I have tried my hardest. But the chat strays from the whole goal, no one talks about the whole situation either. We got into many fights and ordeals. I get panic attacks and I cry because of the thing. I can't handle this whole thing. I have tried to keep it up, but I barely go one anymore. I do ask what people are doing, but they have forgotten what the original goal is. Now, we just argue and talk about stuff that has no relation to the original goal. People say they will help, I ask what they are doing to help, they just show me talking to people.

People want to help, but are they really? Most people aren't on. Don't bash me for this. You at you will be on, but are you really? Yeah you are busy, but you have only come by to talk to people. Plus, some are there just because they are bored. They say they do want to help but they don't do shit. Now something bug has happened which freaked everyone out and now no one what's to be there. I have tried and tried and tried. I want people to tell me to keep it going, though some will tell me to do it, it breaks my heart.

I just can't anymore. People don't do shit, so why start late? I am so so sorry about this. I want to cry but I cannot.

Does anyone actually want to work and do stuff? Or do you just want to talk about everything opposite of the goal? Tell me truthfully. I don't want half truths or lies, I will not get mad. I can't deal with this. I cry and get panic attacks from this whole thing. I know deep down it could never work truly.

Please don't hate me. Anyone who is in the chat and who sees this, tell me truthfully. You know who you are.