My sun soaked kisses
won't be yours to cherish
Hands that had once
Caressed your ordinary body
With morbid curiosity
Just as easily lifted to touch
His bronzed ones

I had felt you hold my body
And wield your amorous affection
as a make believe mask,
Matched your over zealous fixtures
With an arduous urgency
And you abandoned me
in a hellish haste
Never bothering to find out
if I ever really wanted you

As my tears sinfully seeped into the softness of the bed
I embraced the demons haunting me
Held them close to my chest
Forever misconstrued like i am