "How would they know "there face" if they can change all the time?"

"Well If they don't have anyone saying they need to change they can grow the way they are meant to but if they see someone as their parent who isn't they will subtly change and that will be there face until they decide they don't need to look like the other person."

"Then that may be her true face, Her mother didn't like her family and how they thought, so I can definitely see her doing everything in her power to not have Tonks change her looks as a child." we watch as time changes until it is finally the day of my trial.

We watched as Arthur bright me to the phone booth.

"He didn't have to bring you there he could have very easily bright you to the front desk vea floo and they could have given you a tag" Voldemort said

"Ya I realized that after I started to work at the ministry. I guess he was just trying to get my mind off of the trial witch was not a good thing for him to do. My magic was on the line." we watched as Arthur lead me hear and there through the ministry.

"He should have just taken you to where you're meant to go. Showing up early for anything at the ministry is a good idea."

"Yep especially when they change the time the day of the trial."

"They did what?!" I didn't answer him just nodded my head to the memory of the old man telling Arthur they changed the time and place. "So not only did they change the time and give you no warning but they stuck you in the death eater courtroom.

"Yep I had a full Wizerdingront trial for a case of underage magic."

"But your not underage at this point for several reasons, first your forth year you competed in a magical binding competition for "of age" wizards and witches, that in is self makes you a legal adult when it comes to magic. That's why you could fight me in the graveyard and not get in trouble. Second as the last of the Potter family you would become emancipated at 15 and again legally an adult when it comes to magic. Lastly you used magic in front of your cosen who you live with and already knows about you having magic. There is no reason for this trial and definitely no reason for it to be an full trial. We watched as the adults, namely madam Bones ask me questions and then miss Figg all to soon the first 'hem hem' was herd.

"That's the magic person I hate more then you in my last life, she is only second to Dumbledore in this life."

"Dolores Umbridge, I remember her, she is a half blood who tries to be a pure blood. She hated anything not pure blood."

"Ya that sound about right and if your considered a creature its even worse." we watch as it is decided that I won't be expelled and the memory changes rapidly to show Ron and Hermione becoming Prefects to us cleaning the house.

"The Blacks where one of the most known "Dark" families and she has you kids cleaning... Its not even her home!"

"Yaaa I realized that after the war when I moved in for a short while, she took over the house even with it belonging to my godfather and then to me. I went looking through the library after the war with Lady Malfoy one day. She had told me she was looking for a family book that would hopefully help Draco have kids because it was found out that his soon to be wife could not have kids. She told me over half of the books where missing including the book she needed, luckily we found an older version thanks to the panting of Walburga Black."

Soon it was time to go back to school. We watch as we ride  trane to school and the talk with Luna. "I didn't know it last life but that's my godsister Neville Longbottom is my godbrother"

"She reminds me much of a student I went to school with she was a fourth fairy three fourths Witch her name was Kimila something she marred into the Love something family."

"Then that's why the only magical name I know with love is the Lovegood's and that's Luna's last name. Her having fairy blood make a lot of scene she seems to know things and can see things others can't." My memory changed to the welcoming feast and we watched as Umbridge interrupts the feast.

"Does she think this is giving her points with the students?" Voldemort ask

"She wasn't here for the students, she was here for Fudge, she was here for the purebloods. By the end of the year you will see that if she had her way next year would have had a total of maybe 100 students if that." the next memory was of her first class

"Good afternoon class" the class mermaid back a good morning

"That will never do now will it, Good after noon class"

"Good afternoon Professor Umbridge."

"She's antagonizing the students" Voldemort said walking up to a desk to see the book she was passing out. "What is this?" he asked looking at the book in disgust

"That is the ministry approved book for DADA. We where only doing reading not spell work. Because as bitchy pink will tell the class "We as normal savelens will never have a reason to protect our selves and even if there was we have no reason to as it is the Aurors jobs and they will handle anything that comes. So studying the words and how to, will be enough for us to pass the OWLS and then we will never have to do it again"

"And if they cant get there?"

"Then you just "wait because they will," and you better pray that your not dead by the time they get there. Aurors are already being trained really shitty because Fudge with the word of Malfoy and other high paying "ex" death eaters say there not needed as you are gone and bla bla bla. Taking away the knowledge of how to do spells we would have had no protection if anything happened. I mean we already saw in the last war how the light side lost so many more then the dark side because of there lack of will to kill on an old man's word. If some one is shooting you with the killing curse you don't just stun them and hope that none of the other people on his side do the counter curse. You need to do what you need to so they cant hurt others wither that is taking his hand off or his head."

