I'm so tired. My eyes puffed as I cried for soo long. I'm devastated. I stood under the hot shower thinking about y/n. After a long shower I wrapped myself in a towel looking into the mirror. My eyes fell on the razor in the stand. I'm not stable right now. I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know when I picked it up but that razor it's in my hand now.

I can't forget y/n's cuts on her palm. I can't forget the blood I saw on her hands. all I can see is her teary face. I cut myself on my other hand lost in my thoughts. I saw blood oozing out but it felt so good as this isn't the first time I'm doing. It pained in the beginning but after few cuts it's all numb. A smirk formed on my face Thinking "this is how y/n must have felt or worse". I'm sorry y/n I'm not there for you when you need me. But I can atleast do this for you". I thought for myself seeing those fresh cuts. I was once addictive to this habit but I stopped when y/n tried to copy me. I cleaned my self again and came out put on warm clothes and I went to bed as I'm so tired and my eyes are heavy.

The boys pov:

We're all siting in living room. Processing what just happened till now. We're just speechless. We never knew he's suffering like hell for so long. He never showed us that side of him. He used to all cheerful playing around with us. We felt bad so bad for y/n too. She's too young to face this. When we dropped y/n outside the van read LILY ORPHANAGE our hearts shattered into pieces.We saw how cruel they're being treated. We wished it isn't true. "Guys we need to be there for our taehyungie. He's going through a hard time. We should look after him" jin spoke and everyone nodded as a Yes. Jhope and jimin went to the room saw tae sleeping they silently closed the door and came and informed others. " He must be exhausted he should eat something. Let's make dinner first" Suga said. "Meanwhile let him rest" Namjoon said. They all agreed.

An hour later dinner is finally ready. "Anyone bring taehyungie here dinner is ready" Suga announced. Jungkook and j hope went to the room to wake him. "Taehyung-ah.... Taehyung-ah.... Wake up let's eat something " j hope said patting on his stomach. He slowly opend his eyes looking at us "hyung I have no appetite let me skip for this day" he said. " Hyung please if you're not coming we're also not going to eat" jungkook said. "Ahh.. please" he requested and woke up and sat on the bed. "Just eat a little" j hope said. Agreeing to that tae got off the bed. He's weak too. Jungkook put his arm over his waist and helped him to  walk.

We all sat at the table. Food is being served. There's an absolute silence at the table."wahh this tastes soo good" Mmmyumm" Jin and Jhope are trying to cheer evryone so that tae wouldn't feel awkward. They're now talking about the dance practice, about the funny lines they should include in Their songs and all. Tae also cheered up a little seeing that members felt at ease. We finished our dinner tae got up and went to the sink to wash his hands.

After washing his hands he took a tissue wiping his hands he and jungkook bumped into each other. Jungkook holding the bowls hit tae's hand and he winced drawing everyone's attention. Jungkook quickly ran past him placed the bowls near the sink came back again quickly "I'm so sorry hyung ... Did I hit you bad " he said looking at taehyung worriedly. "No no it's okay I didn't see you coming" taehyung said. Jungkook saw tae's long sleeve had some curry fell when they bumped into eachother. " Hyung your sleeve..... Ahh... Let me help you" he said taking tae's hand. He again winced . " I- I'm sorry hyung I didn't mean t-to" jungkook said confused and worried. Jimin came hearing tae's wincing " what happened tae" he asked. He took tae's hand but tae refused to give his hand.

This made jimin suspect and he again touched tae's hand. He did it again. "Taehyung-ah" with forrowing eyebrows he grabbed his arm with one hand and lift tht long sleeve. Jungkook and jimin are stunned to see fresh cuts on his hand. Taehyung trying to cover the cuts but jungkook stopped him from doing that. "HYUNGGGGG...... Taehyunnggggg.." jungkook and jimin yelled. Evryone came running and saw the cuts. Their eyes widened. They were angry and were shocked. "Taehyung-ah...whaaattt????.... Whyyyy????" What are you doiing... Seriously!!!" Namjoon spoke . Tae didn't give any answer but tears are streaming down. "Let's first apply medicine" jin said holding taehyung's shoulder making him move.

We're now sitting on the couch. Evryone is looking at taehyung as he lowered his head. Jimin and Suga are sitting either sides of taehyung. Suga is applying medicine on the cuts. "Would you like to talk or share anything with us" Namjoon asked. Taehyung was silent "it's okay if you're no----" but taehyung didn't let jhope finish his sentence and said "thankyou so much for today. I'm so thankful for you stood by my side." He said and started crying. Jimin who sat beside tae started rubbing his back. Everyone is looking with concern eyes at tae. " Taehyung it's nothing to be thankful for. We did what we will for our family" j hope said and everyone tagged along. "This is the first time ever in my life someone called us family and stood for us". Taehyung says and sobbs again. "My parents *clears his throat* my parents they died 8 years ago in a car accident. *Wiping his tears* " me and my sister survived on the edge.

After the cremation our uncle sent us to lily orphanage. Ne never visited us. We even don't know if we had any family or they even remember us." Taehyung is fiddling with his fingers. " Y/n and I went through a lot in the Care they used to treat us very unfairly. Other kids locked us in dark room for days to threaten us and to fear them. And the staff let us starve for days." So I started working part times secretly to bring her food." And he went on saying all the mean things happened in his life. Nightmares and about y/n. Members are listening to his every word and their hearts broke listening to his story. Jungkook and Jimin cried holding taehyung. Evryone almost let out tears.

"Taehyung-ah don't worry anymore now we're here" Namjoon said. "Now we're one big family you can count on us" Suga said. "Please don't harm yourself or blame yourself tae we love you always remember that" j hope said. " If y/n is your sister, she is our sister too" Taehyung started crying again as he never listened to these words in his life " I was afraid to tell you at first because everyone I met used me , betrayed me bullied me. I thought you would do the same if you know about me" taehyung said. "Yahh.... Taehyung!!!!!! seriously.... Why'd we do that???" Jimin cried holding tae's hands. "Who are they? Which bastards did this to you huh?? Tell me ... I'll go punch them" jungkook said rolling up his sleeves. Other members also rolling up their sleeves and said " tell us we'll beat the shit out of them" they exclaimed. Taehyung finally let out a small chuckle " I'm so glad that you came into my life. I think we're gonna be a one big family" taehyung said. "We are" Evryone came in for a group hug and comforted taehyung. After talking Their hearts out  We went to sleep.

Feeels like I'm draaging the story ... It's boring right...😐😐.... This is my first time writing....  Hope you put up with me.

Trust me  something interesting is coming up😷.