I can hardly pretend
That you don't affect me at all
That the angst filling my entire being
Has nothing to do with you
That my tears have been for naught
In driving you away

I seek strength
I seek you,
Weak with desire
I propel my feet forward somehow
Despite all that i have been feeling

I feel agony
For all the times
you have been in agony
And i feel my heart breaking
As the tears in my eyes spill softly,
Like memories that aren't my own

I feel afraid
For all the times
You have been afraid
Of the nightmarish mornings
The ghostly pale skin,
And hollow eyes devoid of purpose

I feel bereft of love
For all the times
You thought you were all alone
Singing quietly in the night
Tired of waiting
for it to morph into dawn

I felt everything
Despite your nonchalant words,
Finding ways to fill the painful pauses
To look past the beautiful sky
And feel the moon's glow,
Tracing your fearful face