"You know it is really nerve recking to see an 11 year old talk about death the way you do"

"Well I am 210 years old and have been through two war's one of watch was completely on my shoulders, and now the second one is on my shoulders"

Time goes on as we watch Umbrage bate me into saying things so she can give me a detention finally it happened and I was sent to McGonagall. We watched as she told me she could do nothing about my detentions.

"She could have taken them, as your head of house she could have insisted that your detentions be done with her. As Umbridge is just a teacher and not a head of house or anything of higher standers she could have done nothing to you but give you more detentions and it still would not have gone to her it would have gone to your head of house."

"When was that a thing?"

"Its always been a thing the school is meant to be like a home, in muggle school when a kid got into trouble did the teacher ground them or did a parent?"

"Well for normal kids a parent would."

"Exactly, it wasn't until Dumbledore became deputy headmaster that other teachers where aloud to punish the students. Before that the teachers would just make a note to the head of house and the head would decide a proper punishment, because when your in the middle of the problem and your emotions are running high you tend to punish more severely, so giving someone else that power makes it so a kid doesn't get overly punished for something small."

"Of course its another thing Dumbledore fucked up he thinks it creates unity of the staff but in reality it lets people with grudges take it out... I know why Snape did the things he did but it doesn't make it any less of an asshole thing."

The memory changes to Angelina yelling at me about the detention

"Oh yes because you wanted to get detention, and you wanted to miss out on the one thing you love about this school" Voldemort says with an eye role

"That's kinda how I felt to, if it was another person on the team she wouldn't have yelled at them, its not even like I need to be there she just wants me there so she knows if the team will work together witch shouldn't mater, the keeper and the seeker don't even interact with each other, like at all." the memory changed to me walking into Umbridge's pink office filled with cat plates.

"I have never hated a color as much as I do right now" Voldemort says squinting his eyes. We watch the conversation of me trying to get out of detention on Friday. "Did you really think that would work?"

"No definitely not but this way I can say I tried and they cant get to mad." I say as the memory me is told to sit and that I was to do lines.

"Lines aren't that bad, I had to do them in muggle" Voldemort stopes talking when Umbridge pulls out a blood quill. "She's not."

"She is." I say with a small glare at the quill

"How long, how often?" he ask after she doesn't tell me a number of times.

"About five hours everyday for nearly two months not all in a consecutive I had two weeks starting tonight then I got another 3 weeks in about 3 weeks after this because my godsister did an interview with me for her families magazine. Then the odd detention with her every once in a wile whenever she thought I needed reminded that she was in charge. All the wile I was dealing with Snape after Dumble decided I needed to learn Occlumency.

"That is a good thing to know"

"Except I am a natural Occlumency and he knows this because he put a bind on me to block it 100%. Even if I had an acule teacher doing it properly I would not have ben able to do what I needed because he had it locked up." the memory changed to the first Occlumency lessons.

Voldemort watches as Snape tells me to clear my mind then figures the spell at me.

"Your kidding me. No explaining no books no help just "clear your mind" everyone knows that wouldn't work."

"Yep and every time after the lessens I would have even worse attacks from you."

"Of course you did Snape might as well have put you right in front of me, he not only unlocked the door of the link between us after every "lessen" he took off the door from its hinges and opened up all the windows for me to take my pick."

"Well that's grate to know, sometimes I cant tell if he did the things in Dumbles orders or if it was pay back for the way my father treated him in school."

The memories flashed to the making of the DA.

"You don't seem to want to teach this grupe"

"Because I don't. I already had enough to deal with this year, between 2 teachers who where trying there hardest to brake me, you attacking me in my dreams and and the profit dragging me through the mud, I didn't need to add another resin for Umbridge to attack me."

The memory's flash from detention to occlumency class to the DA. and finally to meeting Grawp

"Why is there a toddler gient in the forest?"

"That would be Grawp, Hagrid's baby brother."

"But why is it here, a mear 600 feet from a school full of kids?"

"You know I don't actually know whenever we asked him her just said he "couldn't leave him" but he never told us why, we know you where trying to get the giants on your side but never know why he brought his half brother here."

