Jordan's POV

I stared at the ceiling feeling helpless. Johnnie wanted what I couldn't give him.

I heard a loud whimper from the bathroom, as well as a moan of my name. I took a deep breath and tried my best to stay as calm as possible. That's a hard thing to do when your fiancé is currently in the bathroom jerking himself off to you.

I wanted to go in and knock on the door, pin him against the wall a-

Never mind.

I sighed sadly at the lump in my throat. He couldn't know, and I just had to do this one thing. I have to get over it. Johnnie isn't 'him'. He wouldn't ever hurt me..

I heard the bathroom door unlock and a red faced Johnnie walked out, panting and sweaty.

"Better?" I questioned

"Better." He confirmed quietly, blushing like mad.

He crawled into the bed with me, and cuddled up against my chest.

"Jordan, when did you know you loved me?" Johnnie inquired sleepily.

*flashback*

I took my boyfriend, Johnnie's hand in my own. I felt him lace his fingers between mine and squeezed lightly.

I had to go back to Canada soon, holiday would be over. I frowned at that, but remembered what I came here to tell Johnnie reminding me that this could work. I prayed it did.

We walked along the old beaten down path in the parks taller grasses and weeds. Honestly I'm not sure why or how this is romantic, but this is where everyone took their dates, so I took everyone else's experience and applied it to my situation.

I planted myself down on the flatter part of the field and patted the ground beside me.

"Sit with me." I smiled up at him.

He blushed and sat down, never once disconnecting our interlocking fingers.

Johnnie then rested his head on my shoulder and stared ahead at the wild flowers and such. I kissed his forehead and sighed, content.

"So why did you ask me out on a date here? Not that I don't love it, because I absolutely do! I love anywhere that has you.." Johnnie said blushing scarlet.

I smiled slightly before speaking "because it's romantic."

He blushed even darker before kissing my cheek softly. "You're perfect."

I sighed, content. This is how it's supposed to be. This is supposed to be my life. He is supposed to be my life.

"Johnnie, I know it's only been a month, but I love you so damn much. I can't ever show you how much you mean to me. I know I'm a lot older.. I know. God, eighteen and thirteen sounds so wrong. But with you it's not, it's so right. I truly do love you Johnnie Guilbert." I said blushing

Johnnie blushed slightly and pecked my cheek "I love you too, Jordan Sweeto."

This is it, I want to marry this man.

*flashback over*

I smiled at the memory as I finished retelling the greatest story ever told.

"You think we could tell your mom?" Johnnie whispered into the silent room.

I thought about it, and I saw no problems with it except we've been dating for four years, and engaged for 3 months. Mom may not be happy about that secret. Dad on the other hand, I had no way of knowing how he'd take it.

It put me on edge just thinking about the worst reactions possible. With that being said, it would be amazing to tell my mom. I'm so close to her, and I miss when we had no secrets.

This secret is certainly a doozy.

"Yeah. I think we can do that. Maybe Skype her?" I said into the thick, dead air.

"I just want her to know. She is my mother in law to be." He said giggling, whilst cuddling deeper into my side.

"Can you two shut the FUCK up! I can't even deal with this right now." Came a very angry Bryan's voice from above us.

I just chuckled a bit, and kissed Johnnie's forehead.

"We should get some rest. It's a big day tomorrow."

And with that, Johnnie's breathing started to get shallow and he drifted off, finally allowing me to do the same.

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I was quickly shaken awake by a cute little raven haired boy bouncing on my stomach.

"IT IS LITERALLY ELEVEN JORDAN!" He yelled as if I should've known.

"So? m'sleepy baby." I yawned laying back down.

"NO! We gotta Skype momma Sweeto! COME ONNNN!" He yelled once again before running into the living room area.

I sighed before picking myself up off the bed, and throwing on the nearest shirt that I assumed was mine. I tripped over Johnnie's pile of clothes, on my way to the bathroom.

"Dammit JOHNNIE!" I yell laughing

"HAHAHA! Hah! I HAVE HAD SO MUCH MONSTER!" He yelled flopping onto the couch.

I chuckled before CAREFULLY walking into the bathroom to straighten my hair, and attempt to tame it.

I turned on my straightener and waited for it to heat up. I stared at my reflection in the mirror and sighed softly. I can still remember the bruises, and the pain.

I remember all of it, and why I was scared to be with Johnnie. Why I'm the way I am today.

I jumped out of my thoughts when I heard my straightener beep, notifying me that it was heated up. I picked up the device and clamped my hair between the plates, straightening the strands.

Slowly my hair was to its usual lion mane appearance and I was happy with it. I unlocked the bathroom door walked towards Johnnie who was currently reaching for something in the fridge.

I came up behind him and gripped his waist loosely, and kissed he nape of his neck softly.

"Hey, beautiful." I said smiling.

"Hello! OMG can we skype momma Sweeto! Pleasee!" He begged, turning around, jumping and wrapping his legs around my waist.
What a hyperactive child.

I stumbled a bit not expecting the weight. I reacted quickly though, regaining my balance. I closed the open fridge door too.

