Alexander's POV

"So, you said you didn't choose this life, then how did you get in it?" She asked after a long pause.

"I was really young when I got into it. My parents had divorced and I lived with my mom, but we couldn't manage. I searched for a job but no one wanted a fourteen year old teen working for them. So my father offered to give me a job" These memories were something I had buried in the back of my mind,but it was nice talking to someone.

"What was the job?" She titled her head. As if the fact that she was almost naked wasn't enough she was acting all cute too.

"At first it was just working at clubs as the security or something like that but that didn't give me enough money. I needed the money because my mom was sick so he offered me to run some errands for him. That was selling drugs to his customers. At first I refused but them my mom started getting worse and I didn't have a choice" I said thinking about all the years that I spent thinking I was wrong and I could have found another way.

I thought I was just weak and chose the easy way, but I was young and naive and I didn't know what to do except listen to my father.

"How did you go from selling drugs to this?" the way she said this broke my heart. She was disgusted I could see it and she was probably scared of me too. I fucked up.

"I was sixteen and I was quite used to the job. I was famous around the community. One day a rival attacked me while I was going home. He had a gun and it was him or me. I was frustrated after that. I didn't know how I would tell my dad or my mom. I never got to tell my mom. She was dead on the floor when I arrived home. Her sickness got to her" My voice was breaking and my eyes were welling up.

After all these years why, why am I still sensitive about it?

"So I went to live with my dad and he told me that now that I had killed for the first time I could become a hit man or an underdog and I listened to him because he was my father and I was too young. I hated it, but I was dead inside Aria. I felt pain and anger and I-I" I broke down and let my tears fall. I wasn't afraid to cry in front of her, I wanted her to know I wasn't a heartless monster. At least now that I have her.

"It's okay" She whispered and cupped my jaw. "I understand"

"I'm a demon"

"Stop"

"Everytime I took a life it took a little bit out of me till I became dead inside. I was heartless, I started getting into more and more without realizing it and soon I became a mafia leader and people were scared of me"

I was so used to all that shit that now I was realizing how fucked up it is. I had power and money but I didn't want it if I didn't have her. People in the community treated me with respect when in fact they didn't really respect me they were just scared of the consequences if they didn't. I was the big boss. The boss of the bosses.

"Please stay with me baby, I could protect you, they're all afraid of me" I was desperate to make her stay. I would do anything, but if she chose to leave then I would give up. Life has no meaning without her. She gives life.

"Can I think about it?" She asked biting her lip. Her soft, juicy, coral pink lips that I adored.

"Of course" I said with my head hung. My heart skipped a beat at her question. "Please stay. I'll give you everything to satisfy your needs, emotionally and materially"

And physically if you let me.

"Just please let me think about it. It's kind of a shock and after all my brother did" She trailed off looking down.

I hated that fucker for what he did to her. He hurt her and I wanted to hurt him just the same if not more. He deserved punishment for hurting my little angel so much.

"Do you want to see your brother? One last time maybe?" I asked softly. She stayed silent thinking for a few seconds.

"Yes. One last time" She nodded.

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"Don't be scared, okay baby? He can't hurt you, I'm here" I whispered in her ear holding her shoulders.

"Yeah" She murmured and hid her head in my chest. I love it when she does that, she's like a little baby she's so cute I can't handle it.

We reached his cage. He was calm this time. Last time I was here he was screaming and wiggling around.

"Well well well, If it isn't my beloved sister" He said smirking.

Don't smirk too much boy, you're in a cage.

"I knew it, I knew it! I knew you were fucking the "big boss" that's how much of a whore you are!" He dared to utter those words about her. This made me beyond angry. I wanted to let myself go but I couldn't, not in front of her.

"Do not talk to her that way" I said using my lower tone.

"You don't scare me Russo. I know I'm going to die anyway there's no point in listening to you"

"As you wish"

"So Ari, do you know your lover boy here actually was looking for you to kill you?"

No no! Why did he have to say that? That fucker I'm going to make him wish he had never been born!

"What is he saying?" My sweet baby asked peeking up at me.

"Don't listen to him baby-"

"I'm telling the truth Aria, the roommate thing was planned. He planned on killing you"

He's not only telling her things that only I had to te her, he's telling them wrong too.

"Alex?"

"I'll explain everything Aria, let's get out of here" I said almost begging her to listen to me.

"No, Colton what are you saying?"

"His plan was to kill you little sis, he pretended to be the nice roommate when in fact he was just a killer and you were his next victim" The fucker was laughing. Laughing while tearing my hopes and dreams with her to shreds. He was ruining my life.

"Aria, don't listen to him, you can't trust him, trust me"

"He vowed to kill you Ari and you know why? Because I killed his father, he didn't want you, he wanted to find me and maybe kept you for a fuck toy"

"Alex did you really want to kill me?" She turned to me.

"I can explain-"

"Did you?"

"Yes but-"

"I can't believe you!" She yelled and that bastard opened his mouth again.

"He killed Caleb too you know"

"That's not true, you know it's not true Caleb is safe, I said I wouldn't kill them-"

"Just take me out of here"

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She had been locked in her room ever since. I kept knocking on her door begging her to open, telling her that he was wrong and that I could explain.

But she just ignored me.

I was worried something could've happened to her so I asked her for a sign that she was okay and she made a noise.

Now I had no hope with her. She would leave me.

I would never feel her lips against mine again, I would never touch her soft silky skin again and she would remain a sweet faint memory. Like a dream.

I guess an angel like her didn't belong with a demon like me. She didn't deserve that, she deserved someone kind, a prince.

How could I even think for just a second that she could be mine?

I was finally being punished for all the bad that I had done by having what I love the most taken away from me forever. That was the worse punishment.

I hated myself to the point that I didn't want to exist anymore. I was disgusted by my own self. I just wanted her to be happy and she couldn't be happy with me. I was a failure.

I heard the doorbell but ignored it anyway. I wasn't in the mood for anything, I didn't even eat.

"Alexander open the fucking door right fucking now or I will break it down" I heard Gabriel's voice.

"Leave" I growled.

"Fine, I take it you don't want your door anymore" He said and started banging on the door louder. I was sure he would actually break it so I opened the door.

And he fell.

"I was about to jump on the door why did you open it?" he whined scratching his head.

"Because I want my door, now what the hell do you want?"

"Aria"

"I'll cut you to pieces and feed you to the dogs"

"Sounds fun" he ignored me and walked right in. "Aria will you open the door for me please?"

As if she would ever open the fucking door-

"Thank you" I heard him say while the door creaked open. I couldn't see her and she closed the door too fast.

Why did he let him and not me in?