"Just when I thought the stupid man couldn't get any more stupid he brought a baby giant to the school."

"Oh it gets worse, he ends up wanting us to help teach him how to speak properly."

"HE WHAT?"

The memory changed again to show all the new rules Umbridge made.

"No more then 3 students together without permission, no female/male students may be within 6 inches of each other, all clubs are prohibited unless given permission... she knows this is a school full of teenage kids right, this is just going to make kids hide what there doing better."

"Honestly I think over half of these where just meant to get me into trouble."

Finally the memory of the dream of Sirius being torcherd.

"I didn't think at the time but you had finally found out about the connected and used this to get me to go to the ministry." We watched as I flu called 12 and was lied to by kreacher. "I still can't beleave he lied to me."

"How did he lie?"

"Technically he didn't he just was vary malicious. I asked if Sirus was there when I knew the stupid elf didn't like him so he told me no he wasn't here. Which wasn't a total lie, Sirius was not in the room with him, he was in his mothers old room." Voldemort nodes his head. We watch as Umbridge catches us and how she tries to use varutiserm on me.

"She is braking all sorts of laws isn't she"

"Yep and it sounds like I wasn't the only one she used it on but it gets worse" we watch as she starts to use the crutatice cures on me.

"She really is crazy." we watched as Hermione tricked he into following us alone into the forest. "The lion has venom"

"Yes" I said with a smile "Hermione was always one of the best. She could make you do anything she wanted and make it seam like it was your idea. We often thought that if she would have had one magic parent she would have been in Slytherin" The seen changes to show Hermione and I leading Umbridge into the forest. We watch as Grawp makes an appearance and the senators. We watch as she atacs the leader and is dragged away. The memory changed to us getting to the ministry. We watch as the memory students make there way to the door room and into each room then back out leaving a fire X on the door we watch as I find the Vale but instead of herring the waverly voices I here people talking clearly. 'Huh I'll have to ask Death about it.'

Back out the kids go and another X on the door the pattern continued until we finally reached the prophecy room. Voldemort rubbed his forehead in irritation as his death eaters go back and forth with me.

"You would think they where children also. Its not like there fulling trained witches and wizards."

"I like to think it has something to do with me. That I make adults SO pissed off that they forget that they could easily beat me." We watch as the death eaters fight the students. "You know what I never understand is 99% of spells used even in the middle of the wars where at most like 5th year spells. Hell even myself, my go to spell was expelliarmus wetch was learned in my second year."

"Its mostly to do with what you uses the most. Someone is more apt to do something the masters 6, 7 years ago then something they learned 6 months ago as they know the one learned years ago they have mastered where the one from months ago still has a chance of messing up." we watch as Sirius falls through the vaile and then I was off chasing after Bellatrix, and my attempt of using one of the unforgivable for the first time. Then the appearance of Voldemort and Dumbledore. We watched as Dumbledore and Voldemort fight each other

"This would have been only the 3rd time I've fought him."

"Wh-But he is supposedly the only one who scares you."

"The only one who scared me was you or the you you supposedly where to become. That's why I went after you as a baby so you would have no magic training. Dumbledore was the reason I had to abandon doing things legally and had to start a war, he didn't scare me he just pissed me off." We watch as Voldemort possess me and tells Dumbledore to kill us and then people showing up. We watch as Dumbledore tries to take control of the situation and then takes me to his office. We watch my blow up when I destroyed his things and scream. I noticed Fawkes seemed to be nodding along with me as I yield.

"This is the problem of keeping secrets from children. You think they are to young and before you know it there well past the time you should have told them."

"I fully imagine that he would not have told me anything ever until I was right in front of you. At this time he is aware of the horcruxes and he knows there is at lest 2 more, Me and the Snake. I think he was going to kill all the Horcruxes he could and then tell me that I had a pice of your soul in me and that you needed to kill me to get ride if it. In doing so I would let you kill me then he would have free reign to "defeat" you just like he did with Grindelwald, and he would get all the fame. And then would use that fame to get rid of the muggles."

The memory changed to the next day when the paper tells everyone that Voldemort was back. We watched as some of the students came up and apologized to me, and others look at me in fear, fear of the future fear that Voldemort had been alive for over a year to get recruits, and fear I would not forgive them. Before long we where boarding the train to go back home.

"And that's fifth year it only goes down form here."