"Of course baby." I smiled before dropping Johnnie on his ass and laughing.

"HEY! THAT WAS RUUUUUUDE!" He yelled, laughing all the same.

I smile, grabbing my laptop and sitting on the couch. I was slightly perplexed when I didn't hear Bryan or Damon, and realized I hadn't seen them at all today.

"Where are Bryan and Damon?" I ask

"Breakfast or something. Not here." Johnnie said plopping on my lap. "I stay here."

I chuckled, kissing his neck softly. "You can't baby. I'll let you after okay?"

"Fineeeeee" he groaned rolling off me. I gasped and the harsh rubbing against my.. Areas. Johnnie didn't notice, thankfully, so I placed my laptop on the coffee table and started to log on.

I typed in my password and watched as Skype opened just like it should. My skype showed my contacts and I clicked on my mom's. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. This was it.

"Calm down Jordan, it'll be okay, I promise." He said grabbing my hand in his.

I clicked the video call button, and smiled when I saw my mothers bright face on the screen.

"JORDAN! Who's your friend?" She yelled smiling from ear to ear.

I smiled back "hey mom! This is Johnnie."

Johnnie waved slightly and smiled.

"Jordan, how are you honey?" She asked sweetly

"Pretty good, pretty good.." I trailed off looking towards Johnnie.

"Jordan,I know you better than this. What happened? Good? Bad?" She said smirking, knowing me better than I had thought.

"Well mom. I've met someone." I said blushing slightly.

"Go on." She smiled encouragingly, almost smirking.

"So Uhm. Remember that holiday we took like, when I was eighteen?" I said

She nodded listening intently.

"Well, I met someone.. A boy, a lovely boy. A boy I've been dating for four years now. A boy I want to marry the second he turns eighteen. I love him mom. I love Johnnie." I said smiling, kissing Johnnie's cheek and grabbing his hand.

My mom sat there for a few seconds.

"I'm disappointed in you." She said straight faced.

My smile faltered and my stomach dropped.

"Because you didn't tell me sooner you twat! How did I not know my son was dating someone for four years!" She chuckled slightly.

"But you two are cute. Using condoms?" She asked smirking

"MOM! We don't do that!" I yelled covering my face with my hands.

"Four years and nothing? Poor Johnnie. With Jordan depriving you and such." She said giggling like a twelve year old.

"I know right! Gosh." Johnnie joined in giggling.

"Oh my god guys!" I whine

"Okay okay Jordan, I need the details now." She said, smile still not leaving her features.

"Well, this is Johnnie Guilbert. He's seventeen years old. Uh-" I said getting cut off by my mother.

"Seventeen.. That's very young Jordan. Johnnie, this is risky." She said smile faltering slightly.

"But I love Jordan. And I turn 18 the 28th of August!" Johnnie said bubbly and happy.

"Alright.. Continue. Where does this boy live?" She asks

"North America.." I say sighing sadly at the thought of rarely seeing my fiancé.

"The Americas! How have you made it work?! How WILL you make it work?" She said with concern.

A thought came to me. "I want him to move in with me." I said popping off with the totally foreign idea. Johnnie's eyes went wide, and his smile grew. I looked into his eyes.

"If that's alright with you."

His eyes watered slightly before he nodded frantically and hugging me tightly. I then pecked him on the lips and never stopped smiling once.

"Okay.. AWEEEE!" My mother yelled acting like a fangirl.

"MOM!" I yelled blushing, Johnnie just as red faced.

"Also this idiot proposed to me. He left that out too." Johnnie said smirking.

"YOU PROPOSED! JORDAN SWEETO YOU BETTER NOT HAVE! HOW COULD YOU NOT TELL ME!" She shrieked

"... I love you. You can choose my suit." I offer to help the issue

"Deal." She smiled cheekily

"Well darlings, I best be off! I have things to do, people to see. And you guys seemingly have people to do, things to see. Eh?" She giggled and winked.

"Oh my god, bye mom! Love you." I said covering my scarlet face.

"Bye son, and son in law! Love you both!" She said smiling one last time before clicking off.

I just sat there taken aback still by how well she took it. My thinking was cut short at the opening of the bus door.

"You think they fu- oh hey!" Damon said walking into the 'living area' of the bus.

"Hello. And no. Virgin, waiting til marriage. FALALALA!" I said covering my ears and laughing

"Oh calm down babe." Johnnie said pulling on my wrist in an attempt to get me to uncover my face.

"BAAAAAABE! I want a kiss!" He said after only a few tugs at my arm.

"NO!" I said laughing and face planting into the couch, pulling him along with me.

I felt that his hips were rested on my ass. I blushed, and hoped Johnnie didn't notice. But that would be too much luck.

"So you're a bottom Jordan? I thought we both agreed I definitely was" he giggled and kissed my neck.

"St-stop." I said bursting out into laughter before rolling off the couch, falling a tangle of limbs onto the floor.

"GET A ROOM!" Bryan yelled before throwing a pillow at us.

I moaned into the air in annoyance. "We don't need one!"

Today was already a long day. I'm not sure how much more I can